Disturbed

I want to write something but there are so many things in my mind that I ended up with not knowing what to write

OK let's just write one that is so unimportant but kinda disturbed me

I don't know ..

I guess being single for so long kinda make you feel happy and all smiley when someone just gave you more attention.
I mean I know this person, kinda annoyed with him and when I met him I realised that I wouldn't be able to like this kinda person. But, with distance and the constant - okay not constant but at times - chat over the phone, work related btw, I just feel hmmm, happy?

Happy with the attention, happy with the conversation .. happy even deep down I know this is one sweet talker, one smooth operator.

And today I was just feeling disturbed - it started with a curt email/message making it like it's my fault when it's so not. Then a news about how smooth he is, even smoother than people who believe they're smooth.
Why does it bother me? Maybe because I know the attention given is just an act, it's just his personality? Probably

Ok nevermind, knowing myself it will fade away soon.
Wonder when can I find one to call my own???