I am just happy :)
The number on the weighing scale kept decreasing, even if it is just 0.1 but it is constantly decreasing. My clean eating definitely pay off. Still a very long journey but it makes me feel motivated now. I hope I can continue being this discipline.
Like the trainer said, you did well for 1 week .. do it for another week and see how it goes.
Starting point - 70.2
present - 68.1
I know it's a loooong way to head back to the good old 44 kgs, but I will get there!
Thursday, January 28, 2016
Tuesday, January 19, 2016
Random
Just a random post close to end of Jan ...
*shivers* the end of the 1st month is coming and instead of losing, I gained weight!! but nevermind, I still have 10 days to fix it :D
So apparently one friend saw me in the gym and suggested that we go to the gym together one day. This might sound bad, but I am keen to do so; I am hoping to expand my social network again and I hope she could be a stepping stone for that. I have been spending weekends at home as I have nothing to do and no one to hang out with :(.
After the friends left, I didn't make an effort to make new ones until I am no like this ... home alone. Well honestly, I actually made an effort to join this and that .. but I didn't realize it in the end, partly because of the body - I lack confidence after gaining this much weight. I need to fix this!
On another note ...
Met my usual lunch partner last week and she told me about another friend's personal life. A friend who used to call me 'mom'. A friend who was closed to me once, but somehow we became apart because of some incident and also another person, indirectly. I was very disappointed to be honest, I am still if I can be very honest. But I keep telling myself 'so what?' What makes her so special that it affects me this much? As I have been telling people, the best revenge is to be happy, and I too have to be happy.
And that other person? only today she contacted me to 'complain'. And I know she did that because no one is around for her. It's okay .. do whatever you like, I'll be happy no matter what. Happiness attracts everything good and I aim for that now.
See how my determination landed me the job and the salary I wanted; so now I will focus in achieving what I want in life and be damn about everything else.
Weight. Man. House - in that order ...
now let's work hard to achieve them all .. in 2016, early 2017 for the last one
*shivers* the end of the 1st month is coming and instead of losing, I gained weight!! but nevermind, I still have 10 days to fix it :D
So apparently one friend saw me in the gym and suggested that we go to the gym together one day. This might sound bad, but I am keen to do so; I am hoping to expand my social network again and I hope she could be a stepping stone for that. I have been spending weekends at home as I have nothing to do and no one to hang out with :(.
After the friends left, I didn't make an effort to make new ones until I am no like this ... home alone. Well honestly, I actually made an effort to join this and that .. but I didn't realize it in the end, partly because of the body - I lack confidence after gaining this much weight. I need to fix this!
On another note ...
Met my usual lunch partner last week and she told me about another friend's personal life. A friend who used to call me 'mom'. A friend who was closed to me once, but somehow we became apart because of some incident and also another person, indirectly. I was very disappointed to be honest, I am still if I can be very honest. But I keep telling myself 'so what?' What makes her so special that it affects me this much? As I have been telling people, the best revenge is to be happy, and I too have to be happy.
And that other person? only today she contacted me to 'complain'. And I know she did that because no one is around for her. It's okay .. do whatever you like, I'll be happy no matter what. Happiness attracts everything good and I aim for that now.
See how my determination landed me the job and the salary I wanted; so now I will focus in achieving what I want in life and be damn about everything else.
Weight. Man. House - in that order ...
now let's work hard to achieve them all .. in 2016, early 2017 for the last one
Friday, January 01, 2016
A brand new start - 2016
It's already a new year and I am spending it in bed :D
today I'll be a bump, tomorrow I'll start my shopping, I'll start preparing on Sunday and come Monday? full head on! I need to lose at least 2kgs before my training session starts on 11th Jan.
Now that it is 2016, here is my goal :-
I will revisit each item in the beginning of next month!
today I'll be a bump, tomorrow I'll start my shopping, I'll start preparing on Sunday and come Monday? full head on! I need to lose at least 2kgs before my training session starts on 11th Jan.
Now that it is 2016, here is my goal :-
- Lose weight
I am committed to this and will update the progress every month. Today I am 69.3 kgs again :'( - Running
I will start with slow jog, or maybe even brisk walking; I should get a new pair of shoes too now that the old one is used for gym - Savings
I've burnt some of the saving to pay for my bills; so from the next pay onwards I have to save properly now that the bill is gonna be done soon - Reading
read more drama less; challenging myself to reading 12 books this year. - Travelling
Not going to not do any travelling because of my savings plan, but will be more selective and more discipline in the budget for travelling. I have decided to let go of the plan to travel during lunar new year and just go home instead - save money and also, meet the parents - Parents
Make them happy!
I have yet to fulfil their dreams of seeing me getting hitched. I can't decide on this, seriously! but until this happen I aim to make them happy in other ways. I know they are happy with the Dubai trip; unfortunately, I couldn't bring them somewhere far this year because I need to save money. I will still bring them somewhere nearby and be responsible for their travelling expenses. I don't need to beg my siblings nor do I want my parents to do that .. I will take care of them myself - Computer
I seriously need to invest in a better computer, equipped with the licensed software. Maybe then I can start looking for a freelance job? I noticed there are a few out there, unfortunately I don't have the proper license to even come out with a proposal :|
This will be my target in Q2, shall I achieve my targeted savings that is
I will revisit each item in the beginning of next month!
Wednesday, December 30, 2015
Toxic
another last post before the end of the year =D
on the way for my supposedly lunch plan, i realised that some people are just so toxic that you couldn't help but just want to remove them and not see them again - blackrose that is. i don't know why but now i can see all the things i've been warned about clearly. and that makes me added another item to my 2016 to do list - cut toxic people out of my life.
on another note, my savings for that one big dream had to be touched! pretty sad but come to think of it, i am saving more for the long term if i touch it now. and i aim to return it back by Q2 next year.
on yet another note, i need to start building my social network in this new environment. i know my confidence is pretty much low because of my appearance. so come next year - come next week - i will make some effort to boost my confidence AND back to the jogging routine, probably start with some brisk walk first. aim to achieve my goal by my next birthday!
i am tempted to summarize my 2016 goal but i just have this feeling that i will blog again tomorrow, considering how quiet the office is this month! :D
on the way for my supposedly lunch plan, i realised that some people are just so toxic that you couldn't help but just want to remove them and not see them again - blackrose that is. i don't know why but now i can see all the things i've been warned about clearly. and that makes me added another item to my 2016 to do list - cut toxic people out of my life.
on another note, my savings for that one big dream had to be touched! pretty sad but come to think of it, i am saving more for the long term if i touch it now. and i aim to return it back by Q2 next year.
on yet another note, i need to start building my social network in this new environment. i know my confidence is pretty much low because of my appearance. so come next year - come next week - i will make some effort to boost my confidence AND back to the jogging routine, probably start with some brisk walk first. aim to achieve my goal by my next birthday!
i am tempted to summarize my 2016 goal but i just have this feeling that i will blog again tomorrow, considering how quiet the office is this month! :D
Monday, December 28, 2015
2015 - last post
went home over the weekend and it was a good one.
of course there was also an incident that made me realized more and more that you cannot depend n anyone other than yourself and your parents. and for that, you need to save for your own future and not giving up on finding your other half.
no matter what, nephew and nieces are still not your kids. your siblings are someone else's partner. if you don't have a partner or kids, you just have to rely on yourself.
do you want to be alone forever? no ..
so keep looking for that person who you could enjoy the rest of your life with.
on another note ...
i have decided that 2016 will be a year of reading - less drama, more books.
and for this i want to challenge myself to at least one good book each month.
more quality books for this little brain of mine!
of course there was also an incident that made me realized more and more that you cannot depend n anyone other than yourself and your parents. and for that, you need to save for your own future and not giving up on finding your other half.
no matter what, nephew and nieces are still not your kids. your siblings are someone else's partner. if you don't have a partner or kids, you just have to rely on yourself.
do you want to be alone forever? no ..
so keep looking for that person who you could enjoy the rest of your life with.
on another note ...
i have decided that 2016 will be a year of reading - less drama, more books.
and for this i want to challenge myself to at least one good book each month.
more quality books for this little brain of mine!
Monday, December 21, 2015
December - an update
it's so close to the end of the year and I would like to recap my accomplishments this month now.
let's see ...
on another note ...
I went to an ex-colleague's wedding last week; met few bosses from the region, one of them cornered me asking the reason I left and sharing what she heard from the other side. well, it's a little too late for that seriously, but always good to know that some people still appreciate you. Buddha approached me to say hi as he wasn't around on my last day, some excuses given which I just decided to listen and can't be bothered about it. Invited me to a team event, which I politely declined. Asked why I only went out for lunch with one person, well .. do you ever treat me like you care when I was around? Isn't it too late for now? Glad I am out of that toxic environment.
now, going forward ...
What do I want to accomplish in 2016? in summary:
That's it for now ..
I kinda look forward to my blogging about my January accomplishment - see if I embarrass myself or make myself proud :)
let's see ...
- I've brought my parents Dubai for 6 days; they are happy and I am happy too! though I may not bring them somewhere far next year as I need to save some money for my other dream, I will still think of a short getaway for them next year
- I've started my new job. It's totally different from the previous job that I have to keep reminding myself things are different - more 'adult' environment and definitely more diversity; you don't hear people speaking mandarin in a discussion, which is AWESOME! job scope is also different - no more presentation, proposals which I think I will miss it one day, more routine job .. but it's totally new for me. and I aim to learn the business process while doing the work, for my own advantage in the future
- I've managed to reach the amount I aimed to save this year! and I have to focus on saving more if I want to fulfill that dream of mine
on another note ...
I went to an ex-colleague's wedding last week; met few bosses from the region, one of them cornered me asking the reason I left and sharing what she heard from the other side. well, it's a little too late for that seriously, but always good to know that some people still appreciate you. Buddha approached me to say hi as he wasn't around on my last day, some excuses given which I just decided to listen and can't be bothered about it. Invited me to a team event, which I politely declined. Asked why I only went out for lunch with one person, well .. do you ever treat me like you care when I was around? Isn't it too late for now? Glad I am out of that toxic environment.
now, going forward ...
What do I want to accomplish in 2016? in summary:
- I want to achieve my dream weight by my next birthday! but I want to aim to lose at least 5 kgs before the end of January 2016
- I want to pick up running again and I aim to run in every city I visited - this is my 2016 resolution!
- I want to save money, at least 50% of my monthly earning so that I can achieve my dream of being a homeowner in Q1-Q2 of 2017.
- I want to make my parents happier; and now that there's a prayer room in this company I want to not miss a prayer! Let me be a better me in 2016
- I still want to travel the world, already have few countries lined up and for this I have to cut down on my taxi expenses
- Should I take driving lesson? still wondering about this
That's it for now ..
I kinda look forward to my blogging about my January accomplishment - see if I embarrass myself or make myself proud :)
Friday, December 18, 2015
Hello, from the other side ...
I am at the end of my 2nd week in the new place. so far so good.
new environment - more adult environment, i shall say.
new job description - everyone is of the same level, everyone is like leading the team (LOL), but overall people are nice.
do i like it? do i love it? too early to say anything, but so far so good
definitely a lot of new things for me to learn. and since what i am hired to do will only start next week, i will be involved from day 0! how more exciting can it be.
currently i am working on another team's job - something new too, although it's a little mundane, i got to learn new tool and at the same time understanding the process of elimination performed in financial institution.
other than that?
I've fulfilled my dream to bring my parents for a trip outside of Asia, more to come please God.
and now my focus is saving as I want to own a property by 2017!
Wish me Luck!
new environment - more adult environment, i shall say.
new job description - everyone is of the same level, everyone is like leading the team (LOL), but overall people are nice.
do i like it? do i love it? too early to say anything, but so far so good
definitely a lot of new things for me to learn. and since what i am hired to do will only start next week, i will be involved from day 0! how more exciting can it be.
currently i am working on another team's job - something new too, although it's a little mundane, i got to learn new tool and at the same time understanding the process of elimination performed in financial institution.
other than that?
I've fulfilled my dream to bring my parents for a trip outside of Asia, more to come please God.
and now my focus is saving as I want to own a property by 2017!
Wish me Luck!
Sunday, November 01, 2015
Ambition
1st day of November.
somehow going through few people's pages today makes me want to be part of something good. I want to be part of something big and good. I know for this I have to take little steps and make changes to my current lifestyle.
Starting tomorrow I am going to cut my drama and do something more beneficial, something I haven't done in ages - read good quality book, watch good documentary, challenge myself, challenge my brain and head back to the person of quality I always aim to be.
I will wake up early and hit the road - even if it's a 10 minutes walk to start with, I will do it. I want to achieve something good before 2016 kicks in!!
wish me luck! I will update my accomplishment (no fall back) by end of this month, if not earlier :)
on another note, added to my bucket list: learn to drive again.
somehow going through few people's pages today makes me want to be part of something good. I want to be part of something big and good. I know for this I have to take little steps and make changes to my current lifestyle.
Starting tomorrow I am going to cut my drama and do something more beneficial, something I haven't done in ages - read good quality book, watch good documentary, challenge myself, challenge my brain and head back to the person of quality I always aim to be.
I will wake up early and hit the road - even if it's a 10 minutes walk to start with, I will do it. I want to achieve something good before 2016 kicks in!!
wish me luck! I will update my accomplishment (no fall back) by end of this month, if not earlier :)
on another note, added to my bucket list: learn to drive again.
Thursday, October 29, 2015
October - a recap
Now that October is ending soon, I just want to recap the happenings in this month. I dare said that this is the month I made one of the biggest decision in my life - leaving a company I have been with for 16 years!
I was told yesterday that buddha asked if I confirmed am leaving this place - and he shook his head when the answer was yes. He admitted that I am the person who started this service offerings, at least he remembered that. Still sad if I think of that.
I started cleaning my desk yesterday and somehow I couldn't help feeling emotional. Who would've thought this day would come .. but it comes!
OK, accomplishment is October:-
I was told yesterday that buddha asked if I confirmed am leaving this place - and he shook his head when the answer was yes. He admitted that I am the person who started this service offerings, at least he remembered that. Still sad if I think of that.
I started cleaning my desk yesterday and somehow I couldn't help feeling emotional. Who would've thought this day would come .. but it comes!
OK, accomplishment is October:-
- I QUIT my job - mixed feelings still, but I quit!!
- I finally signed up for 30 sessions of personal training aiming to look a bit good on my last day
- I have completed my photography course, now all I need to do is practice practice and practice
- I have booked the trip with my parents - after all I believe all the blessings I received are partly due to their constant prayer for my well being
- I am actually considering a trip for myself during the Deepavali break - hopefully the leave is approved; otherwise, :\
That's it .. I will recap my accomplishment at the end of every month - that way I can keep on challenging myself to do better.
And yes, I really want to be outstanding in my new place so that everybody realized how wrong it was to make me go .. I know a few have felt that, even the boss who held me back; but I just want to make myself proud of my own accomplishments in all aspects - relationship with the creator, family, life and love ...
all the best, me!
Monday, October 26, 2015
The journey begins
After years .. yes YEARS ... of delaying, succumbing to my laziness I finally took the plunge and committed myself to 30 sessions of personal training. Today was the 1st day and gosh, I was so amazed with how totally unfit I am. Even the trainer was saying that I am sooo out of shape :|
I asked if I can look good by end of November, he said NO! haha .. but we will both work hard and I will be fully committed to this.
As he said - I am not saying it's going to be, but let's make it worth it!
I asked if I can look good by end of November, he said NO! haha .. but we will both work hard and I will be fully committed to this.
As he said - I am not saying it's going to be, but let's make it worth it!
Monday, October 19, 2015
Joke of the day
so, year end review is finally released ... a month after we received our letter :D
Overall rating:
4 - exceeded expectations
Comments:
XXX has shown commitment and enthusiasm.
She started to lead teams across the region.
She done jobs from beginning to end with good outcomes and within time frame and budget.
She can execute well and over come challenges.
She has done very well at manager level.
We will like her to concentrate on building ZZZ brand and business development.
The following are areas that XXX can focus on to position herself to take on an SM role:
1) Be known for something in the firm and the market - self branding
2) Take initiative to step up to take the lead in a situation - leadership
3) Understand trends,market and competitive landscape - strategic thinking
4) External focus and proactive in business development - invent your future
exceeded expectations ... but no promotion
done very well ... but no promotion
take on SM role ... but no promotion
I would rather they tell me point blank that there isn't any headcount left for SM than telling me I haven't do any business development.
Hence my satisfaction of winning one before leaving this place ..
can't do BD? can't do BD what?
good riddance!
Overall rating:
4 - exceeded expectations
Comments:
XXX has shown commitment and enthusiasm.
She started to lead teams across the region.
She done jobs from beginning to end with good outcomes and within time frame and budget.
She can execute well and over come challenges.
She has done very well at manager level.
We will like her to concentrate on building ZZZ brand and business development.
The following are areas that XXX can focus on to position herself to take on an SM role:
1) Be known for something in the firm and the market - self branding
2) Take initiative to step up to take the lead in a situation - leadership
3) Understand trends,market and competitive landscape - strategic thinking
4) External focus and proactive in business development - invent your future
exceeded expectations ... but no promotion
done very well ... but no promotion
take on SM role ... but no promotion
I would rather they tell me point blank that there isn't any headcount left for SM than telling me I haven't do any business development.
Hence my satisfaction of winning one before leaving this place ..
can't do BD? can't do BD what?
good riddance!
Friday, October 16, 2015
heart warming
"It's a loss to the firm"
"What are we gonna do without you?"
Those simple yet powerful words are very heart warming.
And that they came from the people who are practically new to this place makes it more precious.
Thank you for those sweet words ...
"What are we gonna do without you?"
Those simple yet powerful words are very heart warming.
And that they came from the people who are practically new to this place makes it more precious.
Thank you for those sweet words ...
Thursday, October 15, 2015
Bucket list - an update
so i haven't update my bucket list for SO long ..
let's update those that have yet to be accomplished and what I have accomplished from October onwards ;)
1. Lose weight - an ongoing never ending plan :'(
2. Bring mum and dad for yet another trip, this time around somewhere a little futher
3. 10K in 2015
4. Head back to french class
5. ACFE .. should I still do this I wonder.
6. Learn SAS
7. A trip for myself, crocodile in Darwin?
On another note, my accomplishments in September/October:
1. I QUIT MY JOB ..
totally unplanned, totally unexpected but just gotta do it
was an emotional wreck when I talked to the boss, but hey I have been here for 16yrs! it's not an
easy decision *although i wish there is a time machine so i could be more ehm, professional*
2. Photography class ..
after so long, I finally took the plunge and pretty happy that I can operate manual now, still LOTS of room for improvement, but YAY
let's update those that have yet to be accomplished and what I have accomplished from October onwards ;)
1. Lose weight - an ongoing never ending plan :'(
2. Bring mum and dad for yet another trip, this time around somewhere a little futher
3. 10K in 2015
4. Head back to french class
5. ACFE .. should I still do this I wonder.
6. Learn SAS
7. A trip for myself, crocodile in Darwin?
On another note, my accomplishments in September/October:
1. I QUIT MY JOB ..
totally unplanned, totally unexpected but just gotta do it
was an emotional wreck when I talked to the boss, but hey I have been here for 16yrs! it's not an
easy decision *although i wish there is a time machine so i could be more ehm, professional*
2. Photography class ..
after so long, I finally took the plunge and pretty happy that I can operate manual now, still LOTS of room for improvement, but YAY
I M Possible
I jokingly said that maybe I'll return here when I'm offered a high post. And then a dear brotherly friend told that it could happen, that I shouldn't underestimate myself.
It's true - with hardship comes ease. with hard work comes result. nothing is impossible because i have a great God who turned all my wishes into reality. I just need to work hard to achieve it!
It's true - with hardship comes ease. with hard work comes result. nothing is impossible because i have a great God who turned all my wishes into reality. I just need to work hard to achieve it!
Emotional wreckage
Now that I think about it, I am an emotional wreck.
I shouldn't have shed a tear in front of the boss saying I'm not happy .. that I haven't been happy for months .. that I've decided to stop shedding tears for this company.
I can imagine him saying behind me to his 'partner' - 'if she's not happy then go la .. '
And I know they can't wait to see me fail ..
I will change ...
I will no longer shed a tears and I will no longer speak about my feelings
I will enjoy the next few weeks for memory sake
I will no longer complain or say anything, I will think 10 times before saying anything - no matter how upset they make me feel
I will move on
and I WILL prove them that I am happy out there
me and my emotion :|
I shouldn't have shed a tear in front of the boss saying I'm not happy .. that I haven't been happy for months .. that I've decided to stop shedding tears for this company.
I can imagine him saying behind me to his 'partner' - 'if she's not happy then go la .. '
And I know they can't wait to see me fail ..
I will change ...
I will no longer shed a tears and I will no longer speak about my feelings
I will enjoy the next few weeks for memory sake
I will no longer complain or say anything, I will think 10 times before saying anything - no matter how upset they make me feel
I will move on
and I WILL prove them that I am happy out there
me and my emotion :|
Wednesday, October 14, 2015
Fume!
Fxck this place!!
Now they're telling me it is my fault that all these happened!!
Yeah right ..
it is my fault for being assigned to a counselor from another country
it is my fault that my counselor is very busy and had no time
it is my fault that the counselor spoke to the big boss and said things are tough for me when this big boss knows nuts about me
it is my fault that none of my own team .. MY OWN TEAM! speak up for me
it it my fault for everything
yeah right!
I will work dang hard to prove you guys wrong - it's your loss not mine!!
*can't wait to cut the ties ...
Now they're telling me it is my fault that all these happened!!
Yeah right ..
it is my fault for being assigned to a counselor from another country
it is my fault that my counselor is very busy and had no time
it is my fault that the counselor spoke to the big boss and said things are tough for me when this big boss knows nuts about me
it is my fault that none of my own team .. MY OWN TEAM! speak up for me
it it my fault for everything
yeah right!
I will work dang hard to prove you guys wrong - it's your loss not mine!!
*can't wait to cut the ties ...
Mixed
I'm jealous of the way ... you're happy without me :|
Why do I have this mixed feeling about buddha?
one on hand i want to get out of this place, but on another hand i don't want to let go of buddha
Why do I have this mixed feeling about buddha?
one on hand i want to get out of this place, but on another hand i don't want to let go of buddha
Wednesday, October 07, 2015
Moved On .. soon!
God is great. God is awesome. God is PERFECT!!!
after months of desperation wondering if I could ever save what pride I have left, He gave me the answer - and they're all exactly as my dream!
so i have received the incentive i surely well deserved. and i also found a new job!
i told myself that if i earned a certain amount i will take my parents on a trip. and i got that exact amount!
i thought of giving the parents certain amount more, and guess what? after negotiating it, i received that certain amount more!
If this is not God's blessing, what it is?
I hope I don't burn the bridges here but as I said to everyone I want to move on. I need to move on.
What's waiting for me at the end of the tunnel? Only God knows and with what He has blessed me with, I trust him with all my heart and soul. God's plan is ALWAYS the best!
after months of desperation wondering if I could ever save what pride I have left, He gave me the answer - and they're all exactly as my dream!
so i have received the incentive i surely well deserved. and i also found a new job!
i told myself that if i earned a certain amount i will take my parents on a trip. and i got that exact amount!
i thought of giving the parents certain amount more, and guess what? after negotiating it, i received that certain amount more!
If this is not God's blessing, what it is?
I hope I don't burn the bridges here but as I said to everyone I want to move on. I need to move on.
What's waiting for me at the end of the tunnel? Only God knows and with what He has blessed me with, I trust him with all my heart and soul. God's plan is ALWAYS the best!
Thursday, September 03, 2015
Moving on
Today the progression list came out - I tried hard to held back the tears as promised, no more tears for this freaking company.
Although it almost betrayed me I managed to held it back. I am feeling great about myself and hopefully I can stay this way until my last day in this place.
Although it almost betrayed me I managed to held it back. I am feeling great about myself and hopefully I can stay this way until my last day in this place.
Tuesday, September 01, 2015
ENOUGH
Today will be the last time I drop tears because of my company. Not a single drop after today, apart from tears of joy I guess.
I have been wondering lately if it's worth staying now that there are more engagement opportunities. But then tears started flowing down uncontrollably when I saw the list. My peers is my senior. My junior is my senior.
This is the 2nd time I was held back, how many more should I face in the future? Enough is enough.
Like now, here I am working on several proposals on my own. Leaving me to do work for the next rank and yet not wanting to move me up. This is the 2nd time I've got held back for the same reason another person is promoted.
And that disappointment on how focusing on one favourite job backfired when all the acknowledgement went to someone else and yet I got all the bad review for not spending enough time on other jobs. wtf to the max!
No more tears for this place. No more self-pity. Time to move on. no changing my mind.
Enough is enough!
I have been wondering lately if it's worth staying now that there are more engagement opportunities. But then tears started flowing down uncontrollably when I saw the list. My peers is my senior. My junior is my senior.
This is the 2nd time I was held back, how many more should I face in the future? Enough is enough.
Like now, here I am working on several proposals on my own. Leaving me to do work for the next rank and yet not wanting to move me up. This is the 2nd time I've got held back for the same reason another person is promoted.
And that disappointment on how focusing on one favourite job backfired when all the acknowledgement went to someone else and yet I got all the bad review for not spending enough time on other jobs. wtf to the max!
No more tears for this place. No more self-pity. Time to move on. no changing my mind.
Enough is enough!
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