Tipping Point

Sometimes you're faced with a challenge you either like it and take it happily, dislike it but take it still as you have no choice, or dislike it and do something about it.
I started from the first, moved to the second and now, am I already moving to the 3rd respond?


Could this be a sign from God for me to move on?

Karma

Somehow by the twist of an unfortunate event, I got involved in this task - 8 types 4 times a year.
I wanted to protest, I wanted to get out of this but I know no matter how hard I try, I wouldn't be able to escape it .. so why bother protesting?
I looked at them .. think at them .. and tears just began rolling ..


I don't know .. is this a sign that I should move on? start looking what's available out there?
Or is this just a sign that I really need a break, even if it's only for a day or two.


And as usual, every time I have that thoughts my superhero contacted me ...

Lucky

you don't win people/client overnight, you owin them through constant, warm communication ...

i am lucky to have such a nice good mentor who make me his personal task!

Disturbed

I want to write something but there are so many things in my mind that I ended up with not knowing what to write

OK let's just write one that is so unimportant but kinda disturbed me

I don't know ..

I guess being single for so long kinda make you feel happy and all smiley when someone just gave you more attention.
I mean I know this person, kinda annoyed with him and when I met him I realised that I wouldn't be able to like this kinda person. But, with distance and the constant - okay not constant but at times - chat over the phone, work related btw, I just feel hmmm, happy?

Happy with the attention, happy with the conversation .. happy even deep down I know this is one sweet talker, one smooth operator.

And today I was just feeling disturbed - it started with a curt email/message making it like it's my fault when it's so not. Then a news about how smooth he is, even smoother than people who believe they're smooth.
Why does it bother me? Maybe because I know the attention given is just an act, it's just his personality? Probably

Ok nevermind, knowing myself it will fade away soon.
Wonder when can I find one to call my own???

Allure

you are very interactive with guys. you just need to control the effect you have in men.

insult or compliment or just a silly sweet talk? or the person himself is the one who was affected?

whichever it is, i will take that as a constructive criticism - at least i know i have the power :D

Super HERO

a hero, to me, is not someone who wears a cape, having super power, and mission is to save the world
to me, a hero is:

someone who, when you are in doubt, unsure about the path to choose, called you and provided reassurances without you asking. like (s)he knows that you are in need of those words.

scratch that .. that is not a hero - that is a superhero!

Proactive

today i did something that i never thought i would could do - sales.
it seems fun and hopefully i can continue doing this and really come with a result. to make myself proud.

it is time to make the best of what life has to offer and forget all the nonsense fantasies. some things are worth fantasizing but others are pointless and might lead to self destruction; so why bother right?

but honestly, there is this tiny bit of hope in the corner of the heart that what i am doing could make someone proud and notice me.

but, still the main focus is: myself.

2014

major challenge: reaction!
gotta practice reacting cool in all kind of situation; after all remember that you are not part of the flock!

Language

when you speak local language amongst yourself - that is perfectly fine
BUT
when you started using this local language in business meeting where people who don't understand are present - that is perfectly RUDE