Wishful Thinking

i wish things will get back to the way they normally are. i miss the laughter, the stories, the sillyness, the sharings, everything!! i wonder how long does it take though i feel that things will never go back to normal again. a breather is what all needs before things get back to normal, but then ... so much for the thought of making things normal.

i can't stop wondering have i really opened a pandora box?

Not My Kind

but the thought that counts ...........

i met her during my almamater's reunion last year. we managed to stay in touch through the indonesian community's mailing list. though she's married and i have a *life* of my own, we tried to meet up as and when we can. i do have to give her loads of credit for never giving up on suggesting dinner or just a mere catching up. and earlier today, we met for awhile as i have a tennis game to catch *though we ended up playing for 10mins and went home afterwards*. chat over lunch she gave me this little pressie made by her own hands. isn't it so sweet of her? it's not my kinda ring but still, i was touched and a little embarassed for not making a better effort in catching up.

The Verdict

my boss is no longer my boss. one person resigned due to pride being under her. the CIO said few of us should be moving to area role instead of sticking in country. what role? who's my boss? how is the people management gonna be now that my *future* boss might not be in SG? IT should be happy now that my boss is the country lead. we on the other hand can only look at the new structure chart playing the guessing game

I Want to Break Free

wouldn't it be great if i can just switch everything off for awhile ?

or maybe even for a long time ...

History

history will never repeat itself

- not when you forbid it

- not when you learnt from the past and do things differently from there onwards

- not when you're in charge of yourself

fool me once .. shame on you

fool me twice .. shame on me!!!

Choices

two people - however close they are - can (or maybe even will always?) have totally opposite views on life. one who doesn't really know what (s)he want will never feel satisfied. when you only know what you don't want in life, you'll end up searching for more even when you don't really know what is that you're searching for. while one who face life reastically might end up compromising the situation (s)he faced. watch this movie, and you'll get what i mean.
life is after all full of choices. either you accept it or not. either you stay commited to what you decide or keep on changing your mind. nothing's perfect anyway. be happy and contented with what you have - that's the key. but then again, isn't life more excited with some adventure in it? makes me wonder ....

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as for you my friend - hope you had a good time. yes i broke my promise on just being a listener. i talked. hey, i can't help it. i made you laugh anyway :). really hope you get your issues settled fast ...

Youth Without Youth

one word: confusing. an old man who - after struck by a lightning - is given a chance to do things he always dream of doing/achieving. when everything is perfect - is it too good to be true? how can you differentiate dreams and reality? you can be analysing your dreams in your dreams. will you do things differently the 2nd time? will you sacrifice your love one just to get things right now that you're given another chance to do so? complicated lah - at least for me. still as complicated as i think it is, i find the whole plot makes it a very interesting movie to watch.

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The Day I Chucked A Sickie

exactly a week ago, i celebrated Hari Raya. a belated wish, but, Have a Blessed Hari Raya to all celebrating. after a month of fasting, controlling hunger *easy*, emotion *hard!!* and all, we finally got another chance to start anew, start afresh. i personally think my ramadhan this year is better compared to last year's. now the tough part is on mantaining and improving it.

anyways ....

i went home for a week to celebrate it with my family. spent most of my time with my nieces and nephew. did the visiting. munching non stop which resulted in me not feeling 100% great now. met few uni friends for a break fast session. all in all - i enjoyed my trip home. my eldest niece is so adorable that i spent most of my time with her compared to my nephew and the youngest niece. maybe because being 2yrs old, she's at her peak of *cuteness*. though i have to say i had enough of nemo, kungfu panda, and alvin&the chipmunks. its fun watching alvin with my youngest niece around as well, we're all presented with a funny kiddy dance moves. it's fun to have those kids around. the house seems empty when they're out and about. i munched a lot as well that resulted in me having sore throat now.

yeah, the minute i reached singapore i started sneezing non-stop. i didn't sleep the 1st night after i was back, only slept like 4hrs the following night and last night, i remembered switching my machine at 4.10am and trying hard to get some sleep. my flu is getting worst that i finally went to see a doctor today. she gave me few medications and asked if i'd like to go home and rest. i said that i'm fine, she then advised me to sleep more. that was when i told her about my sleepless night. she prescribed a mild sleeping pill for me (only 2 pills) and insisted on me going home and rest. so i went to funan to get myself the 3-in-1 scanner and an external harddisk before going home. and i'm glad i did that. with no medication to be taken in the afternoon, i'm pretty fit to play with my new toys soon.