Changed

Sometimes I wonder, am I that bad in people's eyes?

I shared my unhappiness and ended up being judged

I cared for someone even felt hurt when she didn't get what she deserved and ended up not being acknowledged, totally forgotten when they are having fun

I do realize that some people will only look for me when they need help or something; when it comes to having fun? I'll be stroke off the list

I know I took the being judged situation to the extreme .. totally removed them from my mind so as not being hurt anymore although I am the one feeling like an outcast now.
Yes I know I am being overly sensitive but I'd rather avoid the whole thing than ended up in the same situation again - being judged.

The year has not even reach half yet I have lost few friends ...

now, cheer up!!
It's okay if people don't include them in their fun list.
It's okay to avoid people so as not to be judged again in the future ..
Just use the energy into something more meaningful and let's just focus on my own goal!