stupid silly me :- the 1st time you met a person you simply want to avoid him just because of some stupid things you had in mind. the 2nd time you saw him you just couldn't remember the 1st time as you're taken away right at that moment and realised that he is not that bad looking. then you looked forward to meeting him again. when you saw him again you realised that he is much more handsome than you remembered from the 1st meeting. then he started to open his mouth and you again realised that there is a lot in that brain cell of his and it makes you admire him more. after parting ways, you said to yourself that all these are just some silly stuff because you haven't found someone to admire for so long that you'll just jump right to the 1st available person. then it's over until you meet him again where you said to yourself 'gosh, never remembered him to be this handsome before'. then you started to be involved in a conversation with him and realised that you had few things in common with him. you just simply enjoyed listening to his story which mostly came from experience and he did the same too - listening to whatever that came out from your mouth. you parted ways again and said to yourself that you are being silly for thinking of something simply unreachable. you are also annoyed when you realised that an additional stuff will break the ritual from the last meeting onwards. but then again you simply can't wait to meet this person again.
God - not sure when will this be over or even if its worth the trouble ...