it's tough being human (or is it not?)

when you are in a certain state that you know is unhealthy, you tried your very best to outgrow that stage. when you know it's tougher that you expected, you forced yourself to do more to outgrow it. then you're there - though as and when you still take a peek to it, you've outgrown it. you can even said that you're done. suddenly came the test, you're no longer in that stage so you never thought of it and when you realised it's actually tickling you back to that stage, you thought "hey, it's a good way of testing if you really are out of that stage". of course, it took few days prior to accepting the challenge. you've confirm accepting the challenge and without realising it, you brought yourself a little bit back to that stage. though you know how wrong being back there you couldn't resist and just wanted to have fun with it. deep down you knew that you definitely will be the winner of this challenge. then came something that you didn't expect. well actually you yourself thought of it first when the test came. but then again you feel that you're back to square one. a little bit but still the thought of you heading back that road is something very unforgiven.

life is tough indeed. but you have to pull yourself stronger and look around you. there's more tough things happenning to everybody else. yours is nothing compared to whatever others are facing. count your blessings..