Bad Grammar But ...

i think this is the only malay song that i like, sang by the 1st singapore idol.
not bad, eh ...

My Normal Saturday ...

i kinda miss the day when i left the house to grab a lunch at java kitchen @vivo city. after which, i'd take the monorail to sentosa and played vb for few hours, grabbed a quick shower and had dinner together before going home. i missed the fun of just sitting at the side of the court watching the game or joining in the game trying my best to hit the ball *though i tend to dodge it or simply shouted "not mine" when the ball came my way*. i missed chit chatting with the others while the two doggies tried to push their way in between us and i moved several times just so that their nose didn't touch me. i miss thinking how darker i'd be under those scorching sun.

so today, i decided to switch off my machine and do what i used to do. and i love it. though my game is back to being suck *but hey, i saved the ball once!*, though i was thought a newbie because there's sooo many newbies *to me at least* there, though i didn't stay until the end and had dinner together, i had a lovely time. not to mention one of the newbie there looks like matt damon *well, the eyes and the smile to me even when the rest said "NO"*.

it's good to be back...

Heart Matters

sometimes you take things for granted and you only realised that when it's gone.
i really should've follow my heart ...
nevermind, lesson learnt.

Wishful Thinking

i wish things will get back to the way they normally are. i miss the laughter, the stories, the sillyness, the sharings, everything!! i wonder how long does it take though i feel that things will never go back to normal again. a breather is what all needs before things get back to normal, but then ... so much for the thought of making things normal.

i can't stop wondering have i really opened a pandora box?

Not My Kind

but the thought that counts ...........

i met her during my almamater's reunion last year. we managed to stay in touch through the indonesian community's mailing list. though she's married and i have a *life* of my own, we tried to meet up as and when we can. i do have to give her loads of credit for never giving up on suggesting dinner or just a mere catching up. and earlier today, we met for awhile as i have a tennis game to catch *though we ended up playing for 10mins and went home afterwards*. chat over lunch she gave me this little pressie made by her own hands. isn't it so sweet of her? it's not my kinda ring but still, i was touched and a little embarassed for not making a better effort in catching up.

The Verdict

my boss is no longer my boss. one person resigned due to pride being under her. the CIO said few of us should be moving to area role instead of sticking in country. what role? who's my boss? how is the people management gonna be now that my *future* boss might not be in SG? IT should be happy now that my boss is the country lead. we on the other hand can only look at the new structure chart playing the guessing game

I Want to Break Free

wouldn't it be great if i can just switch everything off for awhile ?

or maybe even for a long time ...

History

history will never repeat itself

- not when you forbid it

- not when you learnt from the past and do things differently from there onwards

- not when you're in charge of yourself

fool me once .. shame on you

fool me twice .. shame on me!!!

Choices

two people - however close they are - can (or maybe even will always?) have totally opposite views on life. one who doesn't really know what (s)he want will never feel satisfied. when you only know what you don't want in life, you'll end up searching for more even when you don't really know what is that you're searching for. while one who face life reastically might end up compromising the situation (s)he faced. watch this movie, and you'll get what i mean.
life is after all full of choices. either you accept it or not. either you stay commited to what you decide or keep on changing your mind. nothing's perfect anyway. be happy and contented with what you have - that's the key. but then again, isn't life more excited with some adventure in it? makes me wonder ....

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as for you my friend - hope you had a good time. yes i broke my promise on just being a listener. i talked. hey, i can't help it. i made you laugh anyway :). really hope you get your issues settled fast ...

Youth Without Youth

one word: confusing. an old man who - after struck by a lightning - is given a chance to do things he always dream of doing/achieving. when everything is perfect - is it too good to be true? how can you differentiate dreams and reality? you can be analysing your dreams in your dreams. will you do things differently the 2nd time? will you sacrifice your love one just to get things right now that you're given another chance to do so? complicated lah - at least for me. still as complicated as i think it is, i find the whole plot makes it a very interesting movie to watch.

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The Day I Chucked A Sickie

exactly a week ago, i celebrated Hari Raya. a belated wish, but, Have a Blessed Hari Raya to all celebrating. after a month of fasting, controlling hunger *easy*, emotion *hard!!* and all, we finally got another chance to start anew, start afresh. i personally think my ramadhan this year is better compared to last year's. now the tough part is on mantaining and improving it.

anyways ....

i went home for a week to celebrate it with my family. spent most of my time with my nieces and nephew. did the visiting. munching non stop which resulted in me not feeling 100% great now. met few uni friends for a break fast session. all in all - i enjoyed my trip home. my eldest niece is so adorable that i spent most of my time with her compared to my nephew and the youngest niece. maybe because being 2yrs old, she's at her peak of *cuteness*. though i have to say i had enough of nemo, kungfu panda, and alvin&the chipmunks. its fun watching alvin with my youngest niece around as well, we're all presented with a funny kiddy dance moves. it's fun to have those kids around. the house seems empty when they're out and about. i munched a lot as well that resulted in me having sore throat now.

yeah, the minute i reached singapore i started sneezing non-stop. i didn't sleep the 1st night after i was back, only slept like 4hrs the following night and last night, i remembered switching my machine at 4.10am and trying hard to get some sleep. my flu is getting worst that i finally went to see a doctor today. she gave me few medications and asked if i'd like to go home and rest. i said that i'm fine, she then advised me to sleep more. that was when i told her about my sleepless night. she prescribed a mild sleeping pill for me (only 2 pills) and insisted on me going home and rest. so i went to funan to get myself the 3-in-1 scanner and an external harddisk before going home. and i'm glad i did that. with no medication to be taken in the afternoon, i'm pretty fit to play with my new toys soon.

H is for Hectic Happy & Hooray

i had a hectic day at work today. i don't know but things that can go wrong went wrong everytime i'm going on long leave. i got a call when i was home, i got a call when i was about to climb the harbour bridge, i got a call when i was on a short trip across the island that i ended up bring my machine with me whenever i went home. but it all stopped few years ago with the system globalisation, hence no longer unix and stuff for moi. until today. i broke down three times mostly due to the panic i created myself.

started the day feeling a little disappointed when my 1/2 day leave was not granted. hp is also on long leave, hence i can understand my boss' reason. "you are important here". "sorry, i don't buy that anymore" was my answer which i'm sure surprised her. then came the problems. firstly it was our very own datafeed which was doubled for one of the period. this never happened before and it happened - of all the day - today. i was busy checking the caused of this when an email from our malaysia counterpart arrived requesting a complete set of data from the previous financial year. and i just archived the dB and moved it to the tape few days ago. just when i was in the middle of replying to the email to inform them the time needed to retrieve the data etc another email came stating the deadline is Oct 2nd. no way out, i have to do it now. well to be honest with hp on leave i have doubt with the other backup the minute she asked me how to restore dB in ms sql server. with only few hours left i ended up giving them structure text instead of xml - at least i gave them. i went back to investigating the data and decided to do a select distinct to fix the duplicate record issue. done with that i went back to doing my own personal development plan which is due end of this month. boss called asking me to check the email she just sent, an email that *complete* my day. another email from malaysia and this time around advising us that uploading to the central server can no longer be done from our local server but through malaysia's. all changes must be done by - t.o.m.o.r.r.o.w. crazy!! we tried calling them, sametime-ing them without avail. i was in the midst of listing down things we upload to global when again my boss came saying the duplicate record issue ended up with lesser records for other period. man! i need to leave early and all these happened. my backup? she was squatting next to me writing what she's supposed to check for hr application. i felt like screaming but i knew there wasn't any point there. finance called complaining about this new info because tomorrow is our month-end closing. boss asked me to come tomorrow i said no and she said she'd called me tonight if need be, to which i said i'd be switching my mobile. she knew then i wasn't in my best of mood since i never ever said that kinda words to her. she came to me afterwards saying the duplicate data can wait until i come back *too late for that* and that i don't stay late *yeah, right*. anyways, to cut my bitching short - i managed to settled the duplicate records, emailed malaysia asking details on things and advising my backup to do it manually until i return. i hope she can do it.

thanks to a friend who accompanied me clearing my head by walking down to orchard. i had a nice night to ease my tense and i can said i ended the day happily. though i complained about work here i know myself better - if i leave things unfixed i will never have a good night sleep feeling guilty. reaching my place, i took the lift closer to the guinea pigs to check on them. the lady was feeding them so i stopped and had a chat with her about the cuties. she told me that they belong to her friend who went overseas for study. she took it under her care and somehow *someone* complained to spca saying she's cruel to the animals (i didn't say that, eh). but, she said, at least now she always remember to feed them the minute she reaches home. a kind hearted woman, i felt a little bit guilty for telling on her but i had to do my part for the animals. at least she took it seriously now.

alrighty, enough talking. gotta start packing and paying my bills before leaving tomorrow. with the flight so early in the morning, i'll try hard not to sleep so that i don't miss the flight.

Exception

i know i promised myself to treasure life and never complain about anything anymore but today i will break that promise and i don't care!

my day started bad when, trying to reach office before 9am, i took a cab only to get stuck in a crazy traffic thanks to F1. seriously, i don't think singapore is ready to organise that event. it's just funny to close cbd area for that. most taxi drivers i met expressed their frustration as well. in their words "you see, block there block here and erp still on who want to go in and collect passenger" - i can't agree more. due to the congested traffic and waiting for the cab to drop me at the lobby might ended up with me reaching office at 9.30ish am, i decided to alight when the traffic light was red and brace the heavy downpour. i ended up at my desk around 9.05am only to be called to my boss' room. there we discussed about some duplicate data which has yet to be identified if it's the central issue or our local issue. i was sooo darn close to bursting when somehow the checking is now my job. wth!! a month ago during discussion, we agreed that i'd write a macro in excel for the operators so that they can start the day checking the number of count; somehow its now mine. i know my boss is worried that with the new structure operators will be deployed to other department and we'll be solely handling technology. and i think her asking me to do this now is her way of not getting this job hanging when the new structure takes place. oh well, alright i'll do it now. but she gave me an idea to add something more on my expectation with the new structure - to be involved in managerial process instead of operational

process! hah ..

on a totally different and lighter note - SPCA called me yesterday asking if i noticed any improvement on the guinea pigs. i updated them on what i saw the night after i made the call. apparently they didn't meet the people staying there so they left a letter by their front door, hence our assumption the action was taken because of the warning letter. i was now given a job to monitor the living condition of those guinea pigs and call him directly if there's something concerning me. haha, alrighty mister!

ahhh ... now i feel lighter. okay i'll go back to my promise of trying not to complain much and focus more on the small little things that make life wonderful. starting now!

Sleepy

quite a funny movie. at first i thought it'd be another mbfw kinda movie, but it isn't. well, usual story line - boy meets girl, girl meets boy - with expected ending but its just fun to watch how the story goes. well yes, there are loads of lewd jokes along the line, but if you really want something light to crack you up, go watch it. the eyebrows scene is priceless. and i find myself enjoying dane cook more and more these days.

i was lucky to get a seat and catched the broadway version few years back. i love it to bits that when they made it into big screen i began wondering if it would be as good as the broadway. and meryl streep in a musical movie? i had my doubts. all those were washed away when i watched the movie. all i can say is AWESOME performance of meryl, she definitely proofs herself as one great actors. actually each and every one of the actors did a great job. they sang well though it's a little bit painful to hear pierce brosnan's voice. the dancing by the beach scene really reminds me of a bollywood movie too. i enjoyed the movie a lot that i felt like clapping my hands *which, of course i didn't do* during the credit roles . and don't get me to colin firth .. seeing him swaying - and i mean really swaying - his hips is priceless. a movie worth mamma mia-ing on. both pic. courtesy of imdb.com

HAPPY

yes i am.

after days of thinking of my neigbour's hamsters i ended up calling SPCA, not filing a report but more like asking their advice. eversince i realised there are hamsters at the corridor i make an effort to stop by whenever i pass that side just to say my hello to those little creatures. until last week i realised their paper hasn't been changed and their cute little voice calling me when i left might be a call for help. and yesterday when i stopped by again only to see one of them was totally dirty i couldn't take it anymore, not when the image of them looking at me with a sad eyes kept on flashing before me whenever i closed my eyes.

so after telling the staff the whole situation they assured me that they'll drop by to check for themselves. and tonight, after feeling happy simply from looking at all those deepavali and hari raya lights i was given another pleasant treat - the cuties were busy getting under the fresh newspaper, supposedly getting ready for bed. night night cuties.

One For The French

you will think its a pretty boring movie, just sit down and relax, i assure you you'll end up saying its a good if not brilliant movie. i was kept at the edge of my seat until almost the ending. it was shocking, if i say so myself. you'd be wondering at first when will the secret be revealed, and once it's out you're in for a surprise. seriously, ask the lady in front of me :)young virginia ledoyen really looks like natalie portman, btw.

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The Missing Piece

totally forgotten about watching this movie over the weekend. somehow it just crossed my mind now.

well, what made me keen in watching this movie is the lead actor. so yeah, i finally found it online. nothing special - typical action movie. but it gets interesting almost at the end of it thought. there is *what else but* a twist. i still can't see james mcAvoy in an action movie though, he's more suitable for historical drama or romance movie. darn even his screaming isn't meant for action genre.

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Two More for the Weekend

i've been hearing a lot of raves on this movie and after watching it myself, i understand why. very good story line, it hits right to the core of what's happenning in the society out there. though the movie talked about racism between the white american and black american, i believe the message also applies to all other sort of racism - gender, color, religion, everthing. great performance by edward norton as well. to be honest i don't think i ever pay attention to any of his movie so seeing him here kinda make me realised he's one of the good actor out there. though it has quite a surprising ending, i love the quote at the end of the movie - we're all friends not enemies.

all rise for an outstanding performance of christian bale in this movie. i knew he lost loads of weight to get into character in this movie but it's still made me feel kinda scary seeing how skinny he was in that movie. a dedicated actor indeed. story wise, interesting and it just build my curiosity 'cos you *at least i* wouldn't have guess what's really happenning up 'til the end of the movie. the sound effect just added to the anticipation. i agree that guilty - if not faced - will only bring sufferring. worth watching!

alrighty, i'm totally movie overloaded this weekend.

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C B D

i finally watched the movie. was quite gutted when i missed it in the cinema so it was such a blessed to find it online. well yeah, christian bale is what made me keen to watch it. story wise, its good. a cowboy movie - an action genre - which portrays love, family value, and inner battle. how one person would go to the extra mile in order to fulfill the need of his/her family even it that means sacrificing themselves. a nice movie that is worth watching.

i was supposed to be heading down to vb but after much contemplation i decided to stay put and wait for evening to come before going to my late uncle's. no point rushing to vb only to rush back to hougang, eh. especially when i found another movie to watch ;)

it was definitely one great movie - disturbing in a great way that is. again he gave an absolutely WONDERFUL performance as an instable yuppy, a psycho. there were times where i even flinched in anticipation of what's coming next. that's how disturbing this movie is. just like a book and its cover, you can never judge a person based on their appearance. worth - i repeat - worth watching if you haven't so.

rushed for breaking fast i ended up staying late watching the zeecine awards. i tell you, those bollywood actors and actresses can never fail to amaze me with their gorgeousness. the ladies are so darn pretty with an almost perfect *nothing's perfect, right?*, like my auntie said the canvas are already good so whatever painted on it is definitely good. i ended up staying late and almost spend my night there if not because of the chocolate wafer at home that kept on flashing in my mind. but at least i understand what's the hoohaa on arjun rampal is all about. tall, dark and handsome indeed. but i personally still prefer akshay and fardeen isn't bad as well :). sigh, if only you can have this kinda view in singapore. oh man, enough talking crap.

so yeah thats my CBD - christian bale day and hmmm, maybe cine bollywood day as well *maksa.com*

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Killing Time

and then comes friday. again. just like that.

it's been one *interesting* week for me. managed to complete 2 projects - small, but still! - within this week. woohoo, i'm on fire.

the new structure is out and everyone is feeling anxious, nervous about the future. some are keen on getting up there while others are just enjoying the ride. i myself sits in between - just wish to get more exposure for now, that's all.

so far so good when it comes to fasting. had a fantastic time catching up with friends yesterday. supposed to meet one today but we decided to postpone it to next week *though i can't stop thinking of that bbq buffet place now* and can't wait to break my fast at my late uncle's place tomorrow - home cooked meal, what more can you ask for. hmmm, should i gate crashed my aunt's place later? should i meet up with another friend instead? or maybe i'd just go and get that yummy smelling mutton briyani opposite my flat? its been awhile since i spend time with myself, eh.

8 more minutes before i can knock off. hmm, what i should i do now? what the heck, who cares - it's friday. ciao!