Just Do It!

i am a do-er. well at least i try to be that way nowadays. if i want to do something, i'll find all the info and try to get my hands on it. if i want to watch something i'll ask around and if there's no taker i'll go myself. well of course there are times when i have 2nd thought in doing stuff, and at times i do delay things especially when money is involved. but i try my best to do things i have in mind as soon as i can. delaying it might end up with me not doing it at all. after all, life is too short to live with regrets; just make the best of it. live if to the fullest responsibly. you'll never know when health or even life itself will be taken away from you.

that's one of the reason when i was so much in need of a break and managed to find a low-cost break i booked it without 2nd thought. basically, if i want something i commit myself to it. and i try to be this way in everything i do or want or try.

so, it makes me soo darn itchy to see people kept on saying yes but didn't turn up in the end. to see friends organising stuff only to get disappointed with the final result. to see how things kept on getting delayed and being cancelled in the end for one or another reason.

come on people!! however busy we are we still live in a society and we need to interact. you can't leave your friends behind just because you're now leading a different live. CEOs are busy, donald trump is busy, bill gates is busy, presidents are busy but they still make time for their friends. so should we. just mark you calendar and practise the first come first serve method. We all can do it!

*Thank You*

i love ending the day with a good massage, good food, and good catching up session. we do talk everyday but its always fun to sit face to face and chat. somehow whatever i had in mind before were diminished and apparently i wasn't the only one feeling that way. it might sound bad but i feel glad you are a little insecure as well.

Changes

i'm just so not feeling great nowadays. i guess all the things that i saw makes me realised somehow that things changed and nothing can be the same as few years or even months back anymore. i know this sounds bad, its no one's fault but my own. sometimes it makes me feel jealous of the situation and at times i feel like a disappointment to myself. i know changes are inevitable and i have to adapt to it and honestly sometimes i feel i'm just scaring myself too much when the fact isn't that bad. i tried to ignore it but everytime i see the changes it'll somehow affect me.

actually, it happened before and i remember feeling like this too but somehow it goes back to normal if not better. i guess that's the reason, because it gets pretty more interesting than what it used to be so it is much much harder to face it. hearing or reading about all that doesn't help either.

i guess i just have to learn to adapt myself to all these changes again. i know it takes time. i know i can't change myself drastically but i still have to make changes here and there. life is afterall full of changes.

30% Done, 70% To Go

i'm finally home. sometimes i feel that i need to take a leave just to recuperate from a weekend. anyways, managed to cover 8 houses today. came back with a brand new cough from the drinks and cookies, a scratch from chomel, my auntie's cat; two bruises on my hand courtesy of manja, my other aunt's cat who bit me *i hope there's nothing to be worried about apart from the slight numbness feeling though* and of course a few inches wider. whatever i burnt this morning is definitely back and might even be doubled if not tripled.

enough internet for the day. no more facebook. no more emails. no more chatting. no more blogs. i need to complete the translation now.

Its Done but Its Not Over

i'm done with the real run! what a drama. i nearly missed it. 2 alarm clocks didn't help at all. i woke up only when i heard an incoming message. and it was 6.30! brushed teeth, washed face, changed my clothes and off i go. no sunblock or whatsoever! took a cab to the place to be fast but of course we got lost 1st. its pretty remote but thankfully i still managed to get there before 7 am. the signal was bad that i couldn't make a call nor send a message out so i was a bit unsure if i'd meet the other 3 but i decided to wait at the bag area and i was pretty happy to see xueni there. met the other 2 then 3 of us went to the start line as raj is doing the 15km.

to be honest, i am disappointed with myself. well i did try to reason with the fact that after back from my trip home i felt sick hence no running *apart from last wednesday* and i couldn't sleep last night. but still i am disappointed. i ran until slightly over km3, stopped for a drink and started walking. i think i walked for about 1km or so but since then i started to switch from walking to running. the trail run was disappointing 'cos its just like running in the park but the sand run was a bit tough. the last 2km is definitely the toughest for everyone as the sun was scorching and we're actually running towards it. i could feel my head getting heavy from the heat that i *again* switch from running to walking. it was bloody hot and i didn't have any protection on me. sigh

anyway one off the to-do list and i have to start preparing myself for the standchart run, at least i have to improve my own timing, eh. saw raj passed me by twice earlier - during the 1st 3km and at the last 2km. and he's doing the 15km which started 15mins later than us! and to think i had more food than him during our early lunch just now is such an embarrassment.

thought of spending the rest of the day in bed or simply relaxing? i can only dream about hat. got another run to do - hari raya visiting. i have run out of excuse to delay this and since my cousin is going back to dubai in 2 days time, i guess it's just right to do it now. ciao...

ARGH...

1.19 am and i'm still wide awake. only had like 4 hrs of sleep yesterday that i feel so so sleepy now but i simply just couldn't sleep! i am supposed to be running in 5 hours time! already lack of practice now i will also be lack of energy. my left nose is blocked again. i am not fully recover and yet i'll be sick again it seems. bugger!

i should've not bought that jug of pepsi. i should've not bought that jug of pepsi.

i should've not bought that jug of pepsi. i should've not bought that jug of pepsi.

i should've not bought that jug of pepsi. i should've not bought that jug of pepsi.

i should've not bought that jug of pepsi. i should've not bought that jug of pepsi.

i should've not bought that jug of pepsi. i should've not bought that jug of pepsi.

i should've not bought that jug of pepsi. i should've not bought that jug of pepsi.

i should've not bought that jug of pepsi. i should've not bought that jug of pepsi.

i should've not bought that jug of pepsi. i should've not bought that jug of pepsi.
i should've not bought that jug of pepsi.

Bad Bad Bad ...

everything doesn't seem to be on my side today.

woke up with a slight headache. only managed to spend 30 mins doing few pages of translation before meeting friends. volley wasn't great as well, only played twice and most of the time i just stood there doing nothing, the only thing i did good was serve and i spent most of the time hitting the ball the wrong way. being in a 4 ppl team didn't help either 'cos they're all the experts who's practising on certain skill. my sunglasses need to be fixed as it got slanted when the ball hit my face. i think i am more of a chiller today, spending most of the time by the court with a jug of drink chit chatting instead of practising. and now my body isn't feeling that great when the real run is just few hours away. thank God the movie was good, so it kinda give me a consolation. ms. tatou, what do you expect, eh. well, i am after all one of her fans :)

Game Over

do you know there's a fifth avenue in Singapore? well, if you do pardon my ignorance then. but yes i knew about this just few months back as my friends are staying there. and so i went there today for the friday games night. first avenue, second avenue, third avenue, fourth avenue, sixth avenue, and fifth avenue is just right there. a very nice place indeed.

anyways, it was a night full of fun. the lady said that they had the right to ask us to leave at 1 or 2 am but they didn't do so that we decided to leave by 3 am. we played ultimate jinga *new record - 35!*, the infamous whizz boing bounce bang, the trivia quiz *though i don't know 90% of the answer* and few others. i should say thanks to J as he drank the drinks that's supposed to be my punishment for screwing up during the game. he's so cute, trying to make few cocktails for others to drink but only one - ONE! that was deemed acceptable to drink. it was a lovely night spent with lovely friends indeed. i really like this couple - the wife, although very strong opionated she's very caring and the man is simply superb. she's uber lucky to have him as a hubby, everyone agrees upon that for sure, well apart from she herself of course.

now i'm faced with the fact that i haven't finish translating the course material when it's supposed to be send to the school tomorrow oooppsss i mean later. being a teacher is tough. i haven't earn a single penny but yet i have spent few $$ calling my friend back home asking the formal bahasa *wink at juwi*

arrgggh. i give up. i'm going to bed now.

Getting Back On Track

• monday - none - black eyed peas concert, which was AWESOME by the way
• tuesday - bodycombat
• wednesday - 5 click run
• thursday - bodycombat
• friday - spinning during lunch
• saturday - volley from afternoon 'til we can't see the ball anymore
• sunday - real run, 10 click *stress!!*
• monday - collapse

and then the mood will be gone again. hahahahahahaha

i'm not laughing with me, i'm laughing at myself!

Course and Combat

so i signed the contract for teaching just now. this must be very very very interesting as apparently i'll be facing 24 or 25 police! i'll be conducting the course for the sg police force. my goodness, i hope i do well .. really!! now all i need is to prepare the course structure based on what's given to me. i really really really need luck here.

on another note, i finally did combat after weeks of absence. i knew i would be late but i continued to walk to the gym. my motivation is high at the moment and don't ever kill it unless you want to slack again. i was late indeed, but i managed to follow a bit of the 1st track. crowded as usual that i ended up standing at the back corner without many room to move around. by the 3rd track i was breatheless and sweating mad. but i forced myself and since *again* i was in the mood i concentrate on technique and of course shouting. that corner are where newbies like to hide so it's quite interesting seeing them looking at me when i shouted once the track was over.

Last Check

tickets - checked

cash & mobile - checked

house key - checked

great! tata ...

Pro Cons

so i got that bahasa trainer position. its every tuesdays and fridays and starts early november for not sure how long. i already told them my unavailability on the 2nd week of november and they got replacement for that day. it'll start on nov 2nd, D&D! luckily i pulled out of the committee so i guess it's okay if i come late for it. hmm, i'm trying to make a pros and cons list here even when i have sort of committed myself to them.

cons: i wouldn't be able to do things on tuesdays and fridays for few weeks or even if i do, i will always come late for the friday gathering, which i guess is pretty alright. and i couldn't think of a short getaways or attending whatever organised before 9ish. i'll miss tuesdays combat as well, unless i wake up early and attend the morning one.

pros: i got additional income which can be added to my monthly savings. luckily it's november where lots of my friends are on holidays. i will be meeting new people and it'll be a new things to write on my resume.

i remember the finance manager saying that whatever you want to do, do it now. don't delay as you might not know what will happen in the future when we went to visit my sick boss. i guess it's just a new challenge for me and let's see how it goes, eh.

VB - Volley and Boys

slept at 5.30 and woke up around 9 today - pretty crazy but life goes on. went to velocity to collect the race pack - well actually it's the race number and the chip, once chip is returned THEN we will get the race pack - for myself and 3 other friends who aren't in town. went to vivo afterwards to meet a friend for a lunch-cum-sharing session before VB. hoorraayy.

after so long i finally scored - SCORED! not from serving, not from normal-hit-turn-lucky but from really aiming the ball i hit to the right position. no spike nor dig for now but i was soo happy and everyone were high five-ing and cheering me, though i screwed up several times afterwards - mostly from my wrong way of hitting. i guess this was the longest game - in terms of serious game - i had since i joined. i was like playing 4 sets in a row until we couldn't see the ball anymore. honestly i was a bit breathless as well 'cos i am still unwell.

went to ramen tan for dinner as one of the boys is working there so of course we have to support, eh. we tried to be funny and be the worst customers ever with lots of requests. one of the boys got a plate with his name written with mayo as requested. i really like those boys and i treat them as brothers i never had, after all they're 20, 19, and 18 in ages. i wasn't close to them yet because apart from not commenting much during game *pressure man pressure*, i tend to leave early during fasting month or there's always something on afterwards. this is the 1st time i went back and spent time off court with them. we suggested that one of the boys take over next week's vb as the person in charge will be away. he was a bit stressed up and started practising by taking care of those dannish guys who wanted to join us for dinner. i told him to tell me straightaway after he sends the announcement so that i could reply to it asap to give him my support. he was so happy and i can see the eagerness from his eyes.

ah, those kids - looking at them joking around, playing pranks to each other, calling a couple in the group mama and papa - really make me wish i could return to my school days

CRAZY

definitely one crazy friday night which i hope wouldn't happen again!

left my key *again* inside the room as i was rushing off that i had to ask my flatmate to call and handle the locksmith. thank goodness she's always home early.

went to the coach event, but unlike last year this year's event was smaller hence the less crowd. fashion show was good and because of the lack of space the model went down the runaways and walked past through us so we could see the goodies more up close. saw one of cali's trainer there and that malaysian girl who hosts live the dream - pretty!! oh and the souvenir wasn't that bad either though last year's was better.

from dempsey road we went to introbar to meet up with friends, chit chatted awhile before heading back to oosh at ... DEMPSEY road!! crazy indeed but then again i've promised to do intro and i just found out about this birthday stuff today. since it's one of the girl's birthday so what better to do than please a birthday girl right?. we stayed there for soo long even after the place was closed we were still there. with all the games and stuff that i finally decided to make a move instead of waiting for the others who's actually staying nearby. but somehow me and another friend who left together spent more than an hour talking at the bus stop. we decided to give it a stop after i got no more voice. the taxi driver told me that he passed by several times and we're still there talking, hehe.

i am feeling a little guilty now because the reason i do intro was because a friend called me and asked if i'm heading there and i said okay, but when i was there i didn't spend time talking to her! merely a hi how are you, sigh.

also i kinda saw the part of one close friend of mine that i've never see before and it is pretty scary. oh well, everyone is responsible for their own life. as long as i stay true to my belief and myself i believe i'm fine.

let's see if i can wake up in time later to collect the race packs before heading for volley ball.

Love is Cinta

it was on RCTI last week, during eid but i felt asleep in the middle of the movie thanks to the cough mixture. the following day my bro-in-law told me there was a flood in madrasah 2, referring to my sister's tears from watching it. my sis said it was good so i was a bit curious and annoyed to have fallen asleep.

today i browsed youtube in search of the movie and of course i found it. a mix of ghost-ghost wisperer-impossible-chicklit, it brought me to tears as well when it came to the part of the main lead and his parents. go watch it and simply ignore the impossibility and the girl's teeth.

Being Anne Geddes

a picture is worth a thousand words. pictures are worth million then...

Dan:s

Returning to her roots, childhood and the beginning of her adventure in flamenco, the acclaimed María Pagés presents Sevilla, a sumptuous paean to the beautiful city of her hometown, Seville.
Featuring the exquisite virtuosity of Pagés and her outstanding dancers and musicians from Compañía María Pagés, Sevilla transports audiences to a sultry evening of revelry. One of the leading innovators in the development of modern flamenco, Maria Pages became an international name when she was featured in Riverdance and has since been highly decorated with the National Dance Award, the highest honour for dance in Spain.

just came back from the dan:s festival - awesome dance. though i was coughing and almost vomitted once i had a great time. the dance was smooth, and perfectly choreograph. i couldn't understand most of the spanish words apart from como and few others i always hear from ricky martin's song all i know its a story about maria from seville. once over i asked a friend of mine, who's a spanish native, about the whole story. she herself couldn't understand all of the words especially the singing part so i feel better hehe. its basically about the event that happens in seville. nice ...

Unpredictable

few days ago i shared with dad about my wants and wishes, about my dreams and plans, about my friends, about how much things out there i have yet to explore, i want to explore, i need to explore and stuff. he told me that as much as i want to do things, i have to remember to save as well in case something happens and i'll be out of job. of course as much as i want to do things, i still consider all that.

i just remember dad's words again after hearing a news that a friend of mine, a sole bread winner of her family, was asked to resign today. i really hope she could cope with the fact 'cos even though she sounded fine when i talked to her earlier this kinda thing is definitely a shocking news.

wish you all the best my friend.

and dad, thanks for the reminder....

ps. i'm on 2 days sick leave.

the doctor said i seriously need to be on antibiotic and that i shouldn't object her giving me 2 days of rest. this time around, i agree with her

Argh!!

i can't sleep!!!!! !^$@#!#^##%)!$%)$!(($!_$!{$^{!($

must be that darn pepsi light i requested for! the non-stop cough and blocked nose don't help either. sigh ...

i was a little bit afraid when i blew my nose and saw the phlegm was red in colour. must be mixed with blood from too much blowing. but i couldn't stop my mind from running wild. last tuesday i refused when the doctor wanted to give me a sick leave. i am planning to see them again tomorrow and i won't refuse if i get one. honestly, i am so very much in need of it. and now i am so very tempted to eat the hhb's shrimp roll i bought earlier.

sigh, okay. enough. stop complaining!!! count your blessings!!!

i am happy to open the mailbox to find that :-

• i finally received the cheque from IDA, 50% reimbursement from the course i took in july
• somehow i won a 'winnie the pooh and tigger' sleeping bag from subscribing to playhouse disney during their free preview month *i didn't know its free preview, else i won't be that stupid to subscribe it!*. my nephew should be thrill upon getting it later
• i got the PMBOK cd from PMI. apparently i also received a certificate for being a PMI member. woh! that cool huh. but i should also remind myself - IT'S TIME TO START STUDYING!!

on another note, will be visiting boss at her house during lunch time tomorrow. somehow she's still on sick leave. hmm, more than a week eh. i hope she gets back to work soon. i hope she will get that 50% chances of recovery instead of totally loosing her hearing. lets see how it is tomorrow. actually, its not tomorrow - its later!!! and i'm still wide awake ...

BACK

i'm back in singers again!!!!!! as much as i drag coming back here, knowing piles of works await me after those phone calls i received during my holiday and the fact that i won't be seeing my nieces and nephew when i wake up in the morning, i can't deny the fact that i am happy to be back to my friends and activities again.

somehow though, i'm back with a slight fever and my cough has worsen. to top that up, i have a flu! well, my own fault for spending almost half-a-day at ocean park today. it was fun though i felt worst afterwards. i had the worst landing experience earlier, my ears and my head were like they're going to burst anytime soon that i almost cried and i tried very very hard not to scream the word 'mummy' out loud. oh, somehow i ended up seating in the same row with sandy and his wife on my flight here - haha, a small world indeed.

i know i should do my prayer and go to bed soon as i'm working later but i missed soo much on what's happenning here that i think spending my time on facebook is much more important - hahaha .. pathetic eh.

Timeout

finally.. time to relax

it's been crazy day as usual on the 1st day of eid, with dad being the eldest uncle, cousin and all. just counted and 19 bottles of softdrink finished today. no more cakes left, i didn't got a chance to taste the truffle, when mum actually made 2 of that! thank god mum made one cheesecake specially for us and my sis' in-laws. else ..

i've been sleeping during day time since i arrived much to mum's annoyance. so from friday morning i decided to skip the cough mixture 'cos i suspect that's the culprit and i am right. problem was now i couldn't have a good night sleep after having too much sleep. and now i'm barking like mad - must be from all the cookies i had earlier.

on another note, i browsed facebook and looked at the pictures from the 3-in-1 birthday bash last night. it looks fun and i'm sure it was a great one. mixed feeling here. how so i wish it'd be celebrated next week but then again after 'marking attendance' i am the only one who couldn't make it this week. oh well ...

on yet another note, i drag tomorrow. time to repay the visit and with both sisters married i am the only one who will go with my parents, hence no way i could skip certain house like how the two of them can skip. ugh ...

like today both sisters are out with their respective others and children *btw, to my sister's annoyance i call my newborn niece mimin haha* while i am at home still waiting for guests to arrive. sigh

but anyways, it was a fun tiring awesome exhausting day. i think last year's record was broken when 7 cars arrived at one go today that we have to break the feasting in 4 rounds.

Heaven Is:

• breaking fast with dishes from the padang resto. mum's busy with the cheesecake orders (6!!) that we insisted on her not to cook
• drinking teh botol - they came out with a 1 litre box now!!
• munching 'kacang atom pedas' while waiting for the MUI announcement
• eating siomay just for the sake of eating - a friend who came to collect the book he asked to get for him commented on how big i am !!
• eating mi tek tek as soon as i post this

already in line :- pempek for tomorrow!

ps. it is a bit funny, everything in blogger written in bahasa! - 'mempublikasikan posting', 'moderasi komentar', 'tunjukkan semua', 'lebih lanjut' dsb dbs ..

Argh...

i have yet to get my luggage, go home and do my packing before flying home later. *home is such an ambigous word for me*
i have yet to buy few packs of ice-cube from 7-11 and cover my plants with it so as it's still 'hydrated' during my trip.
and my sis called - food order. okay i could get it on my way home later
then my 1st task for tomorrow - sending my niece to the doctor. fine by me, a way of bonding anyway since i'm not close to her now. i did all these with my nephew that everytime i'm home he only wants me to bathe him, to feed him, to put him to bed, until to clean him after doing his business. now that he's big i kinda miss it - so i am happy i could be doing all that again with my niece.
my sis called again to add more food order. at the same time i asked how many maids are at home so that i could get something for them as well. and my sis told me they're all leaving tomorrow. darn!! i don't know if it's fate or just my luck - everytime i go home, it's either the maid goes home or the babysitter is taking the day off. sigh

Important Number

after stuffing myself with food and ice-cream *and chocolate and fruits and cookies* we went for a walk. the initial intention was to get myself a luggage. what i want is either over my budget or not my colour. i guess i'll just go back to oub centre and get it from there tomorrow. this will be interesting, 1/2 day leave - get a luggage - reach home - pack in a rush and leave again for my 6pm flight.
anyways, i was lazy to take train or bus so i joined the taxi queue. my friend told me about a taxi driver she and her workmates frequent. got the number and called him. less than few minutes i was on my way home! chatted with the taxi driver along my journey home about this booking via him, bypassing the call centre. he said he and his team will talk to each other and find a taxi for whoever calls any of them and it's always confirmed there will be one available as his members are from all the taxi company. i asked about the call centre and the on-call sign. he said if you see an empty taxi with a busy sign - that might be one of us. i assure him that he'll be receiving calls from me quite often. at the same time i asked if i could distribute his numbers to friends and families, and he said yes. so let me know if anyone is interested - this is very very useful duing the peak hours where you can't get through the call centre.

Just My Luck

and what a luck it is.
i decided to proceed with the payment for the PMP certification after they responded that i wouldn't be able to look at the schedule until i do the payment. this way i can't turn my back on taking the exam and i have to push myself to study.
did it during lunch time and then continued with the documentation i was working on. just released the application like 10 minutes ago together with the change register and stuff i decided to take a 5mins breather by checking my yahoo email.
tada!! an email from the PMI organisation with the following message - 'your application has been randomly selected for auditing'. dang!! so i have to print out all the things needed for their auditing, the information i submitted to them before and get my boss to approve it. i have to submit my certificates as well, including the 2 PMP courses i attended. it's nothing dodgy of whatsoever but just WHY ME?
and to think i can take a breather ...

Random Thoughts

another sleepless night - thank you coke!

to kill time, i browsed facebook now that a friend has posted pictures from last week's VB session. looking at them strengthen my determination to lose weight. after hari raya, which means next week. i hope the determination doesn't evaporate by then. honestly, i still wonder how i could do it before but not now.

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a friend's birthday today. i'll miss the celebration as i will be home next week. she mentioned about rescheduling if people can't make it. well the following week another friend couldn't make it. and another one the week after. then most of them in 3 weeks time. it's the time of the year where people are travelling. i'm sure everybody can't wait for january to come, where everyone's back in town and things go back to normality again.

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called home earlier, confirming on my visit home. since it's fasting month i asked only the driver to fetch me. problem is that it's a new driver so we wouldn't recognise each other. my sis told me that the driver will carry a board with my name on it. alamak! dad & my bro-in-law agree on that, hence no chance of wishing dad will be there. shhh...

at the same time i had a chat with my nephew who asked why i didn't call him as regular as i used to. well, he's saying more 'whys' in each conversation that sometimes left me dumbfounded. he gets critical now which was good but bad for my pocket. the last time i called home he asked what is internet explorer. and when i answered anyhow, he 'explained' to me about information go to satellite and then sent to each machine *faint*. he actually gave me some explanation on earthquake as well after the recent earthquake back home. i guess i have to read that kids ensyclopedia on my coming trip home. one that really stuck in my mind was:

aa, if i talk to you 1000 minutes you pay how much?

maybe 1,000 dollars

if 1 million thousand minutes?

i don't know .. okay ya bye

hey, aa baby - i want to talk with you

if you talk to me so long later i have to pay expensive

nevermind

later i don't have money to buy you present

*change in tone* you buy me gun ya

nana *my dad* said cannot play with gun right?

but i want to shoot the duck

hey, cannot shoot ducks. later Allah angry

then i shoot thief

cannot also. Allah is angry you know if you shoot what He makes

so cannot kill anything?

iya

then i can kill what?

emm.. maybe mosquito if it bites you

who make mosquito?

*i sense trouble* Allah

just now you said cannot kill what Allah make. now you said can kill mosquito?

you see?? and i wonder why my phone bill is skyrockety high

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2 more days before flying home. yay! supposed to go to airport directly from office but after seeing the stuff i need to bring home, seems like i need to get a big luggage and i don't think i want to bring that kinda bag to office. let's see if i can negotiate with boss to go home at 3.30.

decided to bring down the luggage earlier for tomorrow's packing. that was when i realised there was a littler issue with the zip. it's still usable but itchy hand, i tried to move the other zip to that place and kinda spoiled the bag. its either i get a new bag tomorrow or used 2 cabin luggages for all the stuff. i know the bag will be empty on my way back here anyway. let's see how it is later i guess.

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i thought it was Grey's Anatomy i was watching, but how come it is nip/tuck now? time does fly. which reminds me of the chat i had with the colour technician earlier today. he said it could be because of people are getting more mature that we feel time flies faster than usual. especially in singers where everything is in fast paced. time does fly faster here compared to back home. but then again i don't do much stuff when i'm home, so his theory about the fast paced thingy is pretty acceptable.

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oh well, i think i'll just start counting sheep now.

On Race and Slipper

a conversation i had with the colour technician earlier today:-

ct: deepavali is coming soon right?

me: yes, but no i don't celebrate it. i celebrate hari raya

ct: *looking embarrased*

ct: so you'll wear baju kurong ah?

me: no

ct: oh, so you're the modern one ah?

me: we don't practise wearing baju kurong in indonesia

ct: but you malay mah

me: i'm not

ct: indian muslim right? so malay lah

me: indian is my race. islam is my religion. like your race is chinese. don't know what is your religion though

ct: *looking confused* is there a chinese muslim?

me: yes, so are they malay?

ct: *smiling* so chinese muslim is the best one lor - celebrate hari raya and chinese new year

me: yeah

another person with a misconception that race = religion. i just hope he could understand the difference now. luckily he looks not bad so explaining this to him is not a 'streneous' task too.

on another note, i broke my slippers while crossing from paragon to ngee ann city. such an embarrassment to drag myself to the nearest shop and get a new pair.

I Am

dehydrated. burnt. exhausted.
it's been a hot vb game for the last few weeks. we joked that m brought the cloud back home to blighty that we're left with nothing but scorching sun. 2 weeks ago the sun was hot that i literally jumped in court. last week was the same but i toned down due to the fasting. and same goes for this week. the difference? the sand was way hotter than 2 weeks ago. i reached there put my bag and had a chat while waiting for the on-going game to be over. once done i went in and joined the new game. halfway through game with loads of jumping i realised - i hadn't apply sunblock on! the point was still 12-8 that i just bare the itchiness i started to feel. once game was over i knew it was a little too late but i still applied. we took a sun break and played again. it was darn hot that everyone decide to take a break everytime a game is over. few people actually wore socks, which wasn't a bad idea. i decided 3 game is enough and spent time chilling for a while. those jugs of pepsi, ribena soda *which i have yet to try* were very tempting in that kind of weather. after joining the group practicing awhile i decided to go home. everyone was surprised but i reminded them that i was fasting and actually my skin was starting to feel more itchy as well.
bought food for breaking my fast, a big bottle of coke light that will definitely be gone tonight - regardless of my cough that sounds more like a bark and the possibility of another sleepless night after drowning that much coke, i took a cab home.
now i'm applying aloe vera and mask on myself. my feets are pain from the scorching sand. i sense a peeling coming soon. and to think i'm heading home soon! oh well, i'll take all these as a parting gift from sentosa considering i wouldn't be going there next week.
on another note, i finally made the islander card. it's about blxxdy time. yay!

'So You're On Facebook?'

i guess that's the pretty common question asked among new friends nowadays. and i did ask that earlier when this person commented on how he would be facebook deprived now that his company banned it. we then started talking about facebook, me telling him on how i created an account there in early august if not late july but only started being active in mid august. he on the other hand told me how facebook has been part of his life for the last 3 years (!!!) when his uni was one of the first 3 that started using it. i was talking about how i was kinda hook on it now and about all sorts of application that can be found there only to get a response about the initial objective of facebook, the reason of poking, the profile thingy and stuff. i listened and commented here and there while my mind was trying to recall how many applications i have in mine now, i'm pretty sure its way lesser than what i had when i started - zombie, werewolfs, vampires, pet dragon; basically you name it i might've tried it once.
so it's no brainer that the 1st thing i did when i reached home was to check on the numbers of applications i have on my profile.
hmmm... ah, don't care! i love my profile just the way it is.

Contemplating

i'm still contemplating on executing my plan later.
should i do it? why should i? what's wrong with not doing it? what's the matter if i do it? am i not the one wanting more practice in that area?
one thing for sure, i am going out of my comfort zone if i really do it. but then again, if i don't do it i will be stuck in the same situation again and again.
hmm ...

Mission (partly) Accomplished

few more days before going home and i have not much time left to get all the stuff. as usual i never ever want to get something for hari raya until i've pass the 2nd week of fasting. as usual mum will nag if i still haven't get it when it's already the 3rd week and she always used the same statement, 'if you can go get a new clothes for party why can't you get one for hari raya. good day good month. you can splurge on stuff, spend a little for the holy day'.
well, i'm trying not to get that advise this year and since i have to get my sister's order for my niece might as well i find one for myself as well. i called my aunt to accompany me to get present for my newborn niece and at the same time help me in finding one dress for me. so went to little india during lunch to find the saree for my niece. very cute!! at the same time i managed to find one punjabi for myself, not planned but somehow i need to own more punjabi with several weddings coming in few month's time.
met my aunts after breaking fast and we went to geylang where i got myself a baju kurong and a freaking cheap punjabi for home ware - $10!
so happy that i managed to complete my own stuff in one day. all i need now is to complete mum's order before end of the week.

When Priorities is Set Wrongly

as known, monday is my tennis day. i didn't fast on the 1st monday of tennis, no session last week, so yesterday was my 1st tennis during fasting month. as usual i will meet the girls after i'm done with praying and stuff. but yesterday was a totally different experience for me. since we moved to this new building, i'm having problem with praying. there's no place cater for female that we still do it at the old building. but now that it's already closed, ready to be demolished, the only place to do is the mosque at UOB plaza. quite a distance, but what to do...
even for the past fasting months, i normally do my gym then rushed of to the mosque for my prayer. so yesterday was the 1st time i waited for maghrib in the mosque. as soon as the time comes, i did my prayer and left. i didn't wait for the rest because they're still eating whatever food provided, which smells good actually. everyone looked at me puzzled which wasn't a surprise - i was there with my bag, my carrier and my racket. i pretended not to know, opened the door to leave. shoot!! the hallway was full with males breaking fast together. there's no way i could leave the place that i went inside and waited again. few ladies asked if i have jacket to wear so that i can walk through (i am wearing short sleeve). since i didn't have one, i waited for like 15 minutes and then left, trying to pass through a throng of males. managed to go out and i took my phone out to call my friends informing them that i'm on my way. i missed the step and fell down. thank God there's a stone bench in front of me that kinda stopped me from falling flat. with my long skirt and all i know it's definitely not a pleasant view.
so after all that incident, i reached the meeting place and had to wait like 10 mins for the rest to arrive. darn! i kinda feel like all that happened is a 'sign' from the big Guy up there 'cos like it or not i have to admit that i rushed things with Him just for a tennis game. if i take things slowly, i could've done the prayer together with the rest and i would've left just at the right time without missing that one stupid step.

Random Thoughts ...

this year's fasting month is a bit different from the last few years i had. why? well, a lot of people who's not observing it kinda break fast together with me and i think i spend almost every weekend explaining the purpose of fasting, what are the dos and don'ts - a lot!
just like the saturday vb. when i missed one serve a friend shouted to give me a break as i'm fasting. everybody in court was amazed with the fact that i am observing it and still managed to play vb. well the sun was scorching i have to admit that i took it slow, but it's not my 1st time fasting! when i was chilling, taking a break from the sun, a friend told the other chillers that i am fasting - another round of 'woh'. while we were walking back again the information was passed to the guy who walked home with us and again a surprise look.
another interesting part is that though i am the one fasting yet everyone else are the ones busy with breaking fast. one kept on looking at his watch, one asked me to sit while she took whatever i want, one ensure that i had enough fluid as soon as the time to break fast came, one almost stopped me from searching for a coke, and all sort of thing that makes me feel like an invalid. even i had to insist on walking as they're afraid i have no energy left.
they respect me, that's for sure. they waited until i'm done with all my duties before we do stuff. i am touch with their attitude. honestly a lot of people have a wrong impression about islam, especially with all the things that happen in the world. sometimes i wonder what is on their mind when someone asked why i don't order alcoholic beverages and i answered its due to my religion. but all these kindness shown during my fasting month makes me happy and confidence that friendship has no boundaries. and i hope i too make them understand my religion better.