Sunny Monday

monday used to be the day i *and i'm pretty sure i'm not alone here* drag. first day of week. first day of work. the day i realised weekend is not long enough. and sometimes i just can't wait for friday to come again. but not today! i am happy today is monday.

i came to work only to find that i received an email that brought good news. i managed to complete all my errands during lunch. the weather is bright and actually i can feel the warmth of the sun from where i'm sitting now. i'm pretty sure we'll be doing our run prior to thursday's jp morgan challenge later. hope the 'singapore eye' is ready soon so that we don't have to do a detour from our normal running route. a friend finally sent email sharing his new life in another country. emails from friends which i always look forward to receive. oh i did mention in my previous post that i'm starting with a fresh mind as well, hence everything feels light. and of course, tomorrow is a public holiday which means friday comes early this week. the only drawback about today is that i just came back from marketing dept collecting our t-shirt for the run. it is dark maroon and white in color. yucks!

Brand New Week; Brand New Day

and i think it is just nice to start it with a brand new fresh mind. what's been happenning for the past few months will be taken as a lesson learnt. sometimes you're just so comfortable with your life until something came along the way and made you realised, 'it can't be this way forever!' you have to decide or do something to change it. the only way to make a right decision is to know what the wrong decision is. so, what is right? what is wrong? and then comes the important question of all - what do i want? yes, you can have anything you want if you are willing to lose everything else. but i don't want everything and i am not willing to lose everything, if not anything. not at this moment of my life. not now. so i guess i'll just live my life as what i've been telling people when they ask of my future, just go with the flow. i might and will need to make some changes along the way. and i'll take all that as another lesson learnt. for now, i'll just stick to what's on my mind. one step at a time. a step forward is better than standing still.

Fickle

i unashamedly admitted to the fact that i am that. i love risky activities but i am not prepared to risk my future. i sometimes judge things quick and often look at it from the worst case point of view, which is not good. i create my own problem with my wild imagination on things. i want to be out of something badly. but when given a choice i'd hesitate 'cos i don't want to lose what i already have. i want this but if continue pursuing it i might be missing the chance of getting that which could lead to the other that, though the other 'that' is still uncertain as well. i know that sometimes its best not to know things but somehow i ended up knowing it and getting myself in yet another self-created mysery. i often wonder, what i really want. when i think i found the answer i'll pursue it but when i'm close to it i'd asked myself do i really want that? sometimes i want things just because other people want them. sometimes i want things because other people don't want them. and sometimes i want things simply because i want it. life is simple and i guess sometimes i make it complicated with all the 'what ifs'. sometimes i want to achieve more, sometimes i'm just contented with whatever life present me. another cycle in my life.

If Only ...

my life is getting uncomfortably comfortable here. i need a distraction. i need to create problem for myself. i need some new and exciting experience. oh how i wish i could furfill my dreams soon ...

Wonder Why?

i skipped gym totally last week. apart from a walk i did on tuesday which *was not that far*, i pretty much didn't do anything. but how come my legs are wobbly, my muscles are sore and some discomfort in my left hip flexor. i did those hip rotations exercise i learnt during pilates and it only helps a bit. my body should've feel great from not doing any streneous thing yet it feels like this. age catching up? hmm ..

Now Thats What I Call Customer Service

got a called from the counter manager of la mer ck tang :-
lm : hi n, this is k from la mer
me: hi, how are you?
lm : n, i notice you never try our refining facial. would you like to give it a try?
me: what is that for? *thinking that it sounds familiar*
lm : well, its for bla bla bla .. would you like to have a sample?
me: yes, please. thank you
lm : okay, so when are you going to collect it?
me: i can come later.
lm : what time?
me: probably before 7
lm : okay, i'll wait for you so i can explain on how to use it. i'll see you later.
me: thanks again. see you
what sample? that supposed to be 'sample' could last for months!!

CarpeDiem

there's a time for everything. you can't expect miracle. all you can do is keep on trying and leave everything to the hands of fate. if nothing happens, at least you've tried instead of just staying passive and simply whining. just seize the day..
look at my sister. she's been getting everything she's been wanting now. one after another, all unexpectedly. so when i complained to her about something that makes me unhappy, she would asked me to look at how patience she is before getting all these. happy for you sis!
this reminds me of something from my teenage years :-
"the best things in life comes to those who wait. so be the best you can at everything you try. and you'll get what you want" - jordan knight
Happy Friday everyone

Rattling ...

i managed to solve the problem and confused my boss in the process. lol, anyways its just nice to start the day with something good. well, not that good actually. i didn't sleep well last night, that is if sleeping ard 6ish in the morning is considered sleeping. i came back late last night so i "had to" stay awake to watch the re-run of heroes and fashion house. guess i slept in the middle of FH and managed to catch the part where michelle had her 1st fashion show. of course i catched the re-run of american idol in between and i simply love one of simon's sarcastic comments on ryan - 'excuse me, who rattles your cage?'. after that i couldn't sleep and ended up trying skirts *to which i'm pretty sure my body expanded tremendously* and finished reading a book i borrowed. feeling lethargic now and trying my best not to drink coke. been doping myself with coke every morning just to booze up my energy level. so worn out nowadays. come to think about it, i haven't had any decent break for more than a year! yes i went home few months back, but i don't think spending a week in the hospital is considered a break. i couldn't wait for my medan trip but its still months to go. if only i can think of somewhere close, cheap, relaxing for a getaway. and i think i need some retail therapy too. well actually i need a pair of 3/4 jeans. none of what's in the cupboard fits me and i don't think it will be soon for me to be able to wear anything there.

Enter At Your Own Risk

its a known fact here that when someone's mood is amber, don't approach!. so what i did earlier was a mistake and i'm aware of the outcome. but still it's a bit sad when you got the 'result' for the things done by others, especially when you are intending to correct the problem. if its any consolation, i am not the only one getting the 'special attention' today. guess her expectation is too high already. sigh, the damage is done. well.. at least i've come out with something that should make the mood change to green tomorrow. as long as she's not sleeping at the wrong side of the bed tonight. and lets hope that once i'm done somebody is still around this area so that we can have a good dinner. i deserve that for sure!

Because I Said So!

this movie really reminds me of mom. well, not the title as she never ever said that word to any of us but just the idea of a mother wanting the best for her daughter. the thought of the daughter ending up alone. and furthermore the fact that two of her kids are well off and the one left looks like she has no chance in meeting the right person. just like my life story. thank God mom doesn't know how to use the internet. if she does, i'm not surprise she'd spend her afternoon surfing the net looking for the imperfectly perfect guy for her girl. haha .. love you mom!

That Expensive?!

the remote control of my a/c spoilt. don't know why but after changing the battery some buttons couldn't work. so i called the service centre today thinking of getting a new remote control. they need to order first and it'll be around 4 to 6 weeks time. cost wise? close $90. just for a remote control. bugger! with my card holder gone and some other stuff, i've been spending more than i should've been this month. thought of changing the remote in the other room as well as i noticed the lcd was a bit black, must be to some fell. but with that price? forget it.

'Til We Meet Again

a friend of mine is moving to hongkong tomorrow. for good. well, it's been awhile since we know this but he still comes back to singapore once in a while. now for sure, 4 years there after which he might spread his wings to other countries before heading back to his homeland.
i met him during lunch as he needs to return few stuff of mine. supposed to be lunch with the other girls as well but they couldn't make it, its quite a last minute thingy and none can cancel whatever they've planned. well honestly i understand what they're feeling. i too felt sad when he didn't turn up during our dessert when we already planned on having a so-called 'farewell' for him. he didn't join the dinner last week which was okay since it was a very last minute thingy but the dessert? so when i met him, i told him that he should've come last weekend. that was when he told me that he was feeling a bit depressed and wasn't ready to bid farewell to us. he simply spent that night inside his room looking at his packed stuff. i was sad upon hearing that and we spent time talking, wishing all the best before parting. i could see tears in his eyes and honestly i left the place with tears in my eyes as well. my bad was not asking him to have lunch with me. but then again, i don't think i could prolong this sadness.
more than a year ago we met, we became friends, we then kinda have a lovely circle of friends with daily emails, sharing views, meetup for movie, dinner, or simply catching up. everyone has their own personal stuff or other group, but we always make an effort to spend time just amongst us. i spent more time with him as we stay in the east. he's my travelling home buddy, my kickboxing sparring partner, my activity buddy, our running buddy *twice*, and with us practising the same religion we sometimes share our views as well. i even went out on a shopping trip with him once. i hope we all can still be as close as we are now eventhough one of us is no longer in singapore. quite an irony eh, when his sister moved to singapore he moved out of singapore. he promised to visit indonesia for my wedding *haha, when ya when?* and we definitely will visit him if we had a chance to go to hongkong. Au revoir my dear friend

Hard to Resist

thanks to a friend who finally sent us the pictures, it brings back the craving ..

Untitled

the IT guy took my machine for some testing. i'm their guinea pig as usual. i was left with nothing but my book and a paper to kill time. was not in the mood to read, i spent the time looking out through the glass window, looking up to the sky my mind started wandering. about the stuff i did this morning. about the person i called during my lunch break. about the pricey course i enquired earlier. then back to all the things i've been doing with no result. i looked at the blue sky and started a conversation with my creator. why, when, how come, and lots of others. suddenly my mobile rang. the answer to one of my questions. alhamdulillah

Delayed

i am truly disappointed at the moment. the course i am so looking forward to attend was delayed due to lack of participant. i've been told that normally the response was bad for the weekend class. i know i should've attended it when they had it last month during weekdays. but i kept on delaying my decision and look what happens now. another month to wait. such a waste of time.
well, the great blessing of life is the existence of tomorrows and having dreams to realize. i'll just look at this as a blessing and not a hurdle in achieving what i want sooner. there's always something worth it hidden in everything that happens. i guess i'll just look at the bright side.

Picking Up the Old Habit

i walked from office to orchard road yesterday. my legs started to feel itchy followed by my bum. seems like the fats around that area was burning. my route was as per normal:- raffles place-boat quay-clarke quay-river valley-killiney-sommerset-orchard. it was a nice walk until i realised that if i were to walk in this pace i'd be late for the engagement i had and i still need to run errand. i started to increase my pace and my tummy began to feel itchy. well as usual, my abs is always the last part this body choose to burn. reaching orchard and done with my errand, i went back to killiney for the engagement i had. i was a bit dehydrated by then but all in all it was a good walk. today i feel some soreness in my thigh which means i did burn something yesterday. i think it is good if i go back to the old days where me and few workmates gathered at either lavender or outrampark mrt station and walked to the office then. with them being unavailable now, one resigned, the other one had an ankle surgery, i have to do it alone and lets see if i really do it.

Blurrrttt

i'm so full with this statement of account thingy. still couldn't figure what comes from what. why is it like that. i've been disturbing the finance people for more questions. why appear in receivables and aging but not cash receipt. what is oa. what is this. what is that. why like this. why like that. how come the figure is a when based on normal calculation it should be b. sigh, i just hope i can come out with the solution soon. all this finance things sometimes made me interested in taking finance course for my own satisfaction. but sometimes i am too confused with the way of all the calculations that i decided nah, not going to put myself to trouble for nothing but personal satisfaction. anyways, i've had enough of figures today and i think i'll just blog, browse the net & reply emails for the next 30 mins or so.
a friend of mine is having a tough time. after stroke, prostate cancer, now her dad is diagnosed with parkinson disease. poor her, every 1.5 years in her life she's faced with bad news. it's been 2 years since the last diagnosed that she's quite happy. it doesn't last long. well i hope all the best for her. what can we do except consoling and be there for her. i shared my mom's experience, being far from home that she almost missed her own mom's funeral *thanks to indonesian immigration*. i told her about how mom tried to be there for her dad, always went back to singapore at least twice a year and stayed for months. i am so blessed having a dad who doesn't mind her wife leaving him and her kids behind to attend to her father. come to think of it, it made us more independent and stronger as well. even when my 3rd sister passed away mom&dad left us in singapore with my aunt for months (or was it a year?). well to be fair to mom, dad too travels a lot during his working days, sometimes leaving us behind for years during his study days and months during his business trip. hehe, mom&dad told me that when dad returned from one of his trip i was afraid to see him because he's dark. and look at the colour of my skin now. he didn't even see my 3rd sister, not even once as he was doing his dessertation that day. i remember 'peeping' at one of his letter to his colleague in which he wrote not seeing his 3rd daughter is his biggest regret. well mom is definitely my role model when it comes to loyalty to her families. dad even include mom's name for the crustacean species (sorry dad it's still a lobster for me 'cos it looks like one) he found near singapore as a token of gratitude to my mom. love you dad!
ssshhh .. wonder where my mind is from my thinking of my friend i ended up with my dad :). well hopefully my friend go through this stage with patience and surrendering everything to the hands of God.

not science, not engineering, let alone economy

so my uni back home has published a website. i went in yesterday and registered myself. when asked of my student id i was left speechless. i couldn't remember it. i remembered pin numbers of my savings back home, my friends home & some mobile numbers, including few relatives phone number. i'm not bragging but i'm normally good in memorizing numbers. so i only filled it with 1292000??? :\. i still haven't receive the confirmation email and i suspect it might be due to the way i filled the student id field.
anyways, as per normal before i can sleep i relished the events that happened on that day and plan on my activity for the following day. if there's something that isn't settled yet, i'd have problem falling asleep. be it a movie title, a singer, a song, a name, a way to solve work problem, anything!. and last night it was my student id number. i tried my best to sleep to no avail. suddenly a number popped out - 236. yes that's it:- 1292000236. that's my student number. if only i am those that buy 4D or toto or whatever, i might've used that number hoping it will strike big, eh. i managed to sleep with some yell filling my head.
mipa bukan teknik bukan fe apalagi. kami ini program studi berdiri sendiri. kami cinta prosilkom. kami bangga prosilkom. maju terus prosilkom!! *of course, it's fasilkom now*

Indonesia Mode in On

akhirnya dlm seminggu terakhir ini udah 2x ke kedai ibu. tadi sih gak direncanain, tapi gara2 si empunya bilang menu spesialnya nasi gudeg komplit semangat 45 lah kesana. padahal niatannya ke gym buat spinning class lhoo. apa daya makanan memang lebih menggoda. ngajakin temen tapi dia masih berkutat di kedubes. salah sendiri sih udah dibilangin pergi pagi teteep aja keluar jam 9an, moto dulu pula. alhasil kesana untuk beli bungkus aja dah. temen satu lagi di-sms aja ngasih info ini dan langsung dibilangin yang aye bakalan bungkus bawa pulang. sampe sana sedih banget pas dibilangin 'aduh, gudegnya abis'. hiks hiks. ya sudahlah coba yang lain. masih belum berani nyobain sate padang neh, kok kuahnya masih mengingatkan pada alm. grace ya, my lovely persian cat. niat bungkus keganti jadi makan disana pas ada yang neriakin. ternyata ada si muti disana. kebetulan juga ada kursi kosong didepan dia jadi ganti makan ditempat deh. enak makanannya dan ngobrol2 juga sama si muti. abis gak kenal or begitu kenal yang lain, maklum aja lah kuper :). ngenalin diri juga sedikit pusing, pake nama yang mana ya? panggilan lama emang udah jarang dipake, tapi kadang ada yang nanya kok namanya ganti kalau kenalan dengan panggilan baru yang memang lebih formal? hmm.. makan, bungkus sate padang buat temen kos and pulang deh. rencananya sih jalan ampe kantor muti terus naik bis. apa daya udah rintik2. jadinya kita ke halte and pisahan disana. ampe sekarang masih kenyang nih. udah ah, combat dulu; mayan kan bakar2 dikit.

Next Week!!

as usual i woke up early just to off the alarm and fell back to sleep. my mind was working 'bodypump bodypump' but my body begged for the bed. even the thought of attending my favourite instructor class didn't help. okay, nevermind i'll start the morning pump next week *as usual* and i'm going for a run later anyway. then my sis called. she is supposed to be in the philippines for training and yet the flights are booked until april 13th. even the business class of sq. must be due to the easter weekend. she waited for the 4pm flight since she's the first in the waiting list. just got a called that even some of the confirmed passengers was moved to tomorrow morning with some compensation and there goes her chance of flying today. so i'm spending tonight with my sister. which means no running for me. again it happens..

The Getaway Ticket

i've been trying to call my embassy from morning to no avail. from half frustrated to totally frustrated i then called the councellor line hoping someone would pick it up. no luck. after sending an email to the mailing list i tried to call again and finally FINALLY somebody picked it up. for passport renewal, you now have to take picture in Orchard Towers. people might have some dodgy thought when they hear the place. I have no idea why they choose that photo studio as their partner as well. anyways, the embassy couldn't give me information on the name or phone number of the place. all the man told me was #05-19, closed at 4.30 pm weekdays and before 12 on saturday.
i then called us embassy asking about visa. not that i'm planning a trip there soon, but my visa expired in 2010 and it is just a waste if its no longer valid once i change passport, especially when the passport number is different. luck's on my side this time. the lady told me that it wasn't a problem. good good.
for now, i think i'll call the information and try to get the name of this photo studio and get a better info on their location and operating hours.

Monday Again

time flies whether you're having fun or not ya. with a blink of the eye, it's monday again. well, back to work and our daily routinity is not bad, but wouldn't it be great if i can do something different everyday? after all, in order to change your life you have to start changing certain thing that you do daily. instead of waking up late, i could've just wake up early and take a walk before preparing myself for work. yeah, right no action talk only. like my friend said 'i can't believe you stay so close to east coast yet i've been there more than you do'. i lack of discipline, that's for sure.
anyways, my weekend was good. after all i watched 2 movies back to back. went to my relative's to return a dress and i brought home 2 vadais and 2 popiahs. solved my lunch problem there. closed the weekend with a splendid dinner with a friend. there's no harm in having a 'romantic' dinner with a female friend, right? especially when it has a nice dessert. either that or miss the chance of indulging yourself with good food, hehe.

It's All About Balance, Baby...

i suck big time when it comes to balancing. well, apart from bodybalance that is. i suck in cycling. i still can't stand long in wakeboarding. and now to add to the list, i suck in ice-skating! it all started with a friend's invitation to have lunch at her place that we decided to do ice-skating afterwards. to imagine my cowardness of falling or twisted my ankles after paying for a 2 hours activity is annoying. i ended up circling the rink once, well one and a quarter time actually and spent the rest of the time people watching. there's this groups of caucasian girls that were good and i really enjoyed watching them doing the spin and stuff. my friend was not bad either for a 2nd timer. though she fell twice she managed to move around, a very fast learner. i still want to learn this but i do have to be more good in balancing myself. still have roller blading to conquer!
on another note, i called home yesterday and dad picked it up. had a chat and he told me that my niece hair was 'blonder' than my nephew. i know he meant lighter in color but blimmey! i'm definitely a srilankan maid if i ever go out with my niece. called my sister but nobody picked up the phone. she later texted me saying that my niece can utter the word 'eeeoooo' when she's near a phone. i called and heard it myself. she's soo adorable. i miss her!!

Sex in the City

okay okay i gave up. Sex in the City indeed. our friday breakfast was moved to thursday this week because it's a holiday tomorrow. this time around i was the 2nd to arrive, not 1st not 3rd but 2nd. guess next week i'll arrive last just for the purpose of being 4th :). had a hearthy breakfast - scrambled salmon, used to be my morning ritual back in those healthy days. seems like ages ago, eh. when talking about the place for next week's breakfast, someone mentioned about her workmates asking if they could join this breakfast. her answer? 'no way, 4 is just perfect for sex in the city'. apparently she's been telling people that she has a sex in the city breakfast thingy every friday morning. we were like 'ewww'. then she said 'look, 4 girls. different personality. different background. different country/city. chat about everything'. true actually. so okay then, sex in the city indeed. chatting dadada it's already 9 am. as usual, late again :).
ahh.. weekend is approaching. no to tree top walk. no to wakeboarding *my body isn't fully recovered yet especially after that tough spinning class on tuesday*. i choose a quiet nice perfect weekend this time around. movies, books, foods will be the only choice. hmm, if i'm in the mood i might try waking up early and have a run around east coast park. let's see let's see.
in case i don't blog after this especially now that my boss gave me something out of a sudden to be done by monday :'( - Have a Great Weekend Bloggies (is there such a term?? hmm).

Kedai Ibu

finally i went there for lunch. it all started with a conversation i had with few friends that this place has sate padang, ayam pop, and the food was very 'indonesia'. we then decided to go there one day. lots of delay. lots of can't make it today that me & ellyn decided to go ahead even the others couldn't. anyway its been a while since i met her and it'll be a good way for catching up if it's just the two of us. supposed to go on tuesday where i heard they have sate padang and ellyn really wanted that. but after some cancellation and stuff i kinda make other appointment yesterday and we ended up going today. the food was good. we decided to go a la carte so that we have more varieties. ellyn face changed when she did the payment. i asked her why and i was surprise as well. lets see .. paru, singkong, orek tempe, perkedel jagung and 2 plates of white rice. total damage :- $6!!! very very very reasonable price that we couldn't believe it. after lunch we approached the owner, ellen, asking about their special menu and got told that monday is when they normally have lots of varieties. i went back to the office and tell my workmates about this. i'm sure ellyn did the same with her friends. definitely worth coming back for more.

The Daredevil

Free and easy is your style, and you've always known that half the fun's in getting there. You love exploring the back streets and shadowy alleyways, as you've often unearthed priceless treasures among the trash. Serendipity smiles upon you.
The relaxed and fluid approach has taken you far. Creatively, you're a font of ideas. In the face of the unconventional and even outlandish, you're the first to see possibilities invisible to the less imaginative. You believe that plans should be made... to be broken! You often act on impulse and last minute getaways to unlikely places have been your most rewarding.
Your charm and spontaneity are highly attractive. You may well like getting caught in the rain - preferably with a pina colada, and you find yourself quite frequently dreaming of escape from the everyday.

from survey conducted by discovery travel & living.
very true indeed .. especiallly, those in bold.

The Result

my whole body is aching. i feel like there's not even one muscle supporting me. a total jell-O. luckily its still monday so i have some excuse for not concentrating at work. how can i concentrate when i can't even sit still. even my bums are aching. so tempted to go down and see a doctor to get some muscle relaxer. been calling tbs to make a massage appointment. what do you know, no slot available for tonight. guess i'll do those chair massage during my lunch break. my partner in crime just called and she's experiencing the same soreness as well. haha. all this only because of a pocket size cert. worth it though!! very worth it! oh man.. i really need a bed to rest my body in. to rest and enjoy the suffering

Blurting in Pain

its monday again! and how i wish it isn't. not that i'm complaining but i started monday by missing my morning class AGAIN!
my weekend was great. it all started with attending a cnbc event where we enjoyed the drinks and canapes more than the talk. hey, we're not a media person. it just happened that our friend is one of the senior producer there, hence the invitation. we ended up making acquaintance with few people from media and cnbc, had a tour around the studio, picked our goodie bag and went home. i took the wrong bus and ended up meeting the person i parted way again. haha, her expression upon seeing me again was priceless. i was quite lazy to wait for a bus then that i ended up hailing a cab. at the same time i was chatting over the phone and kinda careless with the stuff i was holding. i felt that i dropped something before leaving the cab. i checked before alighting but i didn't checked thoroughly and only on the following i realised that my card holder was gone. my ezlink with $50ish value, my gym membership card which would cost me $20 for a replacement, my credit card which i blocked at once, few other membership card which i couldn't recall apart from GNC and Noda, and my Tangs Care Card which has $30ish value in it. so sad that when i called ezlink they said nothing can be done. so what's the point of having our nric number then? then tangs told me to call back on monday - what if someone use my card on saturday or sunday? 'i can't answer that' was all the response i got. oh well, let it go. i just hope the person who found it really really in need of cash for his/her ezlink.
my saturday was great. torturing but great. i got my level 1 certification for climbing. yes yes yes!! i now have the passport to climb all over south east asia. of course only for top-rope belay. but still! next in the list:- level 2 certification for the lead climbing. it was fun. and i really really conquer my fear on belaying someone who's heavier than me.
planning on a quiet sunday to let my muscles rest, but my insurance agent called and invited me to her place. so i met few other friends and we went together. it was a nice gathering. her hubby is very friendly that its just like i've known him for long. we ate, we chatted, we played with her kids, we watched dvd, we snacked, and without realising it it's almost 6. parted ways and i went home straightaway. after all i haven't do my ironing and i planned on preparing my meals again. plan is just a plan. i only ended up preparing my breakfast, did my ironing and watched TV. that was when i started to feel my muscles soreness. morning was still bearable but come night i could feel my neck, back, forearms, calves muscles screaming. i still feel it now, one of the reason why i couldn't drag myself out of bed for the morning class. sigh, keep on dragging my healthy lifestyle. now excuse myself while i enjoy working and enduring my muscles soreness.