MERDEKA!!

first and foremost :- HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY TO MY BELOVED COUNTRY! sweet 61 indeed..
i shall celebrate you with food and more food. yeah, diet gone haywire again starting from yesterday. went to catch a movie with yolli, screw diet - had popcorn (her), nachos (me), and diet coke. to think i still asked for diet coke with the food is actually a laugh, eh. ended the night with a chicken salad (her) and the beloved calamari (me). as usual the lavish eating habit continued until today, where i had 2 potato puff for breakfast. too bad my attempt in finding this indonesian place around tanjong pagar failed, really wanted to try the green chilli after hearing someone raved about it in the email.
i guess the fats in me are shouting the same word too - merdeka!! victory!!. a month to fasting month and i am still slacking big. the marathon is just around the corner and i haven't do any training at all. and to think i want to perform better than last year!!
the only thing to make me feel less guilty is the fact my trainer told me yesterday - when you are stress your body produce (or is it release?) more of cortisol (??) hormone that is known to retain fat.
speaking of august 17, tonight is the INXS concert at fort canning. i really wanted to go if i know anyone who's going - too bad i didn't. well actually i don't really know their songs, only 1 or 2 of it only. but it is because of JD who is the winner of the 1st season of rockstar that makes me want to go. that's the problem with reality show, you (at least me) kinda want to see the person you've been following on tv for real - especially when the person is as controversial as JD. i still didn't see the greatness of pretty vegas though. and oh, dilana - i kinda fancy ryan and magni as well nowadays ... hope you guys are the last 3 person standing.