Reason

everything happens for a reason ...

indeed it does ...

earlier this year i decided to take the highway - the road i've been thinking of taking for years. i've done all the research and finally stepped my foot on it few months ago. i have all the plans playing in my mind but also decided that from that day onwards, i'd enjoy every second of everything. if it happens, it happens. if it doesn't, well at least i've tried instead of just doing the 'what if ...'

looking back now i realised that the minute i've made up my mind, everything else changed; for better that is. and i couldn't stop thanking God for all that. i realised that my patience and perseverance for the past 2 years have finally been rewarded. thank You, God for answering my prayers. at the same time i started wondering about this plan i've recently stepped my foot on. somehow i knew that i had to reschedule it because of all the new things that happened.

and guess what? i received a news today that without me planning it, it has to be postponed. i was slightly disappointed but my brain told me that this is yet another plan of God. He knows what's best for me. i don't have to think about rescheduling anything now, i simply need to walk down the road and see what comes along ...

ya Rabb, remind me to always be grateful to You. smack me if i fail in doing so ...

A Note

it's been awhile since my last entry, ya. but today somehow i just feel the want to type something in.
just read a friend's blog - a secondary school friend of mine. honestly, i am so curious with what had happened to her life but i think i have no right to ask her, not that i am close to her anyway. but one thing's for sure - i salute her for being such a strong lady. it made me realised that all the trouble i have is nothing compared to what she's faced.
anyways, we celebrated hari raya few days ago. alhamdulillah, i was given a chance to go home and celebrate it with the family. i still had to work from home, but at least i am surrounded with those matters most to me.
i wasn't that excited with this year's celebration because i didn't give my best during ramadhan. work had taken the best of me this year that i spent every night at work and once home i just wanna crush in. hope God give me a chance to meet ramadhan next year.
work wise, it's getting better now that we're going live in 2 weeks time; everything is kinda settled now and i hope it will stay this way until it goes life.
i have an important meeting tomorrow morning, one that would make my life different. i leave everything in God's hand - i know He will only give me the best.
wish me luck ...

The Execution Phase

work has been crazy lately and it will continue to be so until october. i worked from friday 'til saturday morning, sunday night. thought it was over now the file was submitted, i was asked to go back to work on monday night and stayed there 'til 11.30ish. stayed 'til midnight on tuesday and had a conference call at a play on wednesday, imagine that! thankfully i only stayed until 9ish yesterday and today, after the functional team decided to change the business rules AND sent a wrong setup table for the 3rd time just for one day, i decided to go home and work on it later. 2nd iteration and it's still the same. God help me next week as i'll be away. it might be a problem but at least the functional team will be on leave from wednesday onwards so even if it's a wrong setup i can't do anything until her return *evil*

it was challenging, yes but at the same time my body and brain is just so tired that tears started rolling down. i guess it's due to hp on leave that i have no one to vent out my frustration to. i did cry harder today when i had to redo my work again and again because of the rules and files.

but still, i felt totally pushed to the edge yesterday that i took the papers, signed and faxed them over.

yupe, been contemplating for awhile. friends and even my sister said i can do it on my own that i've started gathering info and even asking for samples from those who's done it. but yesterday, with the frustration of this particular project and another two which i have yet to start my mind began wondering. i asked myself, with this schedule of mine, do i have a time to look into every detail? the answer i got was probably not. and that's when i took the papers and pen.

so yeah, i've prepared myself for the long jump. i'm in the 'ready' state now waiting for 'steady' and 'go' to be announced.

wish me luck, for the project that is :)

One (actually two) More Down ...

I got this list from one of the group on facebook and let's see how many can i tick off ..

• Visit ground Zero
• Go B.A.S.E Jumping/Wingsuiting
• Get a British accent
• Travel to every country in the world
• Learn lots other languages
• Own a ferret
• Go to Africa/climb Kilimanjaro
• hanglide
• See the Aurora
• See Great Wall of China
• See the Redwoods
• See pyramids
• Get rich quick and have a huge seaside mansion with a yacht and a fleet of Private Jets
• See the Pope
• See a shuttle launch
• See the Olympics or be in them
• Attend 1 or many new years celebrations in new york
• Explore Australia/ ayers rock
• Swim with dolphins
• Be an extra in a film
• Own a room with a view
• Buy a round-the-world air ticket and a rucksack, and run away
• Be a member of the audience in a TV show
• Ride the Trans-Siberian Express across Asia
• Write the novel you know you have inside you
• Drink beer at Oktoberfest in Munich
• Go through all of the Musee du Louvre
• Parasail
• Be a rebel
• Go Zorbing
• Work on an “Extreme Makeover: Home Edition” Show
• Crash a wedding
• Ride a motorcycle along the Great Wall of China
• Have waffles in Belgium
• Be at the top of the Eiffel Tower at night
• See a real igloo
• Shower in a waterfall
• See a lunar eclipse
• Walk to the top of the Empire state Building
• Tell Donald trump “Your Fired”
• Hallucinate
• Spend the New Year in Australia (first)
• Experience weightlessness
• Skydive from space or high altitude (200,000 feet-275,000)
• Sleep under the stars
• Take a ride on the highest roller coaster in the country
• Go wild in Rio during Carnival
• Forgive your parents --> they are never at fault anyway ..
• Drive the AutobahnRaft through the Grand Canyon
• Drive a convertible with the top down and music blaring
• Accept yourself for who you are
• Scuba dive off Australia's Great Barrier Reef
• Go up in a hot-air balloon
• Attend one really huge rock concert -> bon jovi qualifies? ;)
• Kiss the Blarney stone and develop the gift of gab
• Go deep sea fishing and eat your catch
• Make yourself spend a half-day at a concentration camp and swear never to forget
• See the Statue of Liberty
• Catch a ball in the stands of a major league baseball stadium
• Look into your child's eyes, see yourself, and smile
• Listen to the Dalai Lama Speak
• See the Taj Mahal
• Bunji Jump
• Go to see the Aztec Pyramids
• See the house you grew up in
• Go whale watching
• Queue for something for at least 24 hours
• Stage Dive
• Make someone cry of happiness
• Sponsor a child
• Have a coffee on the sidewalk in Paris and people watch
• Touch one of the Royal family
• Visit Area 51
• Visit Machu Picchu
• Spend a day at Disney land being a kid
• Write down your goals and then do something about them
• A winter in Hawaii, spring in London, summer in the Alps, fall in New England
• Take a year off
• Live abroad
• Visit Italy
• Live life to the Fullest -> within limit, that is ...
• Walk down Abbey Road
• Fly a plane
• Follow the Nile and see the pyramids
• Sail around the World
• Visit all of Europe (Iceland too), new-Zealand, Australia, Japan, Ghana
• Visit the moon
• Admit you are WRONG about EVERYTHING
• Explore Russia
• To be able to say....in everything...whether success, or failure...I Tried
• Go on a cruise
• See all the seven wonders of the world
• Meet Michael Jackson and laugh at his plastic nose -- impossible now that he's dead :\
• See Niagara Falls
• See the CN Tower sing in the rain!
• Watch the sunrise on a mountain
• See Stonehenge
• Question everything you take for granted.
• Read the Classics
• Catch fireflies at sunset
• Dye your hair
• Meet a King or Queen
• break a world record
• do all the things your parents told you not to
• Ride a Motorcycle
• Climb the 7 summits
• Waterfall jumping
• See the Anne Frank House
• See the Hollywood Sign
• Sell ice to an Eskimo
• Spelunk
• Learn some dirty jokes that would make a nun laugh
• Have a secret hiding place
• Run thorough a car wash
• Run with the bulls in Pamplona

Bye Bye Bye

another one's leaving. not a surprise but still raised our eyebrows, my mouth is salty i guess. hoping to be the voice of the remaining, i wish nothing but the best for her.
et moi? patient my friend, patient. you have your own plan, don't you?

The Planning Phase

after being stucked in the initiation phase for years, i've made up my mind; making small little steps forward...

1st step - register for the test

whether it's a success or failure, at least i'm trying ...

Living Life to the Fullest

I got this list from one of the group on facebook and let's see how many can i tick off ..

• Visit ground Zero
• Go B.A.S.E Jumping/Wingsuiting
• Get a British accent
• Travel to every country in the world
• Learn lots other languages
• Own a ferret
• Go to Africa/climb Kilimanjaro
• hanglide
• See the Aurora
• See Great Wall of China
• See the Redwoods
• See pyramids
• Get rich quick and have a huge seaside mansion with a yacht and a fleet of Private Jets
• See the Pope
• See a shuttle launch
• See the Olympics or be in them
• Attend 1 or many new years celebrations in new york
• Explore Australia/ ayers rock
• Swim with dolphins
• Be an extra in a film
• Own a room with a view
• Buy a round-the-world air ticket and a rucksack, and run away
• Be a member of the audience in a TV show
• Ride the Trans-Siberian Express across Asia
• Write the novel you know you have inside you
• Drink beer at Oktoberfest in Munich
• Go through all of the Musee du Louvre
• Parasail
• Be a rebel
• Go Zorbing
• Work on an “Extreme Makeover: Home Edition” Show
• Crash a wedding
• Ride a motorcycle along the Great Wall of China
• Have waffles in Belgium
• Be at the top of the Eiffel Tower at night
• See a real igloo
• Shower in a waterfall
• See a lunar eclipse
• Walk to the top of the Empire state Building
• Tell Donald trump “Your Fired”
• Hallucinate
• Spend the New Year in Australia (first)
• Experience weightlessness
• Skydive from space or high altitude (200,000 feet-275,000)
• Sleep under the stars
• Take a ride on the highest roller coaster in the country
• Go wild in Rio during Carnival
• Forgive your parents --> they are never at fault anyway ..
• Drive the AutobahnRaft through the Grand Canyon
• Drive a convertible with the top down and music blaring
• Accept yourself for who you are
• Scuba dive off Australia's Great Barrier Reef
• Go up in a hot-air balloon
• Attend one really huge rock concert -> bon jovi qualifies? ;)
• Kiss the Blarney stone and develop the gift of gab
• Go deep sea fishing and eat your catch
• Make yourself spend a half-day at a concentration camp and swear never to forget
• See the Statue of Liberty
• Catch a ball in the stands of a major league baseball stadium
• Look into your child's eyes, see yourself, and smile
• Listen to the Dalai Lama Speak
• See the Taj Mahal
• Bunji Jump
• Go to see the Aztec Pyramids
• See the house you grew up in
• Go whale watching
• Queue for something for at least 24 hours
• Stage Dive
• Make someone cry of happiness
• Sponsor a child
• Have a coffee on the sidewalk in Paris and people watch
• Touch one of the Royal family
• Visit Area 51
• Visit Machu Picchu
• Spend a day at Disney land being a kid
• Write down your goals and then do something about them
• A winter in Hawaii, spring in London, summer in the Alps, fall in New England
• Take a year off
• Live abroad
• Visit Italy
• Live life to the Fullest -> within limit, that is ...
• Walk down Abbey Road
• Fly a plane
• Follow the Nile and see the pyramids
• Sail around the World
• Visit all of Europe (Iceland too), new-Zealand, Australia, Japan, Ghana
• Visit the moon
• Admit you are WRONG about EVERYTHING
• Explore Russia
• To be able to say....in everything...whether success, or failure...I Tried
• Go on a cruise
• See all the seven wonders of the world
• Meet Michael Jackson and laugh at his plastic nose
• See Niagara Falls
• See the CN Tower sing in the rain!
• Watch the sunrise on a mountain
• See Stonehenge
• Question everything you take for granted.
• Read the Classics
• Catch fireflies at sunset
• Dye your hair
• Meet a King or Queen
• break a world record
• do all the things your parents told you not to
• Ride a Motorcycle
• Climb the 7 summits
• Waterfall jumping
• See the Anne Frank House
• See the Hollywood Sign
• Sell ice to an Eskimo
• Spelunk
• Learn some dirty jokes that would make a nun laugh
• Have a secret hiding place
• Run thorough a car wash
• Run with the bulls in Pamplona