it seems fun and hopefully i can continue doing this and really come with a result. to make myself proud.
it is time to make the best of what life has to offer and forget all the nonsense fantasies. some things are worth fantasizing but others are pointless and might lead to self destruction; so why bother right?
but honestly, there is this tiny bit of hope in the corner of the heart that what i am doing could make someone proud and notice me.
but, still the main focus is: myself.