::branching out

i have two books that needs to be read within a month's time. the title of the first book caught my attention immediately while the other one, well .. caught my attention immediately as well. quite a new topic for me but it's interesting to know the darker side of the world too..

JP Morgan Challenge 2006

went for the challenge yesterday. wearing a striking color corporate t-shirt, me & hp went to the padang. left the office a little bit late than planned, thanks to my flirting session. was quite worried that it might be cancelled or postponed, but despite all that the run still started on time and we run in drizzles. it was fun and we finished the 5.6 km in 37 minutes - a little bit disappointed but hey, we're there for the fun.
had photo session with the whole firm, had some foods provided then went back to office to wash the mud off from our shoes and leg and straightaway home.
one thing for sure, judging from all the participants - i knew i work in the wrong company. you can't see any cute face(s) here!!

okay- 3rd day was not started by me, kinda speechless being the subject of it. haha, really brighten up my day

the art of flirting ..

i can't believe this myself!!
i have been flirting with a dear friend of mine for 2 days in a row.
ha ha ha .. started with some conversation then it led to some jokes which some friends of mine said it's a mild flirt.
well i guess i found myself really feeling comfortable with him that i ended up flirting - though I still don't look at it as flirting, more as trying to know a person better ...

will today be the 3rd day? I reckon so *grin

it takes two to tango ...

was chatting with a friend when she asked me a question that I wish no one asked. surprisingly I honestly spilled the beans to her. I guess it is also due to me trying to prove that no walls surrounding me, unlike what some people thought. of course, as honest as I was to her, I kept some dirty little laundry for my own. was quite surprised that she said she was not surprise with what I said as she said it was kinda obvious. now it's me who's feeling panic - that obvious eh? well i guess what people said about me is true - my eyes don't lie.
anyways I also told her the steps I am making so that she didn't pursue or ask more things in future. she too, like few of my other friends, had the same opinion - but well people can wish for something but it takes two hands to clap

morning blurt ...

supposed to go for a run with ally yesterday as cindy couldn't make it. but ally called last minute saying he couldn't brave the heavy rain without having an umbrella that we decided to cancel the run. called cindy to tell her abt this as she's waiting for us to finish the run so that she could join for dinner. but she still wanted to have dinner b'cos she's flying to taiwan today. so then we decided to ask the rest, with her calling sally and me calling jenny and ally.
met sally and had a great talk with her while waiting for cindy to finish work. luckily ally called back as I couldn't reached him earlier and said that he would join as well. jenny couldn't make it as she had a dentist appointment :(.
finally we had our dinner around 9 PM - ally wanted satay so we went to lau pa sat, though he ended not ordering satay as no one wanted to eat satay *hehe. as usual the normal conversation led to some more serious topic and then of course, relationship. it was very funny when we talked about the tree, leaf, and wind thingy that ally said we need a hurricane instead of a normal strong wind *haha. its quite fun though and without us realising, it's almost midnight that we decided to call the day off though sally was still keen on talking.
went home with ally where i asked him about the vibe thingy and apparently he felt I was upset with his comments *grin. i admitted that i did think about it afterwards but that's it. strange enough we spent the ride home talking about ghosts and a little bit of religion - well i guess with us practicing the same religion makes talking about this stuff more at ease...

now not only i still wonder about the vibes, but what's with the comment of me building a wall all over me ???

Final

first it's a yes, then it's a not sure, then it's a yes again then it's definitely a no again - and the last sign was from up above. no one can be blamed here. then it's a signal issue and unreachable connection - who to be blamed here? again, no one.
with this i decided to end all the stupidity

like a leaf, waiting for a strong wind to blow it away from the tree...

shall we?

okay my wonderful morning was a little bit disrupted by the news i received. well i surely am not deciding things, simply giving out the choice. actually i spent the weekend thinking about it and i am so very sure that nothing NOTHING really need to be concerned about. all of this infatuation i had is simply because the idea of it sounds sweet and nice, but after facing the truth and putting more thoughts on it, including some known fact that i see around me, i know that nothing needs to be worried about - lets put it to test this evening...

wonderful morning

spent friday working as i didn't join my friend for a run, my whole body is aching like hell from the thursday torture with my trainer. decided to turned up for the gathering as i am quite curious to see a person i've been hearing a lot about.
spent saturday at home resting and went out in the afternoon to catch a movie. from there we met another friend and had an early dinner continued with chit chatting and the search for our little black dress - haha, most of us ended up looking at a normal dress as it fits our personality more.
spent sunday at home - domestic work, some cleaning and cooking for myself. really pampered myself with lots of rest that i even had a siesta!! ended the day watching a dvd.
woke up early this morning for my pump class, haven't been to this class for weeks now. it made me much more happy when the instructor looked at me saying 'shoulder track' with a knowing smile, i suspected he's playing my favourite track and i am right!!

my whole body is aching now but i am just feeling WONDERFUL...

my hr mate, whom i work closely with in the HR project is moving to another firm. today is her last day so she came and gave me this sweet little cookie. i was happy that she got a better job which requires her to travel a lot. truth is when she told me the day she tendered i was quite shocked and admitted to her that all i could think now was who would i be working with for the upcoming release which conference call will starts on sept. well, truth is with only 2 of us doing the HR her departure is quite shocking as no one from HR knows about it. i just hope that come september her replacement is as good as her and as great to work with as her. due to her departure i too have to learn HR process flow. well this shows that no matter you're working at the back office and sometimes less appreciated then the professional, you are still an asset to the firm - just look at the chaos happenning when the other project team learnt about her departure.
all the best in you future endeavour cindy - it's a pleasure knowing you ..
i truly enjoyed the time spent with you, attending all the morning and night conference call.
if i was late in any of the calls, a can of light coke would always be there ready for me to open and sip - that's how sweet you are!

Vibes ...

was having a chat with a dear friend of mine. from me asking about a hindi movie and one of the movie playing in the cinema we ended up talking about hindi actors. he said that i had a very high standards based on the list of hindi actors that i like. hmm, though i said its just for viewing purpose still he thought i had a high standards. i guess thats the impression people had and he said its the vibes that i gave out. well one couldn't change that right, its already built in you.

whats with vibes - I don't really know what is the meaning of it. is it the way you talk to people? the way you approach people? or simply your body language? well - if it is then no one can change that as changing it kinda like changing your personality. at least i think so. i mean you can improve your communication skill, your socialising skill but changing your personality? naaah - thats like changing you into someone else...

he kinda agreed with me saying vibes couldn't be change as it's built-in and said that he knew it. i asked what he meant by "he knew it" - and he went offline .. such a sweet friend of mine eh!

Yawn part 2..

okay, today its my turn - not sleepy but my eyes is getting smaller. went to ladies night at thumper yesterday, basically to attend my friend's birthday celebration. was so not in the mood actually after getting the closure that i've been waiting for. had to stay back at work 'til almost 9 that i messaged the girls saying i won't be going - was really not in the mood for socialising. prior to that the emailing session with another friend made me felt i dunno, better? relief?. anyways on my way home i decided what the heck - just go there and have some fun. so i messaged the girls saying that i changed my mind, met the whole group of people at marche then walked together to thumper. luckily cindy called saying that she was already there and kinda make me relief as i no longer was the only misfits there. music was good, crowd was great and i waited for the live band to take their break before going home.

closure wise - i want it to be a final closure but some of my friends' words kept on repeating in my mind that makes me feel unsure. but i guess its better to make this as a final closure without anymore expectation - just follow where the wind blows eh ...

Yawn ...

Thats what i've been reading today - email from friends saying that they're sleepy. Me? surprisingly I feel refresh though my eyes a little bit smaller than usual :).
Went to the supposedly surprised birthday celebration yesterday. Reached there around 7 where I met a friend then together we bought the card, had our dinner then walked around waiting for the time to meet the rest. Quite a nice celebration I shall say though I was very full from the dinner I managed to finish 1 big glass of ice cream and a piece of cake. Spent the night talking about almost everything and without realising it its already morning.
I know the surprise was no longer there but I guess my friend was touched with us writing the card in front of her and some additional "surprise" she received from the only guy there .. haha ..

once again - happy birthday my dear friend ..

Before I Die ...

been busy jumping from one meeting to another meeting today, so far managed to control myself a little bit and ended up having 7 sweets and a can of light coke. surprisingly no delta files for today and i have nothing to harass my workmates from other office that i ended up here while waiting for tonights unsurprise birthday dinner ;)

Hey, I guess I'll continue this some other time .. gonna concentrate on my chat with my two dearly beloved uni friends ..

plan is just a plan ..

was busy yesterday planning on our short break next week and at the same time lying to a friend that I had problem with the group and need to share my problem with her tonight over dinner when actually we're going to throw her a surprise birthday party. trip wise since there's only one guy we're trying hard to find another guy to share room with him but ended up deciding to share the cost evenly amongst us 3 with him taking the single room. birthday surprise wise, everything was perfectly set - i will go there earlier, order the cake and wait for my friend to come. once she's there i'll text the rest who will then come with the cake.
BUT
a friend emailed saying that the trip need to be postponed as her grandfather passed away. she included some other people in the email including the birthday girl without removing the attached email which was about our plan. hahaha- no more white lies..

can once in a lifetime happen twice?

they said once in your lifetime someone comes along whom you are absolutely meant to be with. Everything feels great, stars are aligned, body and spirit are in balance.

went for a baking course today - though it's not fully a baking course. We're only there to see how it was done and each of us brought home a small tray of the apple crumble. Before going there we went to a music store where I finally found the movie I was searching for.

Couldn't wait another day for it, once I was done with the domestic work, I watched it. Just like that , the foolishly romantic side of me is awaken again. All sorts of scenarios start running wild in my mind. If only this could happen in real life, I would've scribble a message and lets destiny play its part.

I've make a note to myself to visit the patisserie if I got a chance to visit NY again in the future...
*a special thanks to someone who reminded me on how beautifully romantic this movie is

Rock Climbing ..

Yupe - together with cindy and ally, I just came back from the indoor rock climbing workshop.
FINALLY!! have been eyeing this activity for sooo long, I was so happy when I found out that cindy was also interested and when we have to find people to join for the workshop ally said he wanted to try as well.
So there we were, attending the 2 hours workshop. We had 30 mins of theory before trying on the climbing. Sooo fun. It was so funny when I had to hold the rope when ally did his climbing; when he was on his way down I didn't squat properly so I actually went up - being pulled up by his weight!! The instructor pulled me down else two of us would be hanging there. People around us laughed and we couldn't help but laughed as well. I ended up letting go of the rope pretty fast that he went down pretty fast so he started to scream as well 'cos if I didn't control he might crashed on the floor. Luckily the instructor was around and asked me to slow down. Poor ally, I was so tense that I didn't let go of the rope when he was already on the ground that he kept on squeaking asking for more rope to be released. It's a little bit painful for guys compared to girls being pulled up that way. haha .. thinking of it now makes me laugh again...
We did our trial at the intermediate wall then did on our own at the beginner wall - 3 of us managed to reach the top here then we continued to the intermediate wall where cindy had difficulty and then me and ally tried on the advance wall. I actually lost my grip in the intermediate wall once that my rope twisted and I hit my back on the rock - it was quite painful but it didn't stop me from trying again.
Advance wall was so tough - we tried 2 different walls where ally had to push me up on one of it else I wouldn't be able to get my grip on the 2nd rock. Even with him pushing me I had difficulty getting my hand on the rock - really test my upper body here. Its more tough when ally was the one holding the rope down there as he would not let me down until I reach the top - its good actually as I have to try again and again though once I totally gave up as my grips were getting weak and I couldn't find a way up I simply shouted again and again that I wanted to go down until he really let me down.
Had lunch afterwards where as usual we talked about all stuff and this was when I realised.. really realised that what I've been thinking about was actually not there - I have been thinking of it simply because I was just in love with the idea - not more not less ... hopefully this stays the way it is.
Rock Climbing wise - we definitely going to do it again another day ... definitely

Karaoke Time

I feel a lot better today. Work really had me yesterday. I was just so annoyed that everything was passed to me and how annoying the user was .. 3-4 times changes need to be done within a day and she kept on asking why why and why. HOW THE HELL WOULD I KNOW. Your previous request was handled by my boss okay - I was supposed to cover during her absence ONLY and yet now it became my additional baby. At the same time I am still trying to complete my testing and having an online discussion discussing the problem with people from other country. GL Ledger is such a pain in the ass to understand within a short time maan, especially for an IT person like me. I am used to multitasking but doing 5 things at one go was so stressful yesterday. I guess the fact that my daily greeter was on leave added to my stress. Without our daily chatting something was kinda missing - and I have to cope with this when she move to her new job next month. Good God!! I ended up doing all my stuff with tears filling my eyes.
Luckily I managed to get another friend out for dinner, so we went out to a lebanese place that I've been eyeing for ages and had dinner there. We talked a lot and she too asked me questions that has been asked so many times to me. We then talked about it and I was actually quite surprised with some new facts that I now know - but I guess I have to accept that no one is as perfect as I want them to be ..
So today, feeling a little lighter than yesterday I went online, checking the movie schedule as me & my flatmate decided to go for a movie after lunch. That means - good bye bodypump. Nevermind!! I want to have a relaxing day .. hence the reason Im writing this blog without any plan of writing it when I went online.. I simply want to sing along with all the songs playing on my machine ...

its time to spread my wings and fly ...

Gosh I'm so bored, I don't want to go home but I want to be out of office the soonest possible. I don't know what's happenning to me that I simply burst out unintentionally. Maybe I am just annoyed with the fact that the list keep on growing on my part or because of something else. It's a long weekend yet I am so not looking forward to it.

Les Poupées russes

Sometimes we wonder if the best is yet to come - just like the russian dolls, we do wonder if there is another smaller doll within the one we are holding now so we keep on trying to open looking for another one. Just look at Xavier ..

I do have to agree with the review, it seems like you are watching your life on camera.

Je t'aime parce que ton imperfection .. ahhh
Im getting more and more in love with french movies ay!
I have to find the dvd to the prequel - no wonder my french's teacher recommended it!

you are perfect. perfect man for me because you are imperfect and i love you for your imperfectness