tell me ....

• if you were asked to join a bunch of people that you are not comfortable with, a bunch of people that jokes and talks makes you feel like a misfits, would you continue joining them?
• if you were suddenly asked to join a group of people that you knew were close and have been having activities or gathering you were not invited to (probably never even considered to be invited), would you simply join them now knowing that you would somehow still feel out of place?
• if after years of self-loathing you met a bunch of people that makes you feel alive and kicking, wouldn't you just want to treasure every single moment of it while you can?
• if you were informed of something that you knew would come anyway and you knew there was no way of that to be changed, would you continue hoping for it to change?
• if you wake up everyday thinking of the same thing you are thinking of when you go to sleep, does it mean that it is worth thinking of?
• if you were sure of something but then you were unsure of it once you were face with it, does it mean that you're still uncertain about it?
• if you knew that it is not worth the trouble but you don't want to give up, would you force yourself to give it up or continue hoping?
• if you knew deep down that nothing can come out of it, even your heart and mind agrees with it but you still force yourself thinking about it for the sake of making life more exciting, knowing that it's not worth the trouble; would you continue doing it?

• what if suddenly what you were wishing of comes true, knowing that you definitely are not prepared for it or that you might have a change of heart and change of mind?
• what if you could just put all the craziness in your life and your mind behind you?

life and its ifs and what ifs