Realisation

doing this transcribing makes me realised that i have so much more potential than this. at this age, with these experience I can be much much more than I am now!

Determine

a friend said: try again, it's worth the effort. be thick skinned.

i said: no, thank you.

but i'm determine - before my age turn to another one, i will make it. either getting one or getting out of this. i want to change. i need to change. i will change this!

Definitely Not

yes, it is not meant to be. definitely not. i've known it for so long; and as if that's not enough, another announcement was made - gone to africa. hah! missed it last year, gonna miss it this year as well. and i thought i'd be getting one (and was waiting to see it, actually) extra wish this year.

won't be hidden let alone removed. it will stay there as a reminder to myself - never to assume anything fast.