lunch talk

lack of rest, lack of sleep, lack of water resulted in me feeling slightly giddy today. i've been drinking lesser and lesser water nowadays, sometimes just because i am too concentrated at work that i'm lazy to move and top up the water. anyways, i decided to ask my workmate to pack lunch for me so that i could catch some rest, if not sleep, during lunch time. i normally turn my chair towards the glass window and look outside while resting. couldn't do that today as i am too tired that i decided to open my prayer mat and sleep under the desk. it was a good 30mins rest i should say. hmm, maybe i'll bring sarong or something so that i can do it as and when i need to do it during lunch.

lunch wise, since jen is going to arcade i asked her to get me a pack of rice with sotong, acar, and sambal goreng. yummy! it wasn't the same as what i used to order 'cos there's some chilli and gravy that i ended up sweating like mad while eating it. darn spicy. but i guess i needed to sweat it out to ease the fever. now i'm feeling a little bit better but my tummy is growling. and i have a class tonight ...

Carpe Diem

a good movie indeed. actually, let me rephrase. a great movie indeed. nothing can stop you from living, all you need is determination. and imagination and memory. and of course the will to live life to the fullest. never delay doing things you want to do, saying words you want to say, anything.
life is fragile. just never ever give up.
pic. courtesy of imdb.com

Soeharto Dies

finally he died. sounds harsh i know but he's been suffering for quite some time. innalillahi wa inna ilaihi roji'un

Quote

give your life for the one who gives you his love

but

give your self-respect only to the one who is willing to be destroyed for your love

- fanaa, 2006

beraaaattt

Detour

the first time i tried hard saving a ball during the game resulting in me falling down in the court. best part was that my toe got twisted and now its swollen and painful. decided not to join those going for dinner i went home instead with the thought of studying in my mind. bought some food, drinks and detergent prior to reaching home. the food somehow seemed spoiled if not taste awful that i ended up ordering pizza instead. browsing youtube somehow i searched for a bollywood movie and found one i've been wanting to see; it was highly recommended by ally as well.

as for my study? hmmm....

Amusing

i find it amusing when i knew how a friend get to know female friends. how he could just stop and said hi to the girl she saw and ended up with her number. well he is a very charming guy with a good look, guess woman can't resist that. nevertheless, i still find it amusing that he's out on a date with a girl he met while he was passing by a certain area. nothing dodgy or something, well even if there is i don't want to know. i find it much much amusing when another friend left early weeks ago during one of the event 'cos he had a date. why amusing? well she knew the girl she's meeting while he was on a date! basically he said hi and get the number of a girl sitting at the next table while his date went to the loo. there's definitely dodgy stuff going on when he is involved but again i don't want to know. knowing the stuff he shared during the xmas party is more than enough already. as long as they respect me as a friend, i'm fine.

so it's just interesting to see how they operated last night, not both guys mentioned above but same kinda attitude. two guys went up to two ladies who were standing by the edge. they went back a few minutes afterwards. while they're walking back to the group, two other guys approached the girls, the girl said something to them and they laughed. haha, they're couples!! but that didn't deter the boys as they still wandered around afterwards. men!

SIGH

i know its just not meant to be. things happened for a reason. there's always light at the end of the tunnel. i even weighed the pros and cons and honestly i was slightly inclined towards the cons. but still i can't say i wasn't disappointed. a little bit, but still am. it's just a shame to have missed such an opportunity. oh well, bottom line is that its just not meant to be. God knows what's best for me and i believe missing this is the best option

i'll just look at all the stuff i'd be missing had it been the other way around. it's better to spend my energy focusing on things i want to achieve this year. for now, let me have a go with the mars bars, time out, light coke i bought earlier. i'm sure i'll be a lot happier when i meet my friends later.

on a totally different note, registration for the amazing race asia 3 is open!! i am so very keen to try out but cin couldn't take longer leave after back from her 2 mths leave. i want to try but i couldn't find anyone who's willing to try. sigh

Believe It Or Not

me and hp attended the ibm conference at marriott today. before leaving we entered the "hall of predictions" where people can try their luck on palm reading, face reading, chinese horoscope reading, and tarot card reading. honestly, i don't believe in all these because for me fate is only in the hand of God, but that doesn't mean i can't try for fun, right? hehe ...

i chose the tarot card 'cos i'm always intrigue by this. 'bismillah' i shuffled the card, put it down and started to distract the reader with questions on how long he studied this, why he studied this etc. he was nice to answer all my questions while looking at the cards i chose. hmm, first question - "are you singaporean?" no. and he pointed at the card where there's a group of people sitting in a boat in the middle of the ocean - okay well, coincidence. the 2nd statement kinda caught me by surprise and then everything else that came out of his mouth made me smiled and wondered as well. it's not something out of the ordinary, there's some things he said that made me feel like saying 'duh, that happens to everyone' out loud, but it was fun and surprisingly it coincides with what's on my mind. one think he said that made me nodded my head was when he mentioned about me getting distance from my belief. i totally agree with this and i really need to fix this fast.

it was a fun reading and honestly i don't know if i should feel a slight regret doing it. knowing myself better i know i'll have his words spinning in my head for quite some time.

pic. courtesy of yahoo.com (howstuffworks.com)

2nd One

so i've started teaching the bahasa class today. i was told that i was supposed to be teaching intermediate class but the group couldn't make it early that the class had to be postpone, and i ended up with another beginner class. perfectly fine for me 'cos i can make sure to be more organised now that i have teach it before. pretty shocked upon seeing the classroom - it was double the size of my previous one, without those manual projector. it's good though 'cos i have to use whiteboard; another practice for me. not sure if i want to prepare slides for next class, whiteboard seems to be working just fine.

student wise, mostly looks serious and seems like there are few middle aged police officers now compared to last class. during the class the door was open, two officers who're late. and one caught my attention the moment i saw him - cute smile, nice body (buff but not a v-shape like a frog), and just cute. the funny part was after erasing the notes from the whiteboard i called a name to test them and it was his name. so i had to come closer and yes, he has a nice smile. those boyish grin - well he looks like he's still in his twenties, so he is a boy indeed. not bad lah, something to look at if i ever get bored or feeling tired in class.

so far it was a good start. overall people are receptive, lots of laughs and q&a sessions. i am glad that the class a lively even from day 1. 3 hours eh, if they're all plain dead i'd end up dying as well....

Heath Ledger

10 things i hate about you. the patriot. the knight's tale. casanova. brokeback mountain.
found dead. sleeping pills. peak of his career. 28 years old.
what a shame. what a waste. price of popularity?
oh well, who am i to judge....
pic. courtesy of yahoo.com

Emo Time =)

Nice Clip, Nice Song

anyone happen to have the mp3 to share? :)

Carpe Diem

• get out of your comfort zone, don't just leave in the path - get out of that path
• share happinness
• we have become an increasingly comfort addicted people, change that
• fill your life while you have it
• life is just to short to be sorry for oneself, if you're unhappy talk about it. settle things fast
• self-pity is just pathetic. moody is darn pathetic. settle things fast rather than keeping it inside
• you're here to live, not to just sit on a couch

Finally

after months of her missing tennis, late for breakfast, and basically late for every other appointments i had a nice one-on-one catch up with our very own ms. drama queen. it was a simple yet sweet catch up. we started with snacks continued with movie and ended it with dessert. loads of talking, sharing, constructive criticism and simply updating each other. friendship does take a lot of effort and i'm just glad we decided to do this instead of attending the event. nothing beats face-to-face on a 1-on-1 basis.

movie wise, finally after losing his lady to another man, in love with a lady and nothing happened, marrying a lady who's in love with another man, again losing his lady to another man; he ended up with his 1st choice. well done, james - finally....

pic. courtesy of imdb.com

Tipping Point

i am reading a book with the above title now. about how small things could have a huge impact on a large scale. how, for example, mentioning the word 'yawn' could make people reading/listening to it ended up yawning and how others who see it could end up yawning as well and it will just keep on snowballing. and then i went for super sneak preview earlier tonight. a movie about how a lie changed the life of several people including herself. briony's actions is indeed an example of a tipping point. brilliant movie indeed, and not to forget, James McAvoy :) somehow the 'come back, come back to me' reminded me of another movie though - 'come back to me, come back to cold mountain'
on a totally different note, i pity one of the sister from the malaysian team of the amazing race asia. losing her short term memory temporarily - poor girl, i know how scary that can be....

picture courtesy of imdb.com

Life Is Like A Movie, Go To The Cinema

i was feeling tired this morning, well i haven't had enough rest for the past few months now. i skipped pump (what's new?) and it seems that my 4 pillows kept on calling me everytime i woke up to go for a shower. by 7.40ish i texted my boss telling her that i had to take the morning leave and should be at the office in the afternoon. i went back to bed then. of course i couldn't sleep - my body clock has switched on by then. i woke up, showered and went surfing. my plan is to have a relaxing morning - the reason i took 1/2 day leave. by 9ish i was restless and after browsing this and that, i decided to head down to vivo and catch a movie i wanted to watch for quite some time. timing wise is perfect too - can still be in the office on time.

once in the cinema while waiting for the movie to start i spoke to myself, how i could be so lazy waking up for work yet so excited, ignoring how tired i was, in catching a show. that is when i came up with the quote which is the title of this post.

a friend texted me asking my whereabouts since i didn't reply to her email. told her my plan and once at the office the 1st thing i did was to reply to her. she found me amusing to skip work and yet energised for a movie. i shared my newly found quote to her which of course made her laughed. but it is true, movie is part of me.

oh and movie wise? it was a nice movie with a simple plot - 3 brothers heading on a road trip together. as expected when siblings are united, some disagreement, arguments, hiding things from a certain sibling though deep down inside they have a strong bond and love - i can just picture me and my 2 sisters heading out on a road trip together. it must've been a fun irritating at times trip.

Email From Siem Riep

Dear my customers
how are you today ? whay are doing now?
i'm very well thank you . i'm sorry didn't E mail see you
because now is hight season very bacy day
i want you help me something i recomment somefrient
that they want see Ankor wat in siem reap
i would to say good luck to you..
frome me Makara

got an email from the driver i engaged upon during my trip there. seems like he finally got his own tuk tuk and has his own business now. so any of you guys wanting to go there and would like to engaged a personal tuk tuk driver, let me know - i have his contact number :)

Reunion

you see LAH! i was determined to sleep early after only managed to sleep at 6 this morning thanks to the amount of coke intake and yet i couldn't. how am i ever going to be able to wake up early for monday pump remains a question forever. anyways since i'm awake and about, i'll just kill the time typing down my weekend activities.

skipped vb on saturday as i don't think i want to bring all those sweet corns and sweet potatoes with me to sentosa. i've been skipping vb for 3 weeks now that i kinda miss it but at the same time i don't want to rush things. vb starts at 1pm and if i were to do i still had to go home at 3pm. with the court set-up etc we can only play around 1.30ish so well let it go then. left the house at 5.30pm once the rain stopped to attend the reunion - university of indonesia's reunion. i was really overwhelmed by the amount of foods available there - siomay, pempek, soto betawi, combro, tempe mendoan, bakso malang, urap, nasi tumpeng, ayam penyet, sate braddel, ayam bumbu rujak, and many more. as much as i wanted to i had to forgo few dishes as there's no more space for it in me. i finally meet mbak 'anda in person, not just talking over the phone or messenger eversince she arrived here. it was a wonderful gathering, kudos to mbak hany for organising it. i felt a bit bad for not being able to help until the end 'cos we had to rush as we had a movie to catch. a good, no, great movie indeed. awesome plot and i enjoyed every bit of it. as much as i dislike russel crowe i have to admit he gives quite a performance there. i don't have to say anything about denzel though, he's just as awesome as per normal. went home and sleepless until 6am-ish.

left the house around 3.30pm on sunday for a movie-cum-reunion with few friends organised by the lady who finally is back in town. we were supposed to watch national treasure but few of us were afraid it won't be shown by the time she comes back to singers that we finally watched it with our own friends. so the movie was split into two, national treasure for those that haven't watch it and michael clayton for those who have. my review on michael clayton? well it is definitely a verb-challenging movie, you have to listen to the dialogues carefully, but i find it confusing and boring that at one point i was so very tempted to leave the cinema. it gets better 20mins before the movie ends though and i'm glad i didn't leave the cinema. once its done we joined the 1st group whose movie ends earlier for dinner and a simple catching up since quite a few of them just returned from holidays, including the guy i made a bet with and lose the bet - a jug of ribena soda on me next time at vb! left early in order to reach home before 9 and get myself ready for bed early. a plan remains a plan ...

Its Not Real Life Yet Its Over

from usa today :-

Comic fans fume as Marvel erases Spidey-MJ marriage

Those who know Spider-Man only from Tobey Maguire and Kirsten Dunst in the movies might be surprised to learn that in the comic book, the web-spinning hero has been married for almost 21 years.
That's why the comic world is in an uproar over Marvel Comics' decision to undo the marriage of Peter Parker and red-haired bombshell Mary Jane Watson, reversing two decades of storytelling.
In Amazing Spider-Man #545 last week, Peter and Mary Jane make a tearful deal with the devil-like character Mephisto: In exchange for saving Aunt May's life, Mephisto erases all traces of the Peter-Mary Jane marriage from memory. ...

read the complete story yourself..

another proof that i'm skivving at work :P

Farewell Smoothies

from wikipedia :-

"Pret A Manger's sole Singapore outlet, opened in 2006 and located in the Ogilvy Centre on Robinson Road in the Central Business District, appeared to have closed permanently as of 2 January 2008" :'(

Is This True?

taken from the book eat pray love by elizabeth gilbert :-

Although it is true that Indonesian birth rates are down lately due to a brilliant recent birth control incentive program: the government promised a new motorcycle to every man who would volunteer to come in for a vasectomy ....

seriously? seriously??

I've Got The Calendar!

Lost and (hopefully) Found

early morning and a message came in. i was like what? and oh well, it could just be someone wishing a happy new year. but i was surprised to read a text from my sister saying kijang was stolen. 31 years of living in that place and everything is a okay. we know the neighbours well and even our next door neighbour used to be a bad guy he assured everyone that our area wouldn't ever be touched by him or his group.
poor dad. he's now in the police station with my bro-in-law. i couldn't help but feel relieved that eventhough dad has no bioligical son, he has them now. my sis told me then mum went to kelurahan (which is just 2 houses away) and found the security guy fast asleep. of course mum flipped since we do pay monthly fee for security. that guy deserves every single thing that mum said to him, and knowing mum i'm sure he's getting a good one there...
oh well, i hope dad can get his car back. hope the insurance cover it, if not. else, knowing dad i know he will let it go. yes these are all loans from the big Guy up above but still i'm hoping to hear a good news.

New Year

no turning back. it's blxxdy expensive but then again it's public holiday (juw, ini berarti imlek i kagak balik and nehi2 gak jadi abis perlu cuti 2 hari seh, mudah2an ada yg kawin lagi dah! =[) payment has been made so there is definitely no turning back. all i need to do now is :-

- cut down on my taxi ride

- cut down on my calling home talking about almost anything to my nephew

action speaks louder than words and i really want to see how i do here. but for sure i'm just glad i turned down the other invitation. else my savings will cry like those hindi movie actress.

on another note, to those sharing the same belief as me ..

here's wishing you a blesses 1429 Hijriah year.

may God bless you (and me) and all your (and my) endeavour this year.

- 1 muharram 1429 H

The Curse of a Goal

during new year i mentioned that my goal is to lose weight and to start it fast. the morning while we're packing up there's few chips left and since i was the one bringing chips of course they asked me to bring it back. i was still contemplating when one of them straightaway said no to me bringing it back as my goal is to lose weight. fine, i was and still am glad to him for reminding me so. i hope the others keep on helping me by reminding me, however harsh it is i will accept it.

today i was given a looong lecture from another friend after putting 'that is a wonderful briyani' on my msn personal message. basically she was advising me on the proper way of eating - cutting carbs, more lean meat, more veggie etc etc. i actually kinda know all this already, hello .. i used to be an avid atkins practitioner before moving to a more healthier south beach diet girl. i don't think anyone will ever believe me if i say i used to be 12kgs lighter. of course i accepted all the advise happily 'cos that's one way of caring that she shows to me, and i appreciate it. i hope each and everyone of my friends will keep on reminding me if i ever go overboard. and yes i am starting a healthy lifestyle bit by bit. i'm going to be discipline with my workout and start watching my diet again. i might not be able to go back to doing south beach diet but i will definitely control my intake. sometimes sharing your goal is a good thing as people can help you achieve it by reminding you about it. yes it might get irritating at times but still the bottom line is they care! so thank you for the caring and i hope i won't disappoint you guys....

ps. while writing this a text came in asking me to join the running session tomorrow, which i decline 'cos i do have my own session eh

On Class and Briyani..

after joining my aunt to her sunday class last year i decided to change side and join another aunt to the class she goes to as soon as it starts again this year. why the change? well, for starters i don't really enjoy the 1st one 'cos i joined in late so i was sometimes left clueless as they have their own book. 2ndly i really want one that focus more on Qur'an reading, it's so difficult to find one that provide private lesson here. and 3rdly, it's a bit far from my place - geylang side and it starts at 9am. excuses excuses eh. anyways the class i intend to join is nearer, simpang bedok there. this aunt of mine normally join the class at darul aman and since the ustadzah (teacher, female) is going to teach reading at at taqwa, she told me about it. and it's at 10! so off we went. unfortunately, it's not Qur'an reading as what my aunt was being told. oh well its okay - lets see what is being shared here. and guess what? while listening to the teacher's explanation i opened the flyers and apparently sunday morning in this mosque is focusing on how to raise children the islamic way. it's for mums and mums-to-be!! i showed to my auntie and we simply looked at each other. haha, since we're there we just continue listening. interesting actually, i learned a lot of new stuff. i am also aware now that the behaviour of your kids don't solely depend on the environment and how they're being brought up, but the quality of the money used by the parents to get them food etc (i.e. is it a halal money etc). she also talked about relationship between husbands and wives and all those that goes along that line. pretty interesting actually but still not sure eh if i'm heading there again next week or join my auntie for the earlier session or even go back to the place i usually go to. oh well, lets see...

on another lighter note, mum called early in the morning just to ask me to attend the wedding after telling me no need yesterday. i tried to refuse but apparently it's her best friend's daughter's wedding and i *as usual* has to take her place. well actually i am glad i did go. the briyani was superb and upon hearing i'm staying alone i was given another pack of it to bring home. my dinner and tomorrow's lunch is settled. again my goal to slim down has to be postpone...

Finally

i finally checked no 5 out and i finally watched this movie. interesting place though we had to spend the whole time standing or sitting by the front porch. interesting movie as well, though the timing was a little bit crazy that i had to struggle 'cos i started to feel that i'm gonna be sick soon. interesting dialogue though it's a little bit dragging when they're arguing but a good one.
photo taken from imdb.com

Contented

i feel very contented with how my day was. nothing much, nothing special, but that doesn't mean i can't feel blessed and contented right?

boss came back from her 2 weeks leave, hence the end of our "freedom" as well. she went out of her room asking if any of us haven't submit the leave form. since i applied 1/2 day for dec 26th but took 1 day instead i went to her room asking for my form. she has submitted it so i took a new one and gave it to her. few minutes afterwards she went to my place with the form saying, "take this, you've already submitted, no need to submit this". sweet boss, isn't she? well, i still keyed 1 day in my timesheet so if HR did some comparison (which unlikely so) it's not going to change anything but still, sweet boss isn't she?

since my goal is to lose weight and i'm in the mood for that i decided to do some quick shopping during lunch - getting myself a pair of sports shoes to replace the one that failed me recently. i was really in the mood so i went to the shop and discussed about my requirements - weekly run less than 10 click, could be more than once a week soon, preparing myself for a longer distance run. yeah right, i was in the mood and i hope the mood stays, eh. they did some leg analysis (which apparently required me to walk back and forth like a model) and gave me some recommendation. i ended up with a pair with a "rollover" kinda thing. though i wasn't very happy with the design i still bought that for its advantage. i went back with a pair of shoe and a new knowledge about my feet and the reason i am prone to ankle injury. this shoe will solely be used for running due to it's specs and i have to make an effort of picking up the shoe in the gym locker for my tennis sessions. well, additional effort but for my own well-being.

the shoe was put into test in the evening when i do my weekly run. due to the construction of singapore flyer and stuff resulted in the closure of certain area of esplanade park that we had to run along the main road, we decided to change the route. empress place - boat quay - clarke quay - ue square and back. but the distance seems shorter that we continued up to river valley (robertson walk) and turned back. i was breatheless for sure due to no exercise for the past few weeks. it was a good run indeed and we decided to stick with this route.

done with running we went to dinner at these nepalese restaurant. so much for nepalese, they only have 4 nepalese snacks and the rest are western food. ordered pakora which is basically curried chicken bakwan (though they used chickpea flour) but it tasted quite nice. called my ex-flatmate in case she wanted to join since it's around her area but no reply. but then we ended up paying her a visit as she extended an invitation to drop by, so why not eh. back home afterwards ...

1/2 day free leave - new shoes - nice run - nice food - nice ending. do i need more reason to be contented?

That's Life

life is like having a cup of tea.
you sit by the side of the window, lift the cup and take a careless sip, only to realize that somebody forgot to put the sugar. too lazy to go for it you somehow struggle through the sugarless cup. until you discover un-dissolved sugar crystal sitting at the bottom...

- taken from an e-greeting sent by my lovely sis

1st Entry of 2008

a nice quiet decent gathering is what we wanted, a nice quiet decent gathering is what we got. no pictures on facebook to maintain the privacy. east coast chalet. bbq. whistling sparklers. do-able goal in 2009 (slimming down for me). a toast to the goal. home-made lemon cheesecake. a stroll along the beach. chit chatting 'til morning. imac subwoofer blxxdy speaker that made everyone else super envious. realisation that a friend is more and more charming with every meet up. witnessing a clash between two neighbours (i miss high school). hot chocolate to start the morning. a blessful night surrounded by sweet friends. and thanks for starting to remind me of my goal just when i only have the thought of breaking it. cheers for spending a wonderful time together.

and now all i need is a sleep ...