Saturday, December 30, 2006

my last entry ..

for 2006 that is. can't believe it's ending soon!!
hmmm, how's 2006 so far for me? well one thing for sure i've had peace with myself and fully understand what self contentment means. i truly am very contented with what i am blessed with. of course this doesn't mean i have no plans, dreams, or even ambition - but for sure i count all the blessings i am given. i am not giving up on wishing for something to happen, but at the same time i am contented for what's been happenning with my life. i enjoy time with myself and actually treasure every seconds of it. i am no longer someone who's life depended on tv, but i balance it by doing other things when i'm at home. i am more aware of those small little things that makes life beautiful. i am doing better at meeting new people and my definition of having fun is hanging out for food and talking about things that is meaningful. i have learn to express my feelings openly and sharing my daily life with friends through email or phone is something i very look forward to everyday. no longer am i someone who wish i could be the other person, but i just be happy for whatever that happens to my friend without a slight feeling of wishing i could be as lucky as them. the only thing that got worst is my diet and my exercise regime which i plan to change once my family goes home.

in other words, i understand myself better...

Happy New Year everyone ....


Friday, December 29, 2006

books galore ..

the library staff finally called me. the book i reserved that couldn't be located when i went to collect it is now located. finally!!
i have to give two thumbs up for the library system here, if only we have a library back home which is half as good as the one here. the only library i enjoyed visiting during my childhood back home is the one in british council.
complain aside, i'm getting more and more addicted to placing a reservation from the website compared to renting books like i used to. i can save more money though i had to control reserving books as i still have 3 books at home waiting to be read. that's the only drawback of renting/lending instead of purchasing one. well, unless the book is very good i prefer to borrow. i'd just spend my days in the bookshop browsing for books that looks interesting and go online to find it. books that are in my reserved list includes the emotional intelligence book which is strongly recommended by a friend. paulo coelho will be the next author in my list as again, it's recommended by the same friend of mine.
on fulfilling your dreams ...

had dinner with friends last night in the birthday girl's nest. yeah, she's *just* 29 and yet had her own condo in a very prestige area from her own hard earned cash! though it's hers i couldn't help but feel a slightly sense of belonging there, probably because i was given all details from the moment she did the viewing, purchased it, all the talk she had with the designer, and the shopping we did for the iron and other stuff. i guess that's why i was given a task to become the guide for other friends who came. house aside, this friend of mine really motivates me to be more finance savvy. i mean she who earns what? probably 5x more than i do is leading a simple daily life - unlike me, a compulsive shopper who could just hail a cab anytime i want to and never give a second thought on something which sometimes i ended up regret buying. i could say that apart from motivating each other to be more cost savvy with another friend of mine; this girl really motivates me to think twice before spending my cash. yes of course i couldn't forget the fact that she's from a different line with much exposure working in few countries before coming here, but still she motivates me to be a 'better' person finance-wise.
dinner was good but as usual the chat was better. topic of the night :- what are we doing with our life, career, and contentment - i'll have another post on contentment as i have so many things in my mind on that. last night chat ended up with me being happy with the decision i had recently made, at least i was given more confirmation from the lots that i am doing the right thing. i just hope everything works smoothly for each one of us, and hopefully i can fulfill my plan.

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

roller coaster of life

wednesday morning i was feeling melancholic after volunteering for the christmas celebration held in office for children with cronic ilness. very sad seeing such a handsome boy, the one i was assigned to take care, facing a tough life. 4 years old. handsome. clever. mischiveous. yet deep down he's suffering. i hope he has a long life and can live his dreams on being a policeman and catch naughty boys.
wednesday night was a great night for me. mom and my nephew came and since then my day is fully occupied with the 'lil rascal.
thursday morning, just as i entered my office i got a message that my uncle, my dad's elder brother, passed away. i was sad and there's a regret in me too. i seldom visit him when i am the only family he had from his side. it's just the thought of going to hougang that always made me think twice before visiting him. the last time i visit him was during hari raya, such a good niece i am. too bad dad postponed his visit here, else he should be able to see his brother for the last time. he couldn't make it but my bro-in-law came and though my bro-in-law didn't see the body he stayed for the tahlil and at least there's someone else apart from mum, my nephew, and myself.
spent the next few days there and taking my nephew out here and there. it was quite tiring but at the same time i do enjoy all the impromptu family gathering we had in my late uncle's place.
he's the 4th family member that passed away this year. its like a tradition in my family, if there's a death in the family another 2nd and 3rd death will follow. this time around 4 in a year ...
no one can predict life and i do learn my lesson - never wait until tomorrow to visit the elders...

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

its DONE!!

i had my wisdom tooth extracted about 15 mins ago. i've overcome my biggest fear. yahooo!!
almost backed out last week but when cin told me that the dentist identified me as the terrified girl, i felt challenged to prove him wrong.
so there i was for the extraction. chit chatted with him awhile, him thanking me for referring cin to him and then he asked if i was ready. when i smiled before answering he straightaway said, 'forget it, you're never ready' hehe .. i've postponed this for more than a year due to the project but honestly i was happy to postponed it. as usual he would make a small comforting gestures during the process, some of which were embarassing. imagine him asking me if i'd prefer a sticker or a balloon instead!!. i was stressed when i saw the injections but everything went smoothly though there's a part where i bit his finger and he could only said,' ouch .. ouch.. let my finger go'. he didn't do a stitches on the wound as he knew it's going to be another problem later so it will be a little bit longer for my healing process. anyway it's done!! yahooooo. i only need to call home and brag about being brave going to the dentist without my parents by my side.

Saturday, December 16, 2006

its out!

so we've spoken to boss. you can see she was a bit shock and the way she looked at us, err seems like a mother loosing a child. totally didn't know how to react i only sit, smiled and looked down when i couldn't meet her eyes anymore. well, being a great boss that she is (and i'm sure will always be) .. she'd see what she could do but of course we too have to give her ample time to prepare for everything. anyway everything is not confirmed yet, but we've prepared her and so-called 'seek' her assistance in all this. i guess with me&hp jumping into this together is what put her in quite a dismay. but life goes on and of course as hp told her we have to look after ourselves more.
i personally feel a bit bad, especially after meeting her yesterday venting out my frustration of someone who never want to follow the instructions. i kinda tell her that i gave up on that person and asked her to instruct that person herself. imagine what she had to face yesterday and today.
my verdict ...

okay, everyone knows there's so many indonesian restaurant here. everytime there's a new place and i tell my workmates, their respond would be, 'what chicken now?'. true though, as most of the place that we go have the 'chicken set meal'. so i'm just thinking of all the indonesian places in singapore that i've been too - some of them only once, some more than 5 times.

1. Sanur
well, for me it's just a so-so food. everyone talking about their tahu-telor which for me is simply ordinary. and as usual, the taste has been modified to cater for local preference

2. Bali Thai
can't say much about it - anyway its not pure indonesian food

3. House of Sundanese
the first time i came here, i thought it's a house of sudanese - based on my boss' pronounciation. but of course i was excited to have a taste of sayur asam here. as days goes by, their taste went by as well - and its no longer a place i like

4. Kintamani
now this place gave me excitement the first time i went there. how couldn't i be excited when they have 'asinan'. but my 2nd visit made me a little bit disappointed and by the 3rd visit i'm totally disappointed. there 'oommpph' factor of seeing the dishes was no longer there

5. es Teler 77
i remember when we knew there's a branch of it in singapore we went there on saturday night. dressed in bermuda we took a bus to joo chiat trying to locate the place. of course everyone looked at us 3 girls venturing around that area, when the hotel 81 was bustling with local 'guests'. but we're happy when we managed to locate the place and i think this place became one of my favourite for quite some time. more than once i went to orchard or bugis simply to buy back for lunch. even my workmates love the chicken and especially the chilli.
as days gone by, most of the time i go there nowadays i'll order the fried noodle. tried their chicken siomay on my last visit much to my disappointment. i guess having so much branch made their quality declined and i think they have to really look into it, especially with so many new places opening here

6. Ayam Penyet Ria
again i promoted this place to workmates and families. went here several times as well - the chicken is good but the pempek is not. the chilli is good but i think i can count with my fingers on the time i visited this place. well, at least this place is an inspiration to locals who open a stall selling 'nasi ayam penyet' in golden shoe when the chicken is totally not ayam penyet.

7. Desa Kartika
sorry my friend, but this place is a total disappointment for me. why? the food is simply not indonesian - maybe Bali style but simply not my taste

8. Pagi, Siang dan Malam (or is it Sore??)
found this place by accident few years ago when it was still a small establishment. the last time i went there, the place has turned into one of a nice restaurant and the food was good. i couldn't really recall the taste but i think i left them place feeling satisfied.

9. Warung Pariaman
well i've known this place since i was a kid. i remember when we visited our grandparents here, there's definitely a day when we asked the driver to get it for our lunch. we would then open it and sit at the dining area enjoying the food. ah, i miss nana and nani ....
as i grew old, my sister still will make a time to eat the chicken here everytime she's in town. judging from the popularity of the chicken, we'd asked my auntie to call the owner and save some for us. as for me? i think the chicken is so-so only, eh.

10. Sabar Menanti
okay, the beef rendang is good and i remembered once having the delivery from this place. most of my workmates were happy with the food. i've only been to this place several times that i actually forgotten about its existence!

11. Warung Lele
food was good, it was one of my auntie's favourite place for several months. but as they changed management, so did the taste. i guess with all other establishment providing more local indonesian food, i tend to forget about this place as well

12. Nasi Padang Zion Road
the food is good! but still can't be compared with the padang dishes back home. but honestly i like their food and they have a varieties of dishes to choose from. it's good and its one of the famous nasi padang in singapore
13. Bumbu
it is so not authentic indonesian but nevertheless, i like their dishes. my workmates agree and so does my boss
14. Ayam Bakar Ojolali
well the gado-gado is nice, the chicken set meal is nice, the sayur asam is nice as well. ally still wants to go to this place for its chicken as he tasted the 'nasi liwet' the last time we went there. so far people i went there with enjoy the food.

15. Kantin Aneka
one of my favourite place for sure. honestly, i haven't try anything except for the chicken set once and all the other time i'm there for the batagor. up until today if i have no idea on what to have for lunch, i'll just go to somerset and buy the batagor back. how many times have i tell the lady owner to open a branch in raffles place, i couldn't recall. the last time i went there, i was offered a brownies as she just came back from indonesia. though one of my friend didn't really like the food, well actually more on the gado-gado sauce being cold, i still put this place in my top 5 list. good food - good service, what more can you ask for.

16. Restoran Surabaya
food was okay but i guess the one of the owner draw my friend's attention more than the food, hence the reason we went there several times. apart from that, i salute the advertising the place put - go to the place and see all the pictures of celebrity around. well actually the group had a picture taken with the owners as well but it's not displayed. lol - remembering that day still brings smile to my face. but the food here is good too - not fantastic, but good.

17. Ayam Bakar Wong Solo
went here once and i don't think i'll be so eagerly to go back there again. not many choice and the food is okay. haven't try the chicken back home so i can't make the comparison. this poligamious man really display his family picture at the restaurant - doh!

16.Sinar Pagi
now this is one of my favourite place as well. be it lunch, be it dinner - it's always pack and i guess the staff there knew us but heart already. food was good and i simply love the sambal goreng! definitely a must-try!

18. Rice Table
been there - ate there - don't think will come back. enough said..

19. Warung Nasi Wayan
went here for lunch once, err err .. maybe i'm not into balinese cuisine but i don't think i'll come back again. well actually i did due to a friend organising lunch there. sorry, maybe it's just me who's not into it, though i don't think perkedel jagung is balinese cuisine.

20. Prime Cafe
a quite new establishment, it only had few choices as they're trying to maintain the quality (that's what the staff said). food was okay - they sell gudeg. not fantastic but worth visiting once. the staff is friendly and still remembered our order the first time we went there.

21. Garuda
said to be the same as the one in medan. i like the gulai ayam and the singkong. but still couldn't digest the fact that veggies ($6.00) is more expensive than the chicken ($4.80). probably organic. it's good for a la carte 'cos the time we went there each person order their own food so it's so very costly. a friend told me she had it pack for lunch and it costed her $22 - $10/each for a kripik udang when the prawn is only one and so small. the ambience is nice and some said it's under the 'tung lok' company, hence the interior design. the time we went there, ex-minister tony tan was also dining there with his family. i guess that's how famous this place is. will i go there again? yes - will it be that often? i'm afraid not ..


hmm, is there anything that i left out?
well i haven't tried tambuah mas, pondok gurame, and definitely Kedai-Ibu (this will be the place where i'll have my 1st sate padang as i plan to visit it the next time they sell it, judging from the ooohh-aahhh it seems to have a great sate padang there)
see .. there's so many food here, no wonder my waistline is getting 'better' and 'better'..

Friday, December 15, 2006

it's 4ish in the afternoon, the rain is pouring outside and i can hear the pitter patter sound of it. the weather is simply irresistable that i ended up looking out the window more than staring at my machine. my machine is also playing a nice song, really puts me into the mood that i'd decided to skip gym *again* and go home straight after work. lame excuse indeed when i actually spoilt my jacket 'cos its too tight for me now. got my mobile e-statement earlier and i was thrill to see the amount. it went down 70% from my previous bill. yes, i can do better but at least this is a great achievement. me & hp met one of the partner yesterday and we had a nice 'chat'. hopefully we can achieve what we want in the near future, hence we've decided to let it out in the open tomorrow with boss. it's better she hears it from us instead of from someone else.
now if you'll excuse me, i'll get back to enjoying the sound of the rain outside...

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

touring around ...

our new place is totally different from the old one. when i could just walk to the building while still reading my book as the security guards know us already, i couldn't do it here. let's see - entry to the lift area - tap. inside the lift selecting level - tap. main glass door - tap. department door - tap. imagine not having the card with us. my desk, though not as big as the previous office is situated in quite a nice corner. from where i am sitting, next to the all glass window, i can see my old office building. very nice compared to what i've been seeing for the last 5 years. just came back from browsing the main reception area and it was nice!! the reception area was grand, the media room was very nice and the meeting room is simply nice. if only the project is still on we'll be enjoying all that every week! hehe .. the reception area has a line of bamboo trees, separating the resting area and the meeting room. which reminds me of the pantry. call me 'norak' but in the old building we only have a lounge area but here we have a nice staff lounge at each level near the pantry - its just like those diners you saw in movies. i'd called one of the partner yesterday and we're supposed to meet for a chat over coffee later - time to have a try of this new facilities given in a different level.
nevertheless, i miss my old building as well. i even took some pictures of the old place for memory sake.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

dead woman blogging...

its monday and yet i can't wait for the weekend. i really really can't wait - yupe, i'm gonna whine here.
friday was crazy in the office. with the server movement, phase 1 movement, all seemed to be haywired. engineer came early to dismantle one unix server & they insisted on not dismounting the other one which were going to be moved to the new location. IT snapped at me as they couldn't dismount their server 'cos our engineer was blocking the way. i knew they were under lots of stress so i just kept silence and only commented on it afterwards. after engineer was done, mover was not there and IT was not sure what time they're ready to call the mover. so we asked the engineer to walked around as per IT's advised. i then helped IT 'cos i knew they're out of people and at the same time protested on being snapped at, hehe. once everything was done and we called the mover, i called the engineer but it took them ages to reach. IT couldn't wait any longer so they went to the new location. just as the engineer arrived i got a called that the building has stopped any movement due to lunch time, we could only start at 2. sigh .. i told the engineers and i knew they were a bit unhappy. 2 pm, movers were not anywhere to be seen. i kept on calling until they reached at 2.30. another problem, they couldn't carry the rack 'cos the servers were still inside. engineers didn't want to dismount it and movers didn't want to carry it if it's not dismounted. arrrgghh, it's so difficult to be the middle person. after much persuasion to no avail i called boss and let her settle. at the same time i called the engineers' office and complained about them. i mean 1.5K just to supervised the movement? come on!! finally they agreed on dismounting the server BUT not the UPS. mover still didn't want to move it and they ended up dismounting the UPS. the problem didn't stop there. in the new office everything was up except for the rack. security didn't approve carrying the rack up and movers had to queue for the cargo lift which was serving all 50 floors. engineers already showed their unhappinness and i couldn't do anything. they gave up and went home by 6 pm to continue the work on monday. just as they went home, the rack came! called them to come back but they rejected - i wonder who's paying who actually. so tired that i went home after all were settle hoping to get a good night sleep. i was floating all along due to lack of sleep the night before. so much for hope, 12.30 am IT called asking about one of our server. my mind was blank and i couldn't think straight, i guess i was babbling until i gave them the correct information.
saturday i woke up early as i promised a friend to make her strawberry pudding for her rented-house warming. though i was feeling a bit dizzy i forced myself to get up, do some shopping, make the pudding & vla before going to IKEA. yeah, new office makes me want to re-decorate my new workspace. went for 2 movies at night and slept at 4ish am - another long night.
went to my friends place on sunday, bukit batok .. sooo far that i took a cab to and fro as i didn't have much energy left. i even left early so that i could go home and have a rest. wrong choice! i ended up falling asleep for an hour - means i couldn't sleep early that night. never mind, a match to watch anyway. yeah, the football match was good and i ended up sleeping around 2ish am.
back to work on monday - havoc!! they changed the ip address of one of our server and i couldn't connect to the US server! rats!! i gotta generate a new set of public key and it will take days for US to action on it - i've imagine all the stuff we gotta catch up with once it's authenticated. engineer came and they couldn't finish due to some stuff being blocked by the consultant. definitely annoying that i just went to my boss and let her talked to the upper management to get all settled. i don't know what else is coming next, hardly had breakfast and now i just realised it's 3 and i haven't had lunch. no mood to eat anyway. the only thing i can think about now is 5 more days to weekend...

Saturday, December 09, 2006

red carpet. glamourous. it's over!!

d&d was over with a flying colour last night, at least that's what us committee said. it's fun. it's tiring, but most importantly it's done!
after so many communications. make over-dressed up-dolled up-hair styling i decided to just go with whatever i have in my closet. but then a news came, the chairman is dolling up, he even bought a 2.5K tux for this event. blimmey! everyone started to re-think on being simple.
went to find a much more glam dress but after searching high and low i thought to myself, this is after all only d&d. so, nope .. whatever in my closet should be fine. messages came about make over. not having a great make up skill, i considered it. but the price was too steep, at least for me who's now starting to audit my monthly expenses. so me and two other girls decided to do it by ourselves. 3 of us also decided to spend the night there. done!
then, one of the girls decided for a make over, 'cos the chairman who's her boss, kinda disagreed on her doing it alone. we agreed as well, especially that she's the co-chairman. 2 girls left - both inexperience - still be doing on their own. told the rest, and they too would be doing it themselves. goodie good..
d&d day. told boss that i'd be leaving early and she's fine *on the event itself, she told me she didn't know i was in the committee, hence she thought i left early to dress up, doh!*. went early and watched the performance practising for the last time. went down to get hair done - not bad. met the others and off we went to the room and started experimenting. not bad!! well at least that's what they said :)
event was great. we hang around after the dinner was over. music was great. as usual, i love observing and this was the right time to observe people. when they're in their high and low state. bonded more with these 2 girls as we only get closer after the hr project.
1.30 am. time to knock off. after taking care of everything we went up to our room. 2 other girls decided to stay and luckily none of the guys stay so we got additional room. spent the morning chatting with cn and slept at 3ish am.
woke up. work!! bummer bummer bummer .. everyone were still in la-la land, if only i could take leave like them. sleepy now... yawn

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

i run so that i can eat more tiramisu!!

yupe, that'll be my reason for running. as usual i felt shite waking up early but it went off as soon as i left home for office. met my workmates there, put our stuff before going down to the start line. run was good - met sy when we started but then all of us parted ways. decided to go with my own pace so i was left quite behind and only met hp & jn again when we made the turn, they were quite ahead of me. met cin near the turn & just exchanged few words and continued w/ the run. i managed to pass jn and continued 'til the finish line without a single stop. with my condition (surprisingly i was not coughing during the run, started coughing again afterwards!!) i should give myself a pat in the back - not once did i stop. goodie good. apparently i passed hp without realising it when i thought she's way in front of me - ended the run in 1 hr 09 mins, not the official time though. went back to office after quite a chaos as we couldn't locate jn and thought something had happened to her, collected our stuff then went home. hopefully i can persuade hp to go for the half marathon next year!

Saturday, December 02, 2006

demanding patient

so i've been under the weather for a week now. when my cough started i went to the company doctor - just few floors below. i was told to take precautions, not sleeping with my aircon on, drink more water, avoid spicy food, and all that stuff. he prescribed me the typical singaporean's cough mixture, one that is not strong for my indonesian body, and a normal lozenges. i know that when i started coughing it'd take months to get rid of it, i normally ended up being asked to go for chest x-ray - always with the same result 'your lunges are clear'. so after the monday run, i started to developed a slight fever but i bare with it, working and floating at the same time until i couldn't take it anymore, i went to see the doctor. met the same doc i met last friday. though he wanted to give me a medical cert, i told him not to as i couldn't afford taking leave. all i wanted was something stronger, as i told him only silomat works for me. he was a bit reluctanct to prescribe that cough mixture, you know it cost more. i ended up getting it and another type of lozenges, something better though not what i want. so today, as my cough is getting worst (apologies to all my workmates for my non-stop-coughing-and-clearing-throat) and i could only sit down feeling like i'm floating thanks to my slight fever, i went down to see a doctor again. as usual, i always call before going down so i won't have to wait long and this time around there's only one doctor available - the same one. went down when its closer to my turn and upon seeing me he smiled, i guess what first came to his mind was 'don't tell me silomat doesn't work now'. well, as usual i couldn't take the mc but i asked for him to prescribe me another lozenges that works better (and of course, it's more costly). i got it of course. that's a tactic when seeing company doctor, request for the best medicine if you know it - else they'll prescribe you the normal one. now that i've got all the best medicine, sleep without aircon, i hope i can recover soon. 3 more days to the run man!
sexylicious friday ..

does sexy equals minimalist? look at jodie foster (though she tarnished her reputation for a small role, in my opinion), siti nurhaliza, err... the late Lady Diana(?), gosh i couldn't think of anyone else, ah! Jemima Khan, one beautiful lady there. they're normally covered but they still ooze sexiness. well, this thought just occurs to me after talking about the upcoming d&d. i said that i'd be wearing whatever i have in my closet, which is not many considering my current expanding waist. then someone came out saying as long as its sexy, it should match the theme. hmm, what is sexy? does glamourous means sexy? does glamourous have to be sexy? but then again, look at those people mentioned here. always dress immaculately yet still ooze some sexiness from within.
this reminds me of a chat we had few weeks ago, when a friend brought a topic of uniform party (not those sleazy, kinky kinda party though). we then talked about our school uniforms and we asked the malaysians if everyone have to use the 'baju kurung'-style uniform. then a guy said that actually he likes seeing girls in that outfit with reason being that ladies look elegant in that kind of outfit and made them wonder more. i shared about the talk i had with the boys back in my working day in batam, basically on dress-code as well. the chat evolved into a discussion about the 'leave some for imagination' belief and its true, a lot of people are intrigue on not knowing how sexy siti nurhaliza is - nobody has the chance to know, well apart from her hubby now.
so what is sexy? does skimpy means sexy? do you feel sexy when you dressed for someone or when you dressed for yourself? well, for me - just like beauty, sexy is in the eyes of the beholder

lunch time .. gosh it's already december!!

Friday, December 01, 2006

when there's (still) time to change ...

my uni friend. roommates. smart. beautiful (very!). cheerful. bubbly. religious. everything seems to work fine for her but deep inside, just like everyone else, there's always a trouble in paradise. how did she face all her troubles? closer to God. patience. never surrender. what happens to her now? happy. married. family. Hajj soon.
i remember the days when we were roommates. a very influential roommate, though at times i was bored with her kindness. let's see - she'd make sure i did all my prayers and woke me up if i fell asleep before doing it. she'd make sure i woke up for my morning prayer even when she's not praying. not only that, she'd woke me up again just to ask if i had done it. at times i was annoyed, with the fact of she waking me up just to ask simple questions. when she's not fasting she'd make sure i woke up for the morning meal, she knew very well how alarm didn't work for me at times. she's like a mom i had away from home. she is one good person. look what life has bring her.
me? all i could think of now is - when to watch this movie, when to try that food, what book to read next. prayer? i could just prioritise my work instead of leaving it simply to go down for 5 mins. sometimes i had to rush it just so that i wouldn't skip it. sometimes i skipped it as i was to darn busy with work. wonder when God give me something good, will i be too busy to accept it? mom always said that she noticed i am no longer the person she used to know. someone who attended religious class. someone who prioritise her prayers. someone who recite Qur'an almost everyday. her question would be 'what has happen to you?'. a question that always brought tears to my eyes. she is right. what happen to me? i keep on saying i got to get back on track but there's always an excuse for me. i stopped my religious class. i no longer recite Qur'an regularly. i haven't even re-pay my fasting when everyone back home is done with it!
i look at my friend and look at myself and all i can say is that i am the only one responsible for the person i become. i hope she goes to hajj and come back safely, fulfilling all her dreams on visiting the house of God. and i surely will try to be a better person.
the can-can man ...

managed to catch the always-not-around IT guy so i immediately went to their side and asked about the servers. with boss squeezing the deadline from 5 days to 3 days to 2 days (simply by saying, 'can? OT from sunday, not that you run the whole day maah' yeah right!) i really need to get all the confirmation before going there next monday. he is someone noone likes to liaise with, he is the person who always got me annoyed. no one in my dept wants to liaise with him but i had no choice. as usual, all my annoyance at someone will disappear just as soon as i see that person's face, and it happens with him as well. so there i was, discussing with him on the changes, how it would affect us, and what was it gonna be like. as usual, he simply listen, nod and only said a few words, mainly yes-sure-can; the reason nobody knows how to communicate with him. i ended up the conversation by saying,'so - free lunch for me today?' he looked at me with a blank expression and i answered his puzzled look with a 'i thought you'll say can can again mah', laughed and walked away. the first time i saw him smiling!!