Allure

you are very interactive with guys. you just need to control the effect you have in men.

insult or compliment or just a silly sweet talk? or the person himself is the one who was affected?

whichever it is, i will take that as a constructive criticism - at least i know i have the power :D

Super HERO

a hero, to me, is not someone who wears a cape, having super power, and mission is to save the world
to me, a hero is:

someone who, when you are in doubt, unsure about the path to choose, called you and provided reassurances without you asking. like (s)he knows that you are in need of those words.

scratch that .. that is not a hero - that is a superhero!

Proactive

today i did something that i never thought i would could do - sales.
it seems fun and hopefully i can continue doing this and really come with a result. to make myself proud.

it is time to make the best of what life has to offer and forget all the nonsense fantasies. some things are worth fantasizing but others are pointless and might lead to self destruction; so why bother right?

but honestly, there is this tiny bit of hope in the corner of the heart that what i am doing could make someone proud and notice me.

but, still the main focus is: myself.

2014

major challenge: reaction!
gotta practice reacting cool in all kind of situation; after all remember that you are not part of the flock!

Language

when you speak local language amongst yourself - that is perfectly fine
BUT
when you started using this local language in business meeting where people who don't understand are present - that is perfectly RUDE

Alone

have you ever feel like you want to hug someone real tight? that you have this oh so much love inside you that needs to be released?
I am feeling that now ..

Linger

it started with a photo taking
then the idea just keeps playing in my mind ..

2 weeks gone by, and i heard nothing still ...

i guess it's either a 'no' for the other end, or it is just my imagination that the photo was meant for that purpose.

dear God, if it's meant to be let me linger with the idea
but if it's not .. which i know is the case here .. please let me forget the idea.

you know i'm such a fool :'(

 

Jealousy

Oh .. this thing called Jealousy

i am not impressed that one person came back, giving me the back seat again. no more conversation ever started with me now that she's back.
i am unhappy too that now she's back, i have less opportunity to interact with someone i kinda have crazy thought with. oh, Jealous.
i am also jealous with the fact that i can't be as close as i am with that person simply because of that one person and the other one.
oh boy .. this thing called Jealousy ...

Promise

2013 - clear debt!

I Want!

when you want something the whole universe conspires in helping you to achieve it - paulo coelho

ok .. i want 'buddha'!

MY life

i've heard enough of all this fortune telling thing! even when i don't want to listen somebody came telling me the same all story. well, everyone is telling me the same thing. and i REFUSE to accept it.
with the help from God, i am the key to my own destiny. i myself create MY destiny; not some sort of people reading and telling me.
i am going to work on MY own destiny starting tomorrow!

Monotone

i need some excitement, some sparks in my life. i am bored, bored to death!
where can i find it? how can i find it?

Hopeless

i'm falling for the wrong person .. again!
it might not be a real fall, but ..
okay, let me phrase it

i'm falling for the idea of falling for the wrong person .. again!

Time's up!

it's time to be more serious in life - property!
let's aim to save religiously from this month onwards and re-assess the position by the end of this year. target MUST be accomplished by then.
before 40 .. before 40!

So Long

and the time finally came ...

i guess i was prepared for quite awhile now; but still there's a lump everytime i talked about it.

i know i am so gonna miss you.
i know i have no one to make me feel protected and secured now.
but i also know that you are happy. and you are counting down to the meetup.
i know i won't be frequenting that place again but i'll forever treasure all the good times shared there.

and i thank you for being the person to make me learn a lot about myself.
have a good life, my dear friend.
though we plan to meet every now and then, i still miss you dearly

it could just be me but i can feel a change whenever the conversation gets deeper - personal issues and also conversation that led to advises. and it seems like the wish of treasuring the last few days comes from both parties. watching trailers. listening to songs. might not be exclusive but lets hope the advises are taken seriously as said. i am SO gonna miss all the good times we shared.

life is too short to be wasted in finding answeres. enjoy the questions ...

+ why do i have a crush on such a guy? - why not

i am going to enjoy the few days left. no longer a crush but i am still charmed. and i hope one day i will find myself one.

isn't it amazing how a simple 'hello ma'am' totally changed my day!