duh!

i hate myself *a little* now. after deciding not to start things, i did it again for the past 2 days. but its fun and fine actually 'cos its just a normal thingy and i just felt happy but nothing more afterwards. i can do things without thinking twice. its just that my imagination runs wild *as per normal* after reading an email. nothing that needs to be concerned about or anything, i think i am way over that stage. just this curious me hate myself for being this curious at times, like now for example.