Why?

everyone is either in a getting to know each other stage, in a relationship, engaged, getting married, married, having a baby, having a family, busy with the family.
everyone but me ...
is there something seriously wrong with me?

TARGET

i have to start saving and get myself a place of my own.
i have to be a homeowner in the next 3yrs!!

Fantasy Land

i'm getting more and more into korean drama ...

and the problem is that i get too emotionally involved that at times it's too much. yes, that's just acting but wouldn't it be great if that happens in real life.
i told myself that before i have my own love story, i'll just enjoy those love stories.
wrong! a friend pointed out - the more you watch the higher your expectation is. so i have to stop myself from starting another one. i didn't watch it before anyway.

i. have. to. stop!

Crash Boom BANG

i've been watching more and more korean drama lately. not good for a hopeless romantic like me because it will continue to linger in me making me wish how i experience that too :D

i told my friends that if korean guy are really as what portrayed in those drama, i don't mind getting one. one told me that korean guy is known to be a MCP.

so in between my break i googled 'is korean man as romantic as in drama' and ended up reading about one sweet scene - a scene i just watched last night. sad to say that i found another article where the actor in that scene said that he couldn't do it in real life.


*crashed*

GAP

attended a birthday lunch ..
a girl 9 years my junior and yet they talked about it like they've hit rock bottom with the new age. not the first time but i think this will be the last time i join the birthday celebration - all this 'oh i'm so old' talk just makes me realised that i am old and i am still like this :

01.01.2012

so i started the first day on the new year badly :D
1. i slept as late as 4 am resulted in me waking up late
2. i spent the whole day watching drama online - laundry and some cleaning up in between
3. i ate like there's no tomorrow - noodle, chips, peanuts, diet coke and all

yes i know .. bad bad me
BUT tomorrow i will start a new regime; the reason for my being frumpy today.
and to make myself embarrassed if i didn't achieve what i want to, i'll write it all down here and see how it goes (or even the excuses i make in the future if i disobey them)

1. early morning for early jog - if i miss this i still have to jog at night, but no .. i can't miss it!
2. healthy diet again - cook for breakfast and dinner
3. commitment to exercising 20 days in a row ..

as of today my weight is 64.1 kgs
lets see how it goes 2 weeks from now..

Reflections

few more hours before 2011 disappears and a new number appears. it's not a biggie, it's just a number i know. but with all the things going on we started to reflect on our life - the bad, the good and all. we wonder if there is something we could do to make our future better, to make it a more meaningful life.
and so i am doing my own reflections ...

2011 :-
* a number of friends left the country for good, moving on. me? i'm still stuck in this country
* a number of cousins got married. me? i'm still not sure what i should do to even meet someone
* few people i know had a great career advancement. me? let's see what the next appraisal has for me

i can't say i have any regrets but yes i wish i could react differently in some situation.

so what's 2012 for me?

nothing much but i hope in this year i'd be more diligent with my income and also smart with my body - workout more. save more. and with God's permission, meet someone.
YES i know i have to work on them, there is no such thing as miracle. so yes, i'll try my best and work hard on them!

i don't have a lot of friends anymore in this country, but what i have left i hold dearly in my heart and i keep reminding myself that what matters are quality over quantity - so what if my weekends were not as busy as before. and i should start using this free weekends to work harder in achieving my dreams!!

other than that? i just wish to be happy; if possible happier than i am now.

i started writing with so many things in my mind but now i just want to stop writing and continue my drama :D

if you're reading this, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012
may we continue striving for the best, learn from our past mistakes and live life with no regrets

2012

as 2012 approaches, everyone started having their own resolution. i am one who doesn't do that but hey, lets not be hypocrite and admit that secretly i told myself 'in this new year i should be better'
so though i don't have any resolution - to say - i am to STOP or maybe cut down on taking taxi and be more savvy with my income.
wouldn't it be great to have a place to call my own soon ...