Promise

2013 - clear debt!

I Want!

when you want something the whole universe conspires in helping you to achieve it - paulo coelho

ok .. i want 'buddha'!

MY life

i've heard enough of all this fortune telling thing! even when i don't want to listen somebody came telling me the same all story. well, everyone is telling me the same thing. and i REFUSE to accept it.
with the help from God, i am the key to my own destiny. i myself create MY destiny; not some sort of people reading and telling me.
i am going to work on MY own destiny starting tomorrow!

Monotone

i need some excitement, some sparks in my life. i am bored, bored to death!
where can i find it? how can i find it?

Hopeless

i'm falling for the wrong person .. again!
it might not be a real fall, but ..
okay, let me phrase it

i'm falling for the idea of falling for the wrong person .. again!

Time's up!

it's time to be more serious in life - property!
let's aim to save religiously from this month onwards and re-assess the position by the end of this year. target MUST be accomplished by then.
before 40 .. before 40!

So Long

and the time finally came ...

i guess i was prepared for quite awhile now; but still there's a lump everytime i talked about it.

i know i am so gonna miss you.
i know i have no one to make me feel protected and secured now.
but i also know that you are happy. and you are counting down to the meetup.
i know i won't be frequenting that place again but i'll forever treasure all the good times shared there.

and i thank you for being the person to make me learn a lot about myself.
have a good life, my dear friend.
though we plan to meet every now and then, i still miss you dearly

it could just be me but i can feel a change whenever the conversation gets deeper - personal issues and also conversation that led to advises. and it seems like the wish of treasuring the last few days comes from both parties. watching trailers. listening to songs. might not be exclusive but lets hope the advises are taken seriously as said. i am SO gonna miss all the good times we shared.

life is too short to be wasted in finding answeres. enjoy the questions ...

+ why do i have a crush on such a guy? - why not

i am going to enjoy the few days left. no longer a crush but i am still charmed. and i hope one day i will find myself one.

isn't it amazing how a simple 'hello ma'am' totally changed my day!

Sweet

didn't expect the appearance today, but it definitely was one pleasant surprise.
confessed that i wouldn't feel safe anymore now that the authority has changed.
saw the tantrum which i think is kinda cute/funny

and a hypothetical question for a dear friend kinda cleared my mind - what do you want to wake up to everyday?

but i am still gonna miss the days spent in that room

Honored

that means the person who bought this is very thoughtful ...
ma'am, i feel so honored

i don't expect tears of gratitude. but i am happy to know that you're touch.
the pleasure is mine.


ps.
i am honored to know you.
and i thank God for letting us crossed path and letting me learn a lot more about myself - even if its only a shortwhile

Thank You

thank you for being the one who makes me realised that i still have hope in me.
thank you for being the one of nicest person i've crossed path with.
thank you for making me feel so secure and protected, for letting me know that my back is always covered.
and most of all, thank you for being the person that makes me learn to open up.

i know there will be tears in my eyes and i am not going to hide it. i won't let my pride gets the best of me.
for that, thank you for making me understand the beauty of being fragile.

thank you ...

Nevermind .. I'll Find Someone Like You

i'm starting to have a crush or maybe just like the idea of falling for you-know-who.
attached maybe even engaged and i kinda dislike him before but as days gone by and i started to know him better i like spending more time chit chatting and all with him.
and now this idea of falling might eventually be a real crush if i don't control myself.
damn!

Why?

everyone is either in a getting to know each other stage, in a relationship, engaged, getting married, married, having a baby, having a family, busy with the family.
everyone but me ...
is there something seriously wrong with me?

TARGET

i have to start saving and get myself a place of my own.
i have to be a homeowner in the next 3yrs!!

Fantasy Land

i'm getting more and more into korean drama ...

and the problem is that i get too emotionally involved that at times it's too much. yes, that's just acting but wouldn't it be great if that happens in real life.
i told myself that before i have my own love story, i'll just enjoy those love stories.
wrong! a friend pointed out - the more you watch the higher your expectation is. so i have to stop myself from starting another one. i didn't watch it before anyway.

i. have. to. stop!

Crash Boom BANG

i've been watching more and more korean drama lately. not good for a hopeless romantic like me because it will continue to linger in me making me wish how i experience that too :D

i told my friends that if korean guy are really as what portrayed in those drama, i don't mind getting one. one told me that korean guy is known to be a MCP.

so in between my break i googled 'is korean man as romantic as in drama' and ended up reading about one sweet scene - a scene i just watched last night. sad to say that i found another article where the actor in that scene said that he couldn't do it in real life.


*crashed*

GAP

attended a birthday lunch ..
a girl 9 years my junior and yet they talked about it like they've hit rock bottom with the new age. not the first time but i think this will be the last time i join the birthday celebration - all this 'oh i'm so old' talk just makes me realised that i am old and i am still like this :

01.01.2012

so i started the first day on the new year badly :D
1. i slept as late as 4 am resulted in me waking up late
2. i spent the whole day watching drama online - laundry and some cleaning up in between
3. i ate like there's no tomorrow - noodle, chips, peanuts, diet coke and all

yes i know .. bad bad me
BUT tomorrow i will start a new regime; the reason for my being frumpy today.
and to make myself embarrassed if i didn't achieve what i want to, i'll write it all down here and see how it goes (or even the excuses i make in the future if i disobey them)

1. early morning for early jog - if i miss this i still have to jog at night, but no .. i can't miss it!
2. healthy diet again - cook for breakfast and dinner
3. commitment to exercising 20 days in a row ..

as of today my weight is 64.1 kgs
lets see how it goes 2 weeks from now..