Racing against time :-

God I'm so tired, just feel like going home and straightaway go under the cover and sleep. My eyes are so tired from staring at numbers the whole day, my whole body is aching from not getting enough rest and yet I still have to prepare for tomorrow's meeting. The sweetness of life ...

The One and Only :-

A friend of mine said that we might need to kiss a lot of frogs before meeting the prince. Well, its easy for him to say that. My answer was - "where is the frog?". Naah, I want to kiss a frog that turns out to be a prince - Just one!

a well-deserved break :-

finally after being slaved for the past few weeks, broke down in tears twice, i decided i have to stand up for myself & deserved at least 1 day of leave during these tormenting weeks. Last Friday was the turning point for me, I have to start learning to say 'NO' and today I went to apply for 1 day leave. She looked at me and I guess she can see how stressful I am with my hair tied in a bun and stuff & said that 1 day shouldn't be a big issue if I complete whatever need to be done on that day earlier. 1st time in my life I did a jumping joy in front of my boss and emailed my friend saying its approved..

ps. i know i promised a friend to post something like she posted on her blog - give me more time ya, probably during my lunch break on wed if not tomorrow

death sentence no more :-

just finished a conference call with oz and boy it was such a relieve for me. seems like all the burden on my shoulder has just been lifted. everyday before i sleep and the moment i wake up the application is the first thing on my mind. today we found out that they themselves actually got a contract programmer to build it for months. boy am i so relieved, even my colleague told me that i can sleep peacefully tonight. really really feel like im floating now. what i have now is just a stiff shoulder from the 3 hrs call which is much much welcome than the previous burden ;)

::Don't judge a book by its cover::

a friend was quite surprised when i told him that my life and weekend is pretty boring, mostly watch movies. he said that he had the impression that i was a very outgoing person. this made me think of another friend who was surprised to know that a girl we know who looks very quiet all the time actually dare to go on a trip with someone she hardly knew. so i guess there is no better way to know a person then to know the person as a whole, not just based on the vibe that person gives..

on another topic, i watched (again) the re-run of friends last night, the final episode actually and just noticed the bag used by rachel - awesome bag & wonder if anyone knows what is the model of that bag .. lemme know!

spent my sunday morning hunting for a minced beef. I went to giant, NTUC, ShopNSave still I couldn't find a halal minced beef. So I decided to take a walk to the nearest wet market, find the halal meat stall and bought myself 200 gr of it. As usual everytime I go to wet market, I'd spend time strolling around from one lane to another looking at how fresh things are. It suddenly made me realised how much I miss doing weekend marketing with my parents back home. Dad always make sure that we help mum in the kitchen during the weekends regardless of how many servants we have. Normally one of us will follow to the market, while another one stays at home preparing herself to help in the kitchen once we're home & another sis will be cleaning the fish pond with my dad, wash the bird cage or simply helping out in the kitchen. They always said that however high your education is, being a female means being able to cook and do house work. I still remember cryingthe 1st time I learned to clean the fish but if you look back at all those 'torturing' days I am glad to have parents who still insist on us girls doing housework. thanks!!

:: stuck in the middle ::

time difference is really a big issue when you are in the middle of something yet you can't do anything about it, simply waiting for someone at the other end of the world to be awake. one thing for sure, I have to said goodbye to my plan

just came back from a 3 hours lunch that Im so darn sleepy now from all the food we had. 4 of us - me, my boss, 3 hr ppl - went to sabai for a 'celebration' that our 1st project is completed. we were ushered to a private dining room and chit chat while waiting for the partner & managing partner to arrive. a very delicious food i shall said, found out that when the jordan king is in the country he will request the chef of this place to cook for him in the hotel, even one of the brunei prince enjoys the food that it is frequented by him whenever he's around. im just glad they chose that place :) i guess they've frequented this place that even the managers there know them by name & even ask about the well being of their families.
at first i thought it's gonna be quite awkward especially i got the seat next to the partner but our managing partner is so full of life and has so many stories and jokes to share with us. of course there are some office stuff being discussed between the high level people and me & 2 of the hr colleagues simply enjoy listening to all the stuff we won't be hearing had we not been there :). But all in all its a great lunch, two thumbs up for the food & i wonder if i will ever go back there sans the special greetings of course.
now i hope i can go back doing my work & prepare myself to approach boss about the oz thingy. i think going there a better option now ..

so i've renewed my permanent residence here - another 10 years to go. what am i going to do with my life for the next 10 years? stuck here? go back home? venture somewhere else? a lot of plans i do have but a lot of planning needs to be done before i can execute it. am i prepared? not for this year for sure - next year? im not sure of it too - im working on it bit by bit hoping that next year will be a time for me to plan anything. well 2 years at least i'll still be here
mom told me when she was here early this year to think thoroughly what do i really want to do in life knowing that im ageing by the day. sis just gave me a piece of advice on yahoo messenger - an advice that i keep dearly in my mind. i know they didn't really know whats going on in my mind but i know they can have some idea what it is about. all the advice is really meaningful to me if only i could execute it in my near future .. how i wish.

some of my wish might not come true if i keep on staying afoot in this little island. that means i cant hope for great thing for the next 2-3 years. so, if you have a power like a fairy god mother does - please do keep in touch.

:: Its Monday Again

Had quite a good weekend. It started with me n yolli watching Walk The Line. They said its a good movie, but I find it kinda boring .. too much talking. Well I guess this is due to me not knowing much about Johnny Cash.
Went for the dragon boat event on saturday with jen. Basically we're simply helping out the event. It was quite fun and we left around 4 pm. Went to bugis as we planned to watch any movie but there's nothing good so we ended having our dinner & chatting for hours about everything. Afterwards we went for shopping and off we went home after doing some grocery shopping. Its quite a tiring day but its fun. I remembered my eyes were full of tears when those blind paddlers took picture together after paddling for 5 km. I was - AM - really touch with their perserverance to show that being blind is not a hindrance at all.
Spent most of my sunday at home, supposed to go for cardio but I was too lazy that i simply did a 20 mins cardio at home - hope june's okay with that when i told her later he3. Went out for the dessert club outing at night. I guess people were quite unsure if the event still on that only 5 of us showed up. Supposed to meet rosie but she cancelled last minute so i simply met cindy before heading down to the place. It was a really fun night especially with joan (or is it joy?) around that she talked a lot about her travel experience - the kind of travel I've been dreaming of. It is true what she said about travelling to the 3rd world country as it will changed one day but those modern cities will always be the same, hence modern cities are her least priorities. She's been to india and china 10 years ago - when tourism wasn't hot there, iran, israel, middle east, poland, laos, angkor wat, vietnam, and lots of other places and mostly backpacking ALONE! I really admire her and she totally changed my perception of india and all other places. I seldom see local girl with her spirit, hence we start talking about how locals are divided in 2 group in general - those pampered and those outdoor and how rare in finding someone who's in between. It also open my mind about the attitude of locals. Apart from this, we also talk about the ourselves and of course the oh the forever so hot topic - life partnerl. Its good that the guy left early so 4 of us girls really talk about almost everything. It so funny listening to joan/joy's story about a backpacker who covered her face if she didn't have any make up on. Really fun night that we were the last person to left the place.

All this conversation actually gave me some new perspective on travelling as well. That's why Im so keen to join cindy on her next trip. If only there isn't any project ...

:: Hello Weekend

pink panther, the constant gardener, munich, matchpoint, transamerica, brokeback mountain (always remind me of nicole kidman in cold mountain saying 'come back to me, come back to cold mountain'), final destination 3 , rumor has it - these are the movies that I want to watch - so many movies so little time ..

Tomorrow I'll be volunteering in an event for the blind. Nalled 'naga merah' (red dragon) the blind are going to row a dragon boat from kallang basin up to the merlion. this should be fun..

updated at 2.40 PM

just had a lunch with ellyn, we didn't know where to eat so we just walked until telok ayer talking about healthy food and the organic food outing that is going to start next week when we came across this place. Simply a coincidence but the food is not bad, with us having to open our footware before heading upstairs made it feel like we're dining at someone's house. Definitely will go back there one day.

"calling all singles out there, what's the plan for v-day"
"why don't we have our gathering on v-day and all the girls wear pink"
"why not we exchange gifts on v day, guys bring flower for the girls and girls bring chocolate for the guys"
"i think i'm not joining you guys, i think i'll just stay at home - it's miserable enough to be alone on this day"
"i'm planning on a quiet night on v-day"

cheesy huh? .. well - that's some comments I read/heard from people I know or don't know. I know some people make a great deal of valentine's day and some don't - it's your freedom of choice. But I don't think you have to be self loathing just because you have no plan or still single on that day. Did I ever make deal of valentine's day? Well of course I did. During my junior high school I did make cards and gave it to my friends - its fun and as I aged *sigh* I get to know more and more about this valentine history - history, cultural, religion, and social wise.
I still took advantage of it during my Uni years though where me, my roommate, and another friend of mine had a small parcel business during this day. It's quite fun for us to be creative on how to balance the parcel, how to get the cheapest rose etc - we actually made profit, not much but still a profit.
2 years ago me & my flatmate went to a movie during this day and we decided not to go for late night movies on V-day as most girls wearing pink with a bouquet of flower on their hand *lol*
Just came back from lunch, surprisingly I didn't see that much flower seller or people with bouquet on their hand this year. I only saw a handful delivery man in my office building, unlike all other years. But there's something new too this year - On my way to the train station this morning, I saw a big heart shape with the word 'Celebrate Love' being hung on the trees along the road. Cheesy indeed..

Ah well, one thing for sure - I for one am going to watch TV tonight as they're airing Love Actually again on cable and Im kinda into Collin Firth nowadays. I dunno there's something with these brits that I find interesting. Matthew McFayden proves it more with his performance in Pride&Prejudice. Oh and one more - I'm glad that CocaCola celebrates valentine's day by giving away free light coke since yesterday ... I'm in heaven ..

everytime I zip on my pants or skirt, button up my blouse, put on my shirt, or simply putting on my gym wear; something inside me screamed "Wake Up, I'm Fat!"

It's monday again - beginning of our 2 months testing with the central team. Hope everything goes well. Nothing much to talk about now, simply blogging while downloading files from central.

Weekend was okay - decided not to go to the gym on saturday as we're going for a gathering organised by and held in one of my ex-uni senior. Supposed to meet kat and see the thaipusam together but I was too lazy to dress up that I decided to let it go and get her review on it. Lucky me not promising her that I'll come and by giving one of my colleague number to her I'm sure she had a wonderful day taking video from the preparation 'til the ceremony is over. Actually I was quite interested to see it as normally I only see them walking but with my colleague's nephew participating in the ceremony, I could see from the time they prepared themself for the event but TV won me over and there's always next year.
Gathering was okay, food was great of course ;). Spent quite a time there before heading back and watch a movie, interesting movie I shall say.

Managed to woke up early this morning to go to the gym. Almost had myself killed, thanks to the stupid lorry driver who was still speeding eventhough I was in the middle of the zebra crossing. Thank God, I reacted fast and ran back to the pavement. Else I don't know what'd happened to me. I actually was quite in a shock state that I couldn't control my tears 'til I reached the MRT station. It was like I was given a 2nd chance in life, especially after me talking to myself last night about how far better I was before religion wise. Exaggerating? I don't think so - I look at it as a sign of my deep thought last night.

::Mesotheraphy

friend : hey girl, wanna go mesotheraphy?
me: ha3, not for me. it's quite costly right?

that's a sms conversation i had with my friend. Hmm, truth is I too was interested after reading an article about it last year. Just imagine, without surgery and you can do it during your lunch break - as simple as that. The article mentioned that more and more people are doing this as they are happy with the result but, of course you have to come back on a regular basis. I wonder how many people has undergo this procedure and maintain the result without changing their lifestyle. If you know such a person, let me know..

"The man who said 'I'd rather be lucky than good' saw deeply into life. People are afraid to face how great a part of life is dependent on luck. It's scary to think so much is out of one's control. There are moments in a match when the ball hits the top of the net, and for a split second it can either go forward or fall back. With a little luck, it goes forward and you win…or maybe it doesn't, and you lose." - matchpoint

indeed it is true..

life is a mystery, you would never know what will happen to you even 5 seconds from now. Life has its ups and downs as well, you might be the luckiest person now but you never know when God wants that to be taken away from you. Just be humble, love your enemies, respect your families and friends and most of all prepare for your future - there's no one but yourself who can help you out of any trouble. Well, immediate family take part as well so maintaining good relationship with them is crucial. I for one, value my family more than anything in this world. This is what I learnt this week.

:: I can't believe it!

This afternoon someone messaged me saying if it's okay to call me and what time is it convenient to call. I assume this someone is my mom's friend's sister's niece 'cos I've been told that she'd be working here soon. Boy was I surprised when it's a male's voice at the other end. I immediately said that I thought it's a female who's gonna call me & he was surprised too that I know nuts about this. Boy it was awkward so we decided to end the call. My mom sure has lots of explanation to do tomorrow - I'll make sure of it.

::updated Feb 06 2006
Apparently my mom had no idea abt this , she gave my number to her friend when she knew that some of her friend's relative is moving here from Sydney simply for me expanding my network - nothing more than that. Poor mum gotta faced my tantrum without even knowing the head and tail of it haha.. I guess her friend is the one who has nothing better to do

my colleague asked me why I couldn't control myself like I did before, wasn't it wasted all my hardwork gone just like that. She said she used to see me at the gym all the time but not anymore.
I smiled and share the block of chocolate I was eating with the rest of them. I guess Im the only one who haven't feel wasted. I actually did but I always delayed the process of getting back in shape. I actually couldn't imagine how I could do it before .. from 56 t0 42 and now Im 52. Even today I have no mood to go to the gym when my favourite instructor is actually doing the class!! haiz ...

::Reality Check::

I've been munching and munching and munching non stop since my trip to the US. After that trip my weight gradually increased and it hit the pick during my trip home for hari raya. Managed to lost few kgs prior to going home last weekend and now its back and yet I bought myself 2 packs of chocolates. Worst still, before pump class yesterday I stopped by this chocolate shop & bought 50gr of Tiramisu chocolate!. Have been eating chicken rice for the past 2 days and craving for some indian rojak since last night - hope the shop is open today.
Anyway starting next Monday I am going back to eating normal, no diet but simply healthy. Why Monday? so that I have time to plan on my meal and start preparing my own breakfast and dinner. If going to the movie on Sunday with 'I dunno who's going' is cancelled, I can start on Sunday instead. I'm aiming to give myself a birthday present I've been dreaming of.

ketoprak, mie ayam, nasi goreng dokdok, siomay, nando's, martabak manis spesial, martabak tipker spesial, mom's chicken rice, mom's roti jala, buah menteng, mee goreng, teh botol, asinan buah - that's some of the food i remember eating when i was in jakarta last weekend...
met 2 uni friends for lunch & accompany juwi for some gadget shopping (though none of us knew the how and what).
it's just a short break home but fun with my nephew around. my elder sis was hospitalised for 3 days hence my nephew spent most of the time with me. he actually slept with me as well & i have to wake up in the middle of the night every day to make him another serving of milk - its 'fun' to be an aunt ;)
well, a friend of mine said that she'd not be going home 'til she stays here for 6 months so just that she really feel that she's out of the country. With me having lots of families here, I wouldn't be able to feel that but with the project i'm in there is no way for me to go home until october. I know what I'll miss most is the food, the families & of course my nephew. But hope that when I go home on oct, it's also to see the new member of the family... hope my sis stays well 'til her due date ...

Look at the picture and tell me if I'm wrong in interpreting it. The bear looks sad and its eyes are watery and seems to me if only it could take it will scream 'help me'. This is one of the bear who was under captivity in China for their bile. I remember watching it on TV with tears falling from my eyes. How some of them kept banging on the cage (which is soooo small) and some didn't survive after being freed. Please be kind to wild life.

http://www.animalsasia.org/index.php?module=2&lg=en

Im so stress - luckily boss is on the line so I can write something here while waiting for her to end the call before getting back to being stress.. my way of easing the tension in me



I have a confession to make, I went to watch the Backstreet Boys concert last nite! Haha, I know I'm too old for this but who cares.
It all started with me wanting to go but couldn't find a friend who's interested until someone posted about it in the forum & I responded asking if anyone is interested to go. I knew I'm too old for this but who cares ;)
Someone pm-ed me saying she's too old but didn't care as well. So there we were, 3 of us - me, shara & her friend marrike - feeling super energized for our age going to these concert that we suspected gonna be loaded with teeny boppers. There we were, preparing to be the oldest amongst all and being looked at by the youngsters. Boy were we wrong! A lot of people older than us were there. I guess they were simply like us, want to see the guys live. I'm not a fan of them, I do like some of their songs - thats simply it but me being me, I simply want to see how they perform live.
Concert was good - and being a grown adult, we no longer discussed about how cute they were. The discussion after the show were more into how surprisingly ordinary nick was knowing his history with paris, how they're costume were (1 of us even said that nick patched jeans is a totally fashion faux pas).
Well, someone said that being brave and honest enough to admit seeing this concert shows our character *grin*

the list...

pempek, siomay, ketoprak, pangsit abang2, asinan, martabak manis special n tipker, bakso abang2 - these are the list of to eat once I'm home this weekend. and the one that top my priority list - mom's chicken rice!! no restaurant, hawker centre, even aunties of mine can beat her chicken rice ..

quoted from one of the magazine : "to find that someone who fills your life is a rare and precious thing"

absolutely true ...

Weekend comes earlier for me this week. I'm taking 1/2 day leave today to go to JB and get the shoes I've been dreaming of since my last visit there. Hope they still have my size 'cos the last time we went there it's out of stock. I dunno if my boss remember Im taking leave today 'cos she kept asking me to do this and that - I don't care I simply said yes to all ;). After last wednesday's meeting, I kinda asked myself - why the hell did I agree on being the interface lead knowing no one will be there 100% to assist me. With all the document, plan, strategies, scenario, and milestone I have to come out with next wednesday I felt like Im living in a twilight zone. Everytime I want to concentrate on doing this, HR stuff comes in and its always like that until I decided to said yes yes and yes everytime new stuff comes in. I'm gonna be dead meat next week especially that finance just emailed me another 2 new applications need to be included in next month's test. Thats why I think since I can't take any long leave Im gonna use my weekend as best as I can..

In Her Shoes

went to watch the movie last nite, it's not that oh that is such a great movie but the moral of the story is good especially when you have sisters. I mean however you screwed your siblings life, it won't change the fact that there's a special bond between you and nothing could change that. In my mom's word - air cincang tak putus (you can't cut trough water). Just look at maggie & rose 's relationship and you'll know what I mean. I actually shed bit of tears at the part where maggie read a poem on rose's wedding 'cos it just so reflect the feeling everyone have with their siblings - i carry your heart, i carry it in my heart...

what a week...

I hope this week is a better week for me.
Last week was not my favourite. Work wise, I kinda fed up with all the problems Im facing. Boss leave me to do everything by myself because she always said 'I trust you can handle it' but sometimes I felt like shouting 'I can't do it myself'.
My weekend was not great either. Decided not to do any outing, I went straight home after friday gym. Was quite happy that day due to some comment from someone I adore. Went to raffles branch for combat on saturday to support a friend. Was quite upset that I lost my gloves when I went to the ladies. During combat, while moving to the front I accidentally twisted my ankle and before I got back my balance the person in front of me already moved back and she felt on me. Gosh, it was so embarassing.
At night I started to feel the pain on my leg n it got worst 'til I actually cringed everytime I moved my leg, let alone standing. Really couldn't take it anymore so I went to the doctor accompanied by my flatmate before heading to the movie. Thank God it's better now. I still gotta go to the company doctor later and had my leg x-rayed in case there's a fracture, which I hope not. Supposed to attend pump today but I woke up late and the new me decided not to spend money on taxi so I skip my fave instructor's class today. Haha, even my friend was surprised by it.

Just back from my boss deck, updated her about the HR in production & also told her abt my problems n decision I made to solve it for the testing next month. Thank God she agreed so I guess my week already starts great :)

Last month - last year :), we finally made the outing by the beach came true. I decided to make it happened by asking my aunt to post it in the mailing list. Sweet uncle of mine spent the night camping there with his 2 sons & i took over taking care of it early in the morning so that they could go home to pick up their families. Its a fun outing; though some was a bit apprehensive in the beginning, everyone went home saying its a great outing & told me that they were glad I organized it. I personally felt it was great bonding as well. With my elders uncle telling stories about the olden days, all the uncles & aunties telling us their memories with my grandparents, and especially when all off us played cards - all the old games were being played - joker, old maids, and heart attack which was the fun one. We spent time lazing around in the tent, on the hammock and by the beach, eating non stop due to the amount of food brought by everyone - it sure was a fun day out. Even my cousins had came out with ideas for the next outing which was very heartwarming since it shows the bonding works! almost went for bowling but decided not to 'cos one of my cousin had a leg injury which was quite serious, though he's the one suggesting it we decided not to follow his suggestion. He's quite naughty though - before admitting himself to the hospital he spent time watching movies knowing that once being admitted to the hospital, his parents gonna found out abt his accident. Haha ..
I suddenly remember this outing because me & my uni friends might be having an outing when I go home during the chinese new year holiday. This time around it will be at the mountain area. Seems like a lot of ppl can make it, so Im brazing myself for another fun - can't wait for it!!

after 3 months, I finally took the train to the office. 3 months of taxi ride really effects my savings and no more of that. another shoe and KIV session payment and that's it. I know the KIV session will leave me broke again but starting tomorrow I have to start saving seriously!! my sis already has a car n house on its way, another sis is planning to get a car .. I hv to think of a long term investment seriously. only have endowment and cpf for my old days but I really really have to change my mindset. Im trying to follow my elder sis on this, she's very good with her money and I have to start being good at it as well...

My 100th Post

well, its not that surprising knowing how talkative I am :).

my families went home last night and I already miss my nephew. He's such a handful boy, so darn active that sometimes we just can't follow his pace. But he's so cute and without being biased I have to admit he's one darn smart lad. The funniest part is when he thought the announcement was about 'hamburger hamburger hamburger' when it's actually in one of the 4 language used here. We really couldn't afford not to laugh and so did few ppl in the train. Its tiring taking care of him but its fun all along - gonna meet him again during the holidays.

everything is back to normal I guess - start working under tight schedule since its already 2006. HR system will go live next week together with the kickstart of the weekly conference call. Hiks, the call clashed with my gym timing. i took a wise decision not going to HK as everything is all being monitored by the central team, including our leave. i am now giving a tight deadline to myself to understand everything in a whole now that the call will be starting - the testing is less than a month time anyways.

start planning on going back to healthy living now that even I couldn't fit in my fave jeans. i could still pictured the disappointment in my trainer's face when we did the measurement last week. she advised me to take the KIV plan & i would probably go for it. for the mean time, starting today i'm controlling my intake. even my flatmate was amazed at how healthy i am in the middle.

oh well, lets start 2006 good and end it great.

I am a good landlord - well not really a landlord, but assisting my mum in this area. Why? I never asked for additional fee for electricity/water when my flatmates brought her friends home, I am not fussy in them putting their stuff in the store room, kitchen n shoe cabinet, I never said no to them entertaining their friends in the living room.
My friend's having problem with their flatmate .. FLATMATE!! not even the owner of the house. Just because her mom was here for few days, she has to pay $10/day for it when her mom doesn't even on the aircon when she's home alone nor her mom shower with warm water. In fact her mom helped washing their plates. They should've just settle with my friend paying the additional cost in electricity and water by comparing it with last month's bill. But no, they want more which I think its not rational at all. Another friend also said that she encountered the same when her mom visited her for a mere 2 days. The reason given was that they shouldn't be taking advantage of allowing their parent(s) to visit without paying anything. This in addition to they're not supposed to use any part of the home without permission, can only wash clothes twice a week, and no storing stuff out of the room. That's bad! Compared to what's happenning in my place? That's awful!!

last nite was fun - it's our 1st dessert club outing though we can't really call it a dessert club. Went for a fresh durian, mainly for the french guys sake. I mean we've tried whatever cheese they brought during the xmas party so it's time for them to try asian specialty. Hey, its the king of fruits - even they thought they have to try it. Its quite fun watching them eating it, with all the comments just like they're doing some wine or cheese tasting like what the french do. I remember them saying it tasted like mango and onion, coffee and onion, or simply mango 'cos we had 3 durians and each has different flavour. From there we headed down to this beef kway teow stall and had our dinner. Had a great chit chat with the whole crew, though we talked about french culture most of the time. Kimi was soo curious about how the terms french kiss was discovered, why there is such thing as italian lover but not french lover, and lotsa other things that even the guys were speechless in answering it. Haha it was fun and it is true that french people enjoy their food by eating slowly. Too bad the panama couple couldn't make it for this outing as he was the one who made us decide on having a fresh durian as our 1st dessert outing.
Its definitely a great start for the dessert club, and next month we're heading down for the best durian pastries in Singapore.

I've decided not to go for the HK trip. So saaad, especially that me n june had talked about it in details. Already planned to take flight to macau, spent the day there before taking a ferry to HK. Already emailed Michelle abt our plan on attending her classes.
Well, actually if I want to I could take leave provided someone cover for me but I think it's wiser of me not to since we're in the middle of conversion during that period. I couldn't even ask my boss for her approval on this leave. The goes my 1st budget travelling - well, there's always another time I hope.

brand new year, no resolutions for me - simply being the best in everything i do, c'est tout.

another holiday next week - hari raya haji! yay .. this time around my families sans one of my sister will be here celebrating it together.

end of the month - Chinese New Year, still contemplating on going home or join my families to Port Dickson, but most likely is home as I heard that my friends are planning on spending the weekend at Safari Garden.

still contemplating on going to HK next month - it would be great if I can take 1-2 days of leave for this trip. But I plan to be more budget concious this year, so I really have to think about this trip.

brand new year, hopefully a good year as well...

I suck big time when it comes to conversation with someone I admired. Always planned on approaching and start the conversation but always end up with walking out and regret afterwards. Today I plan on approaching wishing a happy new year. But before me approaching, Im the one being approached when I was about to approach another friend of mine. Instead of helping carrying the heavy loads I simply said Happy New Year to you too and continue walking to my friend. Hah! I have to learn to be more vocal here...

another 1/2 day at the office, no one is in the mood to work hard. I personally simply finished what need to be done, sent it to the central team and spend the rest of the time reading, playing sudoku and now blogging.
the next time I'll be online would be 2006 - hopefully Im still given the bless to be alive then. so to all you folks out there, have a great new year ya.

may we strive better in everything we do next year - health, family, work, savings, social life, love, and all other things that we think important for us.
Im going to end my day today by watching a movie, buying some eyeshadow (yeah, thanks to that caucasian lady, I love playing with this now) then head to the gym burning some calories before piling it up again during the end of this festive season.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006.

2006 is just around the corner. Lotsa things happened this year, good n bad but all in all its a great year.
healthy lifestyle, weight ups and downs, US trips, new friends, sick families, lost 2 beloved cats, new activities, find peace with myself, new hobbies, and lots of other stuff happened in this year.
Of all the things that happened, one thing that I truly didn't regret is going to Chicos meeting up with new people there which led me to having new friends who I can said kinda brighten my stay here.
Looking forward, a lot of ppl asking me the same question, when r u going to end ur singlehood? when r u going back to ur country? well - for all the questions my answer is the same: I have no idea. Sometimes those questions really frustrates me especially when people (including my own mum) assume that I chose this path of life.
I personally made plans which will not be revealed here 'cos a plan is just a plan and I don't want to share it with anyone (apart from my sisters, of course) until I can see it becoming a reality. So wish me luck in executing my plan. I will try my best to work towards it starting next year..

a great weekend indeed...

It all started with watching KingKong on friday afternoon, mom's arrival at night followed by joining combat class with my fave instructor the following deay. Went out for a party at jave's place before going to another gathering at my uncle's place. It's so funny that we had the gathering on xmas eve some ppl thought we're celebrating it, especially when his neighbour gave us a log cake and wishing us and all. I mean all my aunts are wearing scarf and yet people still thought that we celebrate xmas. Some people are just too ignorant to differentiate stuff.
Went for june's capoeira on sunday and from there i went home preparing for the next day outing.
Yupe, finally outing by the beach came true and a successful one indeed. Me sans my beauty sleep to be there early in the morning, taking over my uncle & kuzzins place 'cos they spent the night there in order to get a good spot was well paid of when the event turned out to be a successful one. Already in line few plans for the next gathering after the breakfast gathering which gonna be held next week. Bowling, pool, chalet - you name it, I'll be there.

Now, back at work yet still feeling sleepy and tired from yesterday but its okay 'cos yesterday was surely a fun day. Even God loves us a lot that He stopped the rain until we pack and went home - that's how bless we were yesterday.
Gonna play it slow this week and might be joining another friend of mine to the NY eve's celebration at Sentosa, just need to get more people that I know to go along.

Im just a happy girl

Went to my uncle's place last night 'cos my cousin from oz is here for holiday with her family. I'm happy cos she remembered I was on a low carb diet when I went to sydney last year, so she bought me packs and packs of lowcarb cadbury chocolate. Though Im no longer on diet, I can now eat it without any guilty feeling.
I'm actually having stomach flu but being on sick leave is out of the question for me, so I just try to ignore the pain by having more chocolate .. yummy.
I should ask ppl who come from australia to bring me this from now on.

I received an email from my sis, basically she's forwarding email she received from 1 of her assistant. Its a very touchy email. Its about this old man they saw in their office, no one notice him sitting alone in the meeting room servicing a typewriter. Imagine how many typewriters are there now, how much is this man's income from such a job in the world where everything is computerized. The email ended up with the writers reflection on herself, how she should be grateful for what she have, that she might be earning much much more compare to this old man.

Reading this email made me feel a bit sad. Sad in the sense that shouldn't I be grateful for all that I have yet sometimes I still whine of something more. When with my earning I can travel around yet I still complain of not having enough money. When I am saving for a louis vuitton wallet, this old man might be saving for his next meal. When Im thinking of my next trip home, having fun with families and school friend, this man might be thinking of whether there is another typewriter need servicing so that he can bag some more money.

And yet I am still ungrateful with all the gift God has given and still giving me...

Current State: Happy

yupe, after stressing out with the oz application, i decided to use another application for the conversion while waiting for IT to resolve the problem. Have been working with the code used by sweden for few days and today I managed to solve the problem. Yaaay - at least the technical part for conversion is settled. Now simply concentrate on HR's applicaion, interface, and datafeeds. Apparently boss put my name for the local test as well - haha, getting more and more huh..
Guess I have to start reading abt this local test while waiting for IT.

Oh ya, just found out that mom's coming one day earlier - haiz.. I actually planned on going to javers place b4 fetching her but now she is here already on that day. But I think this is better 'cos when I told her that I sort of made plans already she simply asked me to go ahead with it 'cos she wanted to spend the day with her siblings - lucky me, I can stay longer than

Bring It On...

Had a very great weekend though sleepy up 'til this moment. Geez, not even a single day passed by without going somewhere after work. But I guess Im ready for the challenge this week has for me - just bring it on.
Another week to endure - can't wait for javer's party this weekend and mom's arrival. Poor mommy, guess I'll be leaving her alone during new year's eve - hey, she's the one asking me to meet people more often (though I know she's referring to different kind of people hehe)

part of my nightmare come true

I've been worrying about being blamed when everything went wrong, and part of it is right. Boss started questioning how come oz's application still not working when we actually received it in sept. I have to explain that yes its september but we can only access it november due to the versioning and then Im also doing HR and fixing the problems at one go. I told her that during the time IT looking at the problem, i focus on gHR which - mind you - has lots of changes now that we're going live with the new release. I guess she totally forgotten there's another project running and Im the sole technical person there.
I've included her in most of our correspondencies so that she's aware of what's happenning n I guess she's not reading it else none of the questions above will be raised.

Even after knowing all the problems Im encountering and the deadline I have for the HR system - I have to change HK's application to cater for the changes - she still gave me additional things thats supposed to be done by others. I know this shows her confidence in me but man, Im only a person with one brain & 2 hands. However good I am in multitasking I still need time to breathe.
Well, time to pack my machines now and go to the other office for presentation, hope I can concentrate with all things in my mind now.

Don't care - Im going to have fun with a good crowd tonight to ease my stress

only in french movies can you find this

*translated in english*
push capitain push capitain ... stop stop capitain ... breathe capitain ...
push capitain push capitain ... stop capitain .. breathe capitain ...
repeat until the baby is born in the middle of a corn field between 5 villages

a bit boring in the beginning but quite funny especially when it's almost at the end of it where all the characters were connected in one way or another - what a movie

Hah ..

I worry for nothing - the problem is again the o/s part. IT's looking at it and now I can be a bit relief.
New joiners orientation gonna be on this friday, this time around its gonna be covered in both location which means I'll be moving around - no total dress down this friday :(

I can't sleep ..

It's midnight and Im still wide awake when I actually plan on waking up early tomorrow for pump. Is it the 1/2 l coke that I had or is it because of my mind can't stop thinking abt work? Probably both.
I've been waking up early during weekend with my heart beating so fast thinking of the problem I'm having. I've been handling too many things at one go that I simply had no time to go into the Oz's application in detail. I've been busy with the presentation and modiying the HR apps now that we have to go live with the new realease that I totally forgotten about it. Until last friday when I was downloading tables for the conversion and hp said that they need to access the conversion flat file soon that I realised some of the programs have problem that none of us knew how to resolve it. Oh No!!
I dunno but I am seriously thinking of asking a shut period from the daily work and all other things for at least 2 days so that I can concentrate on this - I think I really have to consider this.
Even just now when I went back to office I really wanted to bring my notebook home but lucky I had to rush to the gym that I decided not to. Anyway I've been working on saturday and sunday - I need to relax a bit before working again tomorrow. So much for relax when all I can think about when closing my eyes is the error message.

Talk about other things to ease my mind now.
Today was the 1st time I go to the gym on sunday. Its only because MichelleDean was in town and her being in town means Capoeira Fitness! June n Darren did with her - kinda shadowing her for preparation before its launched here. After capoeira june asked me to stay for michelle's hiphop. What the heck! so there I was with my 2 left feet doing hiphop for an hour. Ha3 so darn fun though I really don't have the move. After class, while chitchatting w/ June, kinda giving her feedback on her teaching this guy came and started to ask lotsa question that our chitchat was cut halfway until michelle approached us he was still there. I hung out a while watching michelle n june did some movements, trying to figure out what movement this guy was talking about ;). 7 pm I decided to make a move, did some grocery shopping, cooking before going to bed. I want to go to sleep or I'll miss tomorrow's pump! I really do hope I can shut my eyes soon...

Girl Night In

By the time Im writing this, my friends must've been in the club spending their friday night among friends. I decided to pass on this as I have to go back to work tomorrow, and probably on sunday as well. If I join them I'd definitely leave early and I sorta promise them not to leave early for our next gathering - so I guess I made the right decision.
So here I am at home, doing my laundry while browsing the net and watching cable at the same time. Lucky me, there's a good movie playing on cable now - one of the reason for my quiet night in.

I've been spending more time with myself recently. Like thursdays are the time where I went for dinner by myself after boxercise and take a bus instead of train home. During dinner n my journey home I do lotsa thinking or even dreaming but I find it rather relaxing. I guess sometimes you just need to switch off..

well, what am I rattling here. I think Im gonna logoff now and concentrate on the movie.

Being away from home means being left out in a lot of event, not being able to witness all sort of things happenning back home, and lots of other backfalls.
Today's my elder sis' birthday and I kinda miss seeing the look in my nephew's eyes when he gave present to my sis. I can only imagine it based on the story told by his mom.

This makes me think of all the things - good and bad - that I was not part of back from 1992, the time I stayed in hostel during my uni years.
When I was in uni, I didn't see my cats - milly jr's and d'artagnan's body for the last time. I was not even at home when someone called my mom informing her that my grandpa passed away. When I was in batam, I didn't see my cat, jane (buta)'s body for the last time - only heard that she died under my bed. I could only pray for the best when I heared the news that hercules went missing. Now the Im here, I didn't see Grace, Jimmy and Valentine for the last time as well.

Apart from that, I missed going out with the group for some dinner, pushing the car together when it stalled, sitting together in the living room talking about anything, simply having breakfast and dinner everyday, calling mom asking what's for dinner, just simply hugging my cats when I feel bored or lonely, and lots of other things.
Of course, I don't miss listening to my mum's complain or the traffic back home. But still, I think I miss a lot of family moments being away from home.

And some people really want to be away from home forever...

Getting back on track...

Slowly but surely Im getting back on track - the track I did before though this time not that vigorously.
I started out with getting back to healthy eating, not all the time but I try to make it most of the time and still continue with my workout as and when I can make the time for it. Workout wise, I only do an hour a day - no more no less, no longer the gym crazy girl who attended morning & evening classes 6 times a week.
Its kinda tiring though for the eating part, 'cos you have to plan the meal ahead so you know what to prepare for the next day. I still do my 5 meals a day (sometimes even 6), hence I have to think of the snacks and breakfast - its quite tough especially when you're home late and still have to prepare snacks for the following day. Lunch is the time for me to make a clever choice or be more creative with whats available in the hawker centre.
Yeah, Im doing it slow now - so far Im getting back on track in the weighing dept, slowly but surely. Im aiming for another measurement and inbody check by the end of next week. Im not gonna jeopardize results of my training by totally cutting out certain types of food for a long period as well.

My training is gonna be over next week - from there on I have to do everything on my own. I have to be discipline!! it's for my own good - I can't blame anyone but myself and Im not gonna be someone who's self loathing

Yesterday, we went to the standard chartered marathon, though I participated at the 10 km, it was fun and sort of testing your endurance as well. Woke up early as the run for 10 km started at 7 AM and we have to be there by 6.40. Almost didn't make it as me & hp planned to meet at the gym that I decided to use the shoes in my gym locker. When hp text-ed me saying she'd be late, I tried calling the gym. No answer, so I went back in to check the opening hours. Oh boy, that's a good choice I made. The gym opens at 8 AM on sunday! I quickly called hp as I left my office key at the office, changed my outfit and brought shoes from home. Just imagine if I went there sans my shoes.

The race was fun, we decided not to run fast as we have no preparation at all. We run 'til km 4 then stopped for a drink, brisk walked 'til km 4.5 then run 'til km 7. Walked again 'til km 8 and run until the finish line. Total time is 1 hr 15 mins - not bad :) Each and every participant were given a medal as an appreciation for the participation.
I planned on doing the half marathon next year & hp is fine with it provided we train ourselves. Hehe .. hopefully we do - it is fun to challenge yourself in a positive way.

During the race, I notice a lot of caucasian boys were running with their parents. I like seeing a family engaging in a fun yet positive activities. I personally want my kids (when I have one) to be sporty & active in outdoor activities.

It's Monday again - brand new week, hopefully its a good one. I've been working on this presentation slides for a week, hoping to cover everything as detail as possible since it's going to be a key to our local application changes. Im actually hoping that the partners couldn't attend the presentation as well hehe.. less pressure on me if that happen. We'll see what happens tomorrow. For now, I'll just go back to the writeups.

just had a chat with Kat.
She's planning to join the gym 'cos she planned to get back to her shape when she was still competing professionally. She's thinking of competing again actually. She asked me along to help each other, I guess she's going to do more on helping me ;)
Apparently she's also thinking of setting up the same business she had back in US here. Read the website and it's quite a success there. She'd help me achieving my goal n she'll capture my progress and if she decided to set up her business here, my progress will be used as one of the proof - I'm game for it!
anyways, all this will only start early next year and only when Bob's okay with it as well.

and now Im imagining myself walking with the washboard abs heeeee

note: this post is simply about me thinking aloud, no intention of having any racism remarks or whatsoever (better said first before being arrested)

last friday nite, on my way home from my kuzzin's b'day the taxi driver took the wrong route. He's not supposed to turn left and I informed him abt this. He apologized and said that he would deduct the total cost. I said no need and he insisted. I said 'uncle, it's only few cents - not that I'll be rich with that, if it's $10 then I complain'. He was quite surprised with my attitude and kept on saying how understanding I was. I said that we have to give and take, this small things shouldn't be made big. He said that there were not many ppl like me around. Me being nosy asked him if he encountered ppl who complained a lot about this. He said yes, especially ang moh (caucasian). He said they were so calculative and so wanna show their power.

This reminds me about a thread posted by an ang moh in a forum that I visit frequently. There, this person complained about taxi driver here being so rude and no manners at all. He complained quite a lot - some people in the forum agrees and some doesn't. I personally respond to that thread saying that I always have great time in a taxi ride here, except once.

Well, after the friday nite ride all I can think about is 'what will the person who posted the thread about rude taxi driver respond to this driver's complain'

Just came back from dinner (or should i said supper?) with yolli. Prior to that, we went to catch a movie - bought myself a nachos w/ cheese n a coke. Ended the supper with a tiramisu. I lost count of the sinful dessert I had this week!
Haven't really train for next week's standard chartered marathon. Only did running on the threadmill for 2 days in a row and thats it!. Planned on running this sunday morning but Im still wide awake at this time - so I guess I won't be going for a run later. Lucky that I only register for the 10 km.

I think I'm gonna embarassed myself next week.

My 1st Thanksgiving Dinner

The authentic one that is.

Kat invited me to her place for a traditional american thanksgiving. I thought its so sweet of her that I decided to go. Dunno what to bring her, I simply bring a box of brownie. Went to her place, a little bit kampung for me, I dunno that she has to allow me in before I can press the lift button. So there I went out again n buzzed her when actually the door was open - hehe *kampungan. Since the feast started at the afternoon, there's only Ava - the scandinavian lady - left. She lived in Jakarta for 2 years long time ago but she still can speak few bahasa indonesia, quite fun.
Dinner was superb - Kat's been cooking for 2 days and I got a taste of all the traditional thanksgiving dishes. Love the baked yam n marshmallow & her cranberry sauce is simply delicious. But I guess what I love most was the dessert - apple pie topped with homemade caramel sauce. Ava even licked the plate because of the caramel sauce! - very very delicious.
Bob, kat's hubby is a nice guy. We spent time chit chatting about anything and ended the night in the kitchen helping Kat to clean up. She found the wish bone while keeping the turkey. I just knew abt this wish bone thingy - something new. I dunno how, the subject body combat came up and I told them to join me for the class anytime the wanted to. Ava's so excited about this. She's such a fun lady to be with - very expressive and friendly.
We left ard 9.30 as kat's already so burned up cooking for 2 days. I myself wanted to go home early to watch the last episode of Lost.

Absolutely a great way to experience my 1st thanksgiving feast.

REST IN PEACE

my dear Valentin...
last night when I called, you were being fed by my elder sis n when I called again you're inside my younger sis' room.
This morning I heard that you died with your hands around my younger sister arms - you're her favourite after all.

at this moment, Valentin is playing with the giant ball of string in the sky...

why oh why ..

are my cats destined to have kidney failure.. 1st was grace, then jimmy and now VALENTIN?
poor valentin - too young to have this kind of illness ...
though we always lash you with bad nickname like bego, pengkor or si idung - that doesn't mean that we love you less. Its actually the way of us showing you our love n care.

we pray for your speed recovery .. idung and hope to see you on my next trip home...

with all the things I've been faced to see, to admit its existence, and to witness make me wonder is there only few of us left? are we a rare breed in this modernisation world?
*you can be among them but you don't have to be one of them*

Its Monday again ...

The day most ppl drag, including myself.
Its good that I had quite a nice w/end that I feel I can see myself bracing a week ahead with my head held high.

Friday was quite a bad day at the office, a colleague of mine broke down due to the stress. We are really under pressure because on top of our daily job, there's this project that requires lotsa documentation - every step must be documented and presented to the central team which in turn decided whether its accepted or not. I didn't touch my part last week as Im busy with the server crashed and the HR project. Well, hopefully nothing happen this week so I can concentrate more on the project.

Weekend was quite good. Just went for spinning on saturday 'cos my aunt called when I was preparing myself to go for combat. What do you know, no taxi around that I simply went back home waiting for another 30 mins before heading the gym. From the gym went to city for the Tangs rebate - time to stock up of skincare with this promotion around :).
Catched 2 movies with my flatmate as well, haven't been to the movies for so long and now there's a long list of movies need to be catched.

Okay, now I have to face the fact that it's monday once again

You know what I did Last Night ...

I had the BEST brownies I have ever had in my life!
Yesterday me n few friends from the forum met up for dinner, made new friends as well. Me n 1 girl were late that the rest had their dinner already. So when I reached there we decided to move somewhere else for dessert. Sofi suggested us going to Chijmes where there's this place which has nice desserts. 2 of the guys decided not to join as the went for clubbing - the rest of us are not in the mood for that. I dunno, but Im not so into clubbing, guess once in a while is okay but not every week. Those that decided to chit chat instead of clubbing all have the same feeling like me.

Back to the dessert - There's quite a number of sinful choice but then I decided to order melting moments - warm brownies topped w/ vanilla ice cream n accompanied w/ cherry, whipped cream n chocolate syrup - while others order either tiramisu or creme brulee. I wanted the tiramisu as 1st but I've been having lots of tiramisu recently that I decided brownies instead, furthermore it sounds more fantastic.

It was so damn fantastic, once you felt the warm brownies in ur mouth, I feel like I was transported somewhere else. Had a taste of the tiramisu as well, but the brownies is simply heaven! If I were that thick skin I'd lick the plate - thats how good it taste. I've made a decision to come back n try the other stuff there.

We chit chat 'til we're almost being asked to leave ;). Lotsa stuff to talk about n I brought up something that I plan on doing - go around singapore trying desserts. They agree n even someone told us abt where to get a great tiramisu here. Hope the dessert club becomes a reality or else, I'll just do it myself. 'Cos I kinda decided to give myself a new job - tiramisu critic ;)

I've been having quite a number of sinful food recently. There's a new tents ard my office area selling british pie that looks so good. I bought 2 of it and what do you know - behind it is a place selling all kind of brownies and I bought 2 kinds as well, their best seller, the double fudge, and another one w/ marshmallow n almond on it.
Now Im blogging while eating a piece of brownie, the one topped up w/ marshmallows n almost - simply delicious!

Lunch will be british pie before heading to the gym and burn all this sinful pleasure..

JC Boxercise is cool...

yupe, after trying it out myself I sense that Im gonna fall in love with this exercise. Me n Eileen have actually decided to attend the class every thursday, not sure abt the saturday one though as it clashes with spinning class. Probably take turn or worse case, come on sunday as well haha.

Brought my wraps there and join 2 girls whose wearing it - the last time I wore it for combat it didn't look that nice, so I thought might as well I tried the right way. Still confused, one of the instructor who was there ended up wearing it for me. Well I tried remembering how he wrapped so next time I can do it myself.

Its a partnering class, and we took turn with the gloves n the mittens. Like the instructor said, forget combat, forget boxercise, forget cardiokick. No shouting, no more 'everybody uppercut' no jumping jet - this is boxing training. And it truly was. Well, yesterday focused more on techniques so no sweat there, just some soreness around the shoulder, back, and your leg for moving like a boxer. We also laughed when we were to punch fast and ended up punching the air.

Too bad the time passed by quickly that we have to skipped the circuit training. Instructor told us that once we're used to the technique, they gonna pick up the pace an incorporate circuit training, jumping rope etc. I guess once we're more to it, the sand bag and speedball available are gonna be part of the routine.

Will I be there this sunday? I surely hope so!!

I couldn't sleep tonight so I flicked through the tv channel and ended up watching this movie, hunger point, which is an adaptation from a novel with the same title. Not a bad movie - at least for me. It actually made me think of few stuffs.

I dunno, but I kinda look into myself and relate to the story a bit. Just a little bit though.
There were times when I too were obsessed with my weight. Those were the days when I was underweight and people around me commented on it but I still felt I need to loose more to get the desired abs.
There were once or twice (or maybe even thrice) I took laxatives after a heavy dinner or supper. Not often I felt depressed about my weight. Thank God, I never succumbed to the temptation of diet pills and I forced myself to admit if I didn't change my way of thinking now I'd end up with an eating disorder.
I keep on telling myself, that I wanna feel good not simply look good. Feel good for me is having a balance diet and exercise. I started cutting down on my exercise regime and introduce myself to the joyous of food. Yes I gained weight, not much but people around me said that I look fresher, no longer haggard.
Now, I may complain here n there abt my weight - but Im no longer the obsessed lady who checked her abs every morning and night and definitely no longer the one said no to a great food.

Watching this movie also made me realised how much I love my sisters. I dunno how will I feel if anything bad happen to them. Yes we do have our share of arguments, but that doesn't change the way we feel for each other. It makes me wonder as well, how will life be if my belated sister is still around us - wonder how she looks like.

I try my luck by calling the hotline again, the one answering is one of the instructor which I knew by name. Asked him abt the JC Boxercise and I MANAGED TO GET A PLACE FOR MYSELF n A FRIEND OF MINE ....

part from that, the vendor just called and has forced consistent the database. Its back to our part, but looks everything will be okay cum tomorrow..

Im sooo happy!!

went for late lunch so that I could get a meni pedi n relax during this time, boy was i wrong. Boss called and asked me to go back to office asap as the vendor need some information/clarification before doing their part. So there I go, luckily the ladies there were nice and asked me to come back either tonite or tomorrow to continue.
Hehe, my fault here too as based on previous experience of database crashed, I knew that I should've cancelled the appointment.

Anyways, Im more sad that I couldn't book a place for tomorrow's JC Boxercise. Im soo saad, I forgotten to call the hotline at 2 PM and only remember it now. Alas, nobody pick up the phone. Hope I got a chance to try this class some other day.

the main application her is in coma, if i couldn't say dead. I hope it can be up soon, its been more than a day already and the company's business can't cope with it being down for so long. The problem is out of our hand, and the vendor need to look into it.

Another server has been configured and reflection run successfully on it - yeay .. no more embarassment answering the central team during the next conference call.

I have to give two thumbs up to the IT guy who I complained about before. He's been the one and only person who has the best infrastructure knowledge in his department. He's attitude changed as well and I really really appreciate all his help infrastructure wise. Really hope his boss is aware of how important he is in IT.

Work aside, finally after 6 years living in this country, I saw someone that made my head turned inside the train. Well not that hunkilicious or what, but at least something than nothing.
Just imagine, 6 years here and managed to saw 1 person that turned my head while going back to my hometown just over the weekend managed to make my head turned several times!!

My younger sis is playing on being a matchmaker for my friend and her friend's kuzzin - so my friend (I know u are here quite often) let me know how does the meetup ends ya..

aug 2003

• 56 kg
• decided to start a workout n diet regime, a healthy one that is

sept 2003

• fasting month
• workout after breaking fast
• modified phase 1 of SBD

oct 2003

• 48 kg - lighter me

2004

• was used to the diet that I kept on working out n sticking to phase 1 when supposed to move to phase 2
• 42 kg

early 2005

• starting a new, work out but with a healthier meal plan
• 46 kg

mid 2005

• enjoying food to the fullest
• must eat more to gain muscle, but been eating the wrong stuffs
• 47 kg

sept 2005

• 48 kg

oct 2005

• fasting month - appetite can't be controlled
• 47 kg

nov 2005

• went home - hello local delights good by healthy lifestyle
• 49 kg

today

• 2 days of hari raya visiting here, all houses preparing fried noodle or something alike
• enjoying food to the fullest
• 51 kg!!!

tonite

• gym
• grocery shopping, cooking

tomorrow

• a brand new day, a brand new lifestyle - a healthy one that is

give me one week - una semana

Back to Normal ...

Finally, I managed to finish combat yesterday without huffing n puffing like I did on tuesday. Getting back on track after 2 weeks of exercise-free was a killer. Every inch of my muscles are aching 'til now and the worst part is the cardio.
I used to be able to do combat while Im fasting, but last tuesday I couldn't continue without a sip of water after the 4th track!! huffing n puffing, I felt like my heart could jump out anytime. Left after the muaythai track - 'cos I shouted during this track my stamina was zipped for the last track.

Yesterday, I was afraid the same thing will happen - but it didn't and managed to stay 'til the end. Yay!!
My stamina for cardio is back and I hope I can get back to the same weight next week...

Im just wondering what will happen to my sis who took a month break from the gym - good luck to u sis!!

its always like this when Im faced with Lotus Notes application. I've planned on going through the notes application today and find out what enhancement need to be done and how to explain the whole flow to HR tomorrow.

Yet, I ended up thinking of other stuff and munching these preserved mangoes n cashew nuts I bought during my lunch break. Haha, most ppl who saw me was surprised seeing me act normal when I knew I gained weight - no longer the freaky me whenever I gain even a kg. Well, I only told them to give me 1 week 'cos I've started my workout just yesterday. Yesterday's weight training was a nightmare, we simply need to decrease the weight as I haven't been doing weight for a month now.

Hope within a month time I'll have the washboard abs of my dreams - I plan to do it the right way starting next monday. Why next monday, why not now? Actually I've started looking after my diet since yesterday, but tomorrow nite my company is organizing a *surprise surprise* Deepavali n Hari Raya Gathering only for those celebrating it at Grand Hyatt. This is the 1st time they organise it and I think it's a good way of recognising everyone.

another note to myself: 04 december is just round the corner - its standard chartered marathon and I haven't start training .. arrghh, I have no intention of making a fool of myself on that day

I surrender to the devil in me...

after deciding again and again .. and again that it's enough shopping for me and that I have to start saving more for my future, I surrender to my weakness SHOES!

bought 2 pairs of shoes and Im a happy girl today - happy when Im supposed to be angry to myself. But, I can't help it! - one can never enuff shoes right.

Now I only need to think where the hell am I gonna put these shoes at.
I guess I have to start sorting my shoes and have an online auction, auctioning those shoes I will not wear again .. have to have to!!

a Recap...

my last night back home for this year - been coughing like crazy that I decided to blog instead since Im having trouble sleeping...

Well, what can I said .. let's see

28 Oct 05
The plane was delayed for 1/2 hour I guess that me n my flatmate decided to browse the net while waiting for it. Yupe, finally after 6 year living in the same flat, we went home together ;)
Browsing the net made me realised works waiting for me once Im home as they've sent the files to my yahoo account.
Landed safely and been welcomed by a cute voice of my little nephew who still calls me aa instead of khala ;) - as usual, his 1st question was 'aeroplane inside here?' pointing to my luggage. Reached home and had siomay from my younger sis' office for supper. That night I slept with my nephew. Well I actually moved out of his room only to be waken by him twice to move back to his room

29 Oct 05
My 1st sahur with my family - nothing special on this day. Only that after breaking our fast and did our prayers, me n my sisters went to the mall - my sis sent her son for a haircut while the other one accompanied me looking for hari raya clothing.

30 Oct 05
Met my Uni friends at Tamani Cafe where we broke our fast together. Prior to that I met biki n rusdi n we kinda walk around Pasaraya 'cos our meeting time is way too early. Well, I reached there much earlier than them that we decided to head straight to the cafe earlier. There we met another bunch of friends and we kinda had a chit chat before breaking fast times. Boy, how time flies - haven't met my ex-roommate back in uni years since she gave birth to her 2nd born almost 6 years ago! Nothing change from everyone there except that they have kids now. Well, not all of them though.

31 Oct and 1 Nov 05
Im the babysitter for 2 days - babysitting my nephew that is. It always amaze me how words can come out of a 4 year old boy. Some even made us speechless dunno how to answer him back. When his mom bought frapuccino and he ended up controlling the drink - he said that 'u must take turn mummy' but his turn is always longer than his mum. When my younger sis warned him not to asked things in the supermarket he asked my sis 'why you always treaten me'. We kinda speechless not knowing how to answer him back. Probably going to school at a young age made him more open to society and of course him being more vocal. There was once when his mom scolded him, he ran to me and lay on my lap saying 'later i tell auntie (his teacher) that mummy n aa alun (my sis) always fighting with me'.
He left me dumbfounded as well when he asked me what is the meaning of some spanish words in english while I was putting him in bed. I guess watching dora made him understand few spanish. He knows numbers in english, bahasa indonesia, mandarin, and spanish. Well, for mandarin n spanish he can only said it 'til 10 but still! My sis said that he tends to sing all sort of mandarin songs at home and when in class he will say a prayer that he learned from his religious class until the teacher asked if he like to pray at home..
When you asked him to do things that he refused to do he'd end up holding his head saying 'don't disturb me, I am headache'
I always smile when he start singing in english, continued with mandarin songs and ended it with some prayers. Haha, kids nowadays... But its good that he learns to speak more Bahasa since attending the religious class

02 Nov 2005
Hmm, can't recall what happened this day apart from accompanying my sis to visit the doctor since my nephews coughing. Just a precautious 'cos the following day is Hari Raya and all doctors wouldn't be available in case she need some medication for his son's cough.

03 Nov 2005
EID MUBARAK - Its Hari Raya
After a month of fasting in Ramadhan, today is the time all the muslims celebrate their victory. Should I said victory? well - during the fasting month, it is said that all the devil is chained so that the only devil we have to fight it the devil within ourself. This 1 full month is the time for us to practice being kind, patience, and doing all other good deeds. Its time for instropection as well - hoping once the month's over we can continue practicing it on our daily life. The celebration is because after the 1 month of fasting, we were like a new born, all our sin is washed and its a brand new day for us - we should be doing all the right things from now on. Its up to the individual though, but God has given us this opportunity so we should try our best in striving the best in everything. We started the day with the prayer in which after that, we asked forgiveness from the people around us - for me, its from my parents and sisters. Then come the visiting. Daddy being the eldest brother in Jakarta made our house crowded from morning 'til late afternoon. Its good we had some helpers as normally 3 of us ended up arguing on whose washing the plates etc. We tend to asked the guests to help themselves when the crowd gets uncontrollable - just imagine, 100 ppl can come at one go!

04-05 Nov 05
Time to pay visit to the elders and those that came to my parents house. Luckily this time around its not as many as before *grin. Lucky me gonna fly home tomorrow so I don't have to endure all the visitings - I've visited the elders and my uncles, I guess thats enough for me. I still have another round of visiting to do once Im back to singapore tomorrow.
Decided to check my work again today after sending the files on monday - thank god I found out that the problem Im having with the software is now a global problem. Other countries kinda asking the central team to update them on this. It is also written that the new loadset must be installed under certain infrastucture - so basically this shouldn't be burdened to me but to the person who asked me to look into it! Well, I also found out that cum Monday - lotsa job waiting for me. I'll just plan on my head what to do once Im back to office

Well, all I can said from my trip home this time around is:
1. I gained lotsa lotsa weight and I don't care - Im going to hit the gym on monday
2. Im coughing like hell - thanks to MnM, mom's cheesecake, mom's cookies, and all the local delights