Detox Detox Detox

again i went to the live recording of the may lee show. i got an email for the ticket. the topic 'women travellers in asia' caught my attention. why not. good that i went, it was the last recording for the season and they're doing other season in another country - hongkong, korea, india, sydney - basically to make it more regional. it was a good one and it'll be aired on aug 12. i hope they continue with season 2, 3, and so on and i believe its getting more and more attention now.
after the show, we went to have some dinner - a huge one i might add. i thought this can't be going on again and again. so i told my friend about the detox i did once as per my trainer's advise. i failed then, succumbed to a temptation called pizza, and i want to do it again. i was hoping to get her in. i was quite surprise when she said yes as never once have i ever hear her say 'yes' to something healthy. good good, now i just need to find the right weekend to do so. and it just hits me, why not ask others and plan something on the 1st day. it can be a potluck with detox-certified stuff, starting the 1st day together, motivating each other and so on. of course at the end of the 3rd day everyone has to share their experiece, be it a success or a failure. hmm, you think?

Flip Flop

its friday. although HR sent email about the casual dress-code that has been seriously violated, most of us still don't care. today i wear a denim skirts that has lots of loose ends, a t-shirt and a sandal. after all there's no meeting or whatsoever today.
suddenly boss called and asked me to attend to a partner's request. i made a comment about my attire and she simply laughed. so i went down hoping i won't be seeing any other partners that know me on my way there. i am still not familiar with who's where in this building and just my luck, i took the wrong door and ended up having to make one big round passing few partners room before seeing his secretary. its very quiet and the only sound you can hear is the 'flip flopping' sound of my sandal. reaching the room i looked into the issue and apparently its something to do with the new lotus application. i need to go up and talk to the programmer about this. darn, another round of walking. hey, at least now i know which door to enter. wrong!! the 2nd time i went down i made the same mistake. hopefully they enjoy the flip flopping sound :).

One Down, Many To Go

so i did the payment. no turning back. i hope this is worth it. at least one point has been ticked off from my to-do list.
speaking of to-do list, i had a chat with a dear friend yesterday. she has a list of things to do before hitting the big three-O. skydiving was checked 2 days ago. covering the 5th continent is next. she asked me if i had one before. my answer was 'yes' then i elaborated on how i had lots on my mind but due to one or another reason, mostly me not really working towards achieving it, few years gone by with few items still haven't been ticked off. oh well, lets hope one day with God's permission i can have a list with everything ticked off.

Another Sleepless Night

i can't sleep again!! 2 days in a row. slept at 3, awake by 6ish. God knows what time i'll be able to sleep today. darn you pepsi!!! oh well, can't complain much. hello!! another day to weekend, no excuses for complains.
speaking of weekend, that'll be the night of christina's concert. blimmey expensive made me decided not to go. i read yahoo! news earlier that spice girls have reunited and planning on a world tour in dec-jan. now this might be interesting. but for this part of the world, the nearest will be hongkong or sydney. hmm
i wonder when will i be sleepy today. need to wake up early for the breakfast, eh. with only 2 of us around we decided to make it at 8ish instead of the usual 7.45. i've decided the place for 3 times in a row now. guess i'll sit back and relax while the others work their brain cells coming out with ideas on where to go next. i might suggest post express deli, though. been eyeing this place for quite some time. how to loose weight, eh?
on another note, i received yet another letter from the library. this is the 2nd time that the book i reserved is unavailable. too many people reserving it before me i reckon. but its a bit disappointing though. i hope the 3rd book won't turn out to be unavailable after a long period of waiting eh.
speaking of book, i kinda promised myself to do revision on my french. 2 weeks gone by and i have yet to open the 1st page. cannot like that all the time eh, i really need to push myself harder. have to. must!
gym. french. so many things need to be put back on track. i've already tell one gym member that i might be joining her doing club hopping one of these days. imagine them going to orchard for the 8.50 combat after done with the 6.30 class just now. i'm pretty sure my ex-trainer will scream if she finds out i follow this gym-groupies though. i wonder if i ever can go back to being the gym freak i was before. when was the last time i did pump again? weight training? haha .. slacking BIG BIG time, so sad to look at the mirror seeing all the muscles i built gone just like that.
no. cannot. i must force myself to sleep now. nite nite.

STUPID!

after thinking that it might be the battery's fault, i took the battery from the other remote control and used it for the supposedly spoiled remote. and TADA!! it works! stupid idiot me. why didn't i think of that before. i mean yes i did get a new battery but never had it occured to me the problem lies in the battery. and also stupid customer service asked me to throw the old remote because of the corrosion without ever think of testing it. sigh, its my fault full stop. no point pointing fingers. now all i need to do is call the service centre again tomorrow and try to sweet talk as best as i can asking if i can return the new one back. wish me luck!!

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just had a chat with mum. basically updating her on what happened yesterday. of course i included the part about the blue-green eyes and get lectured afterwards, hehe. its just a view, mum - nothing more. i also told her about my web-chat with my niece and nephew last night, how surprised i was to see that my niece is bigger than her bro. at the end of the talk, she reminded me not to 'play around' with my prayer. she told me that i am still included in her prayers and she gave me the normal heart-warming advice. it brought tears in my eyes. of course i know i am and will always be in your prayer, mum.

Tamally Maak

a friend gave me the mp3 of a song from one of the hindi movie last year,saying its an adaptation of an arabic song. i kinda like the song and asked my sis to find for the original one. of course i asked my uncle who's a big fans of arabic song and he too said its a nice song. so having nothing else to do i searched for it. i remember dedicating one post in my blog for this song. lazy to search through LAH. mom always laughed upon hearing me watching or listening to bollywood movie/music. she said when its in the blood its IN the blood.

the hindustani one, adapted for the movie murder :-

original song :-

Wed

went to la mer counter earlier today as i received an invitation about their newly launched product. hey, its la mer! i would never give a miss of attending their invitation when there's free gift waiting for me. yeah, when it comes to the expensive product called la mer i don't mind being branded a cheapskate, hehe. as usual they provided some refreshments and i took two. i thought it should be enough for dinner but once i reached home i still feel hungry. i ate the last chocolate-covered dates my bro-il brought from jeddah. he's spending few months there for work. i wonder how round he'll be once his project is done, knowing how dates are his favourite snack. okay, off track a bit there. anyways, i thought that should be enough for dinner. afterall i had a huge lunch with my workmates trying the new pasta from pizza hut *verdict? not that great*. but i couldn't sleep because my stomach started to make noise. i woke up had a piece of garlic bread and a sip of pepsi. wonderful isn't it. not only my tummy stops growling, my eyes are fully open now.
so .. i went to youtube thinking of finding a movie my friend recommended few months back. i couldn't find it, probably hindi movie is too big to be uploaded. but i found one of the soundtrack which was not bad. not sure about the meaning though, but i guess it has something to do with praising God for creating such a beautiful woman. typical indian songs, with dancing, whistling, and stuff. it's a turn off for me to see a guy dancing like that. but, ricky martin does this too. hmmm

The Eyes

a mixture of light blue and light green - as clear as the ocean showing off what's at the bottom of it. very very mesmerizing. the conversation was good, the eyes was simply bellissimo!! well actually come to think of it, it looks a bit like a wolf. hmm

Remotely Remote

the a/c remote control i ordered finally is available for collection. so i went to the place during lunch time. the place is far and remote, at least for me. decided to live on a budget, i took a train to redhill and waited for the bus. i'm not sure if the bus i was waiting for will pass that place, actually. anyways .. 10 mins, 15 mins, 20 mins .. and the bus wasn't there. i crossed the road and took a cab at the taxi stand. just when i boarded the taxi, the bus came. very nice!! reached there, took a queue, collected my remote. i made a comment on how expensive it was during payment. bloody $87ish for a remote control. i made another comment before leaving saying how remote the place was and the guy only laughed, probably annoyed. went out and i didn't know what bus to take so i hailed a cab asking the driver to send me straight to office. now at home i tried the remote and it doesn't work!! OMG! i already drag the idea of having to go back to that place for an exchange. God knows how long it'll take this time to get a new one. waste of time. waste of money. sigh

Half Full or Half Empty?

if you asked me few months back, i'd say this is a bleak year for me. quite a number of challenges came one after another. boss refused to let me go, hence couldn't get the transfer. server problems. project that didn't run smoothly. mom's surgery. even simple things like losing my card holder twice. its just a card holder, some might say. well mine had not only card but few valuable items in it. more than once i asked God what lies ahead for me, i know that all these are just a test for me to stay humble. without all these rocky paths i might take all the blessings for granted. its a good way of reminding myself that lots of people don't get the blessing i am bestowed with - life. health. family. job. friends. time.
i guess after months of whys, i decided to let it go. instead of just dreaming i started working seriously towards achieving it, reminding myself every now and then that everything has its own time. if it doesn't come true, oh well at least i've tried instead of just sitting and whining. its not the end of the world. think long term instead of short term. and just be thankful for each and every little things that happen in my life. and without you realising it good things start coming back.

Invoke.SG

got an email from MUIS about a new online forum. i suspected it's more targeted to the youths. anyways, i'll be checking it once in a while. surely there's some useful info for me as well there :)

The Picture

everytime i called home my nephew will asked me, 'you see the picture already?' and he let a heavy sigh out everytime i answered no. so now that i have seen the picture my job is to send it to playhouse disney. it all started when i went home few months back and he told me that he wanted his picture to be aired on TV but her mom never want to send his picture. so i asked him to draw one nice picture, i'd bring it home and send it for him. what he drew back then was those characters from little einsteins, complete with the rocket. the problem was he coloured one of the character in dark brown and wrote 'kwinsi' under it. it is quincy, the dark-skin character. lol.

so i told him to draw something nice and asked his mum to send it to me. and apparently since his mom was in-transit here he asked his mum to bring it along. now that the drawing is with me, i need the address. his mom said, 'ask him. he can tell you in detail'. called him last night to get the address. it's true, he told me in one breath - the place, the po box, and the postal code. funny was when i want to confirm if it's 3 1's or 4 1's. he took a deep breath, said 'listen again ya' and repeated the whole information, with the same intonation i heard on TV. haha, hopefully his drawing will be aired soon. i know he never miss watching that segment every saturday.

My Lovely Weekend

my sis was in town for a night. my uncle arrived at the airport. she came out. went to my uncle's place. met the others who's already there. back home. chit chatted. slept. woke at 6 am. did marketing getting mum's last minute orders. met my uncle and my cuz. fetch my aunties. went to little india. breakfast. i got a complaint from my nephew - apparently i picked up my phone, talked, and hung up on him. that's my voicemail, my dear. went back home. went to my late uncle's place to visit my aunt as my sis wasn't around when he passed away last december. feeling a bit guilty 'cos i haven't called her eversince my uncle died. went to city. did some shopping. rushed back home. final packing. went to airport. met an aunt. had lunch. the others arrived. sent her off. went home. alone again.
got some good advises from my uncle and my sister - an eye opener from my uncle and a surprising one from my sister, thanks to you both for that. got some info on my cuz who's studying abroad. and i just realised that it's tough being a man who has a beautiful daughter and handsome sons, just ask my uncle lol.
tired but truly deeply contented.

YES!!!

Ayam Penyet

i tasted this food for the first time few months after i left my job in batam. i tasted it for the first time in batam, on my visit there. so it was good news when i got an info from my auntie that there's a new indonesian restaurant in lucky plaza selling this food few years back. but then the craze of ayam penyet went on. well, not a craze really but it is famous in singapore. typical indonesian, nobody patented this food as indonesian dishes. and now you can see a lot of malay's stall selling 'nasi ayam penyet'. is it the same? a big NO. mostly a just normal fried chicken being bruised, hence the penyet. i tried at several places though and so far the one i like the most is the one at golden shoe. if only we patent that dishes, it will still be one of our unique dish. they've already spoilt the mee bakso, gado-gado, and soto ayam. now this. don't take away our asinan and other signature dishes please.

Finally

after weeks of calling my sister's ex-boss i finally got the news that her referral letter should be ready tomorrow. finally! everytime i called she'd tell me that she'd called me back. i called her 3x yesterday and apparently it worked wonders. my sister's been anxious for the past few days and i think she can relax now that her employment status can be processed. it's tough being a foreigner back home.

And The Thoughts Continue ...

i could not sleep. huhuhihihahahuhu ...

its the last day of workshop tomorrow. hehe, i've been working together with one of my workmate making our ex-workmate curious. we decided to put a tag on our msn that kinda give an idea that we're on leave. away from here. even earlier today i put 'in hawaii' as my tagline. well, we're in the hawaii room, which means i'm not lying. furthermore i know all my contacts know me better than believing i'm really in hawaii. but then my workmate wrote 'in hawaii, behind egypt, across new york' which kinda give away. haha, her game and she blew it off herself.

speaking of training, its quite a good one. being a typical kiasu society, my boss sent 4 person while IT sent 5. i took this opportunity to get to know the 2 new IT guys better. gotta have more allies in that dept if i want my things to be done fast, eh. tactic my friend, tactic. i'm already quite close to one which i call 'shiao zhao' or something like that, which means little boy. that's what the IT guys called him. since i couldn't pronounce his name properly i called him that as well. after all, being 23, he is a little boy.

outcome of the training? i'm sick of vivo city for sure. i now know there's a 30e from harbour front to bedok. and im gonna miss looking at sentosa from the loo. very nice. and of course, the new knowledge too.

can't wait for tomorrow to end. what else but the fact that its weekend! my cousin-in-law lost his father last sunday. losing a father on father's day. what an irony. well i'm not close to this cuz-il of mine, so going to the funeral is enough i guess. i'll skip attending the tahlil on saturday. i felt bad when my aunt called and i said directly that i don't think i'd be attending instead of the usual insyaallah. hey, insyaallah is 99% confirmed when i'm 100% sure i won't come.

anyways i have other plan on saturday night. my sis will be here for a night, transit from shanghai before going home. so i'll spend the time with her visiting an uncle who recently undergone a surgery. apparently the other aunties are going there to meet my sis as well. and of course my uncle already promised to prepare chapati for us. his nepalese maid makes wonderful indian dish. i'm sure the tea is gonna be served too. the only time i drink teh tarik is when they're using my grandfather's tea - 'teh chap pokok kelapa'. thick and rich in flavour. yummy, yummy. can't wait!

another weekend planned. another weekend not spent with the girl who's staying here for a month. well, we have a different lifestyle. she's a party-goer and to be honest i've been avoiding going out with her. funny part was last saturday when i had dinner appointment and she wanted to do clubbing. she ended up going alone and asked me to join once i'm done. my plan was to go home and text her late saying i'm still with my friends. luck was not on my side. i thought since its almost midnight she might've been out enjoying herself. how would i know i'd i bumped into her on my way to the train station. you must be joking!! well, i just told her honestly that i'm lazy. we ended up having dessert and then i showed her the way to her destination club.
well, today we've decide to do something together one day. but definitely not gonna do it her style and definitely not clubbing. i think she knew this as well. apparently she told her friend that the girl who's staying with her is not a party-goer. i think its just nice to spend some time with her apart from having dinner at bedok, at least once before she goes back home early next month.

i'm still not sleepy. i'm still not sleepy. i'm still not sleepy.

i've managed to wake up quite early these past few days. i hope i can continue doing that and get back to my old routine. yupe, here we go. the diet talk. after 3 weeks of break, i went for a run last monday and i didn't stop in between. i did combat on tuesday. and that's the exercise i had this week. i can feel some soreness in my abs now. must be from the conditioning track. i've been skipping the conditioning just to rush for shower. think i won't skip it again.
lots of people were puzzle with the fact i still exercise, though not as regularly as i used to, but why do i still put on weight. i know the answer now. i'm used to exercising much too much that my body is used to that routine. so once i slow down my metabolism slows down as well. if i go back to what i used to do i will maintain my current weight. so in order to loose some, i need to burn more than i used to. of course, i have to alternate cardio and weight to sustain the muscle i build. and remember diet effects 60% of weight loss. guess i have to look into my diet again. hmm.. i think i'll do it one step at a time. i'll try to get back to my routinity before going to the next level. too bad i couldn't take 2 long leaves on July, else i'll be joining my ex-trainer doing muaythai training in thailand. yupe, she's planning on going back for a 10 days course and she's psycho-ing me to join her for 5 days. too bad too bad.

better stop now or i'll end up talking about everything. 'don't you ever get tired of talking?' thats what mum used to ask me. ah mummy mummy. hope you are okay now. please be more careful when you're switching the oven on next time. check the gas, and don't let it on while you're attending to other thing. you're so used to doing this. its a huge oven you got there, the fire is huge. what do you think that makes me scared to switch it on everytime you asked me to? don't get your hair and hand burn again ya. bisous

Random Thoughts..

its my 2nd day of training. so far so good. we are promised not to be disturbed but that's just a theory for me. well i was called last night and ended up coming to work. as i couldn't get hold of my boss i had to go back to work this morning. 6 AM and i was already there. sigh. rushing for the analysis and report to be ready so that i could attend the training on the dot. thank God my boss took pity on me and offered continuing it. why not from yesterday??. done with training. back to office. yeah, because my backup was also 'on leave' i had to rush back to send the HR file which apparently 'can't be hold until tomorrow'. another colleague simply answered 'i prefer not to' when asked if she could assist. doh!. there goes my attending the dinner organised by the global side. back to office i realised that few jobs that's supposed to be finished before 9 AM were not completed. i wonder how the other workmates of mine check it. so i spent time finding the error and called the one who's supposed to handle this. and apparently, the girl who's supposed to assist her did something wrong. instead of deleting the shared files she deleted the country-bound files. tada!! sometimes you wonder how people can be so ignorant, just because she's not the owner of the job, eh. i give up.

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on my journey home i realised i hadn't sent a copy of the dB to my boss. shoot!! hopefully nothing goes wrong tomorrow. else, let's hope she doesn't mind accessing my machine and find it herself there :)

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reached home i called my nephew. talking with hime always makes me feel happy. he will update me with my niece's progress and him asking me to go home so that he can play with me was just a music to my ears. can't believe he'll be 6 in 2 months time. i still remember the day i woke up feeling something cold on my face only to find him grinning mischieviously at me while his hand was holding his bottle letting the milk dripped on my face.

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suddenly i remember a conversation i had with someone i just met last week.
him: so you're here for work?
me: yes
h: living alone?
me: you can say so, well actually for this month i have someone staying with me
h: and most of the time alone?
me: yupe
h: so you're working here, staying alone away from your parents so that you can have fun?
me: let's just say i live here alone responsibly
h: well that's a smart answer hahaha
duh! what's up with that? just because you're living away from your parents and family doesn't mean you're letting the rein loose. sometimes its just better to ignore comments from people like that. yada yada yada. as long as you're responsible and do things in accordance to your belief and not breaking your family trust you are okay. at least that's what i believe.

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speaking of new person. i'll be meeting someone new next wednesday. not socially. not for personal benefit. well, actually maybe can be considered for personal benefit. it's more for business that can have an affect on my personal being. i did some googling based on the name and managed to get some results. whether it's the right person is another story. i think it is the same person, though. i hope it is.

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i'm off to bed now. nite nite. on 2nd thought. i think i'll go down to get myself a coke.

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a very random thoughts, eh? that's me .. i can start talking about A and somehow ended up talking about L. then i'll spend the night retracing the conversation, how can it ended in L.

Nice

believers vs. hypocrites
like the corn fields that yield before the ferocious winds, the believers endure trials with fortitude. the hypocrites like cypress trees stand arrogantly until they are knocked down.
-The Prophet Muhammad (SAW), as reported by Abu Hurairah

a soul overflowing with love
He does not refuse sustenance to the one who speaks ill of Him. how then could He refuse sustenance to the one whose soul is overflowing with love for Him?
-Rabi'a, "Rabi'a the Mystic"

Regrets .. I Had A Few

my regret? not being strict with my finance since work day 1. well, actually.. okay, rephrase. not being strict with my finance since year 2002. had i done so, i could take a year off work without bugging my parents. had i done so, i could just quit my current job and join a friend on a 2-months trip around south america. after which, i'd do my own trip around the world. had i done so, i would be away in peace instead of attending to a spoilt partner who suddenly had a change of heart at night and wanted it to be ready on the following day. who said away from office means away from work?
mode:- dream on, baby...

Lazy Bummer

its a quiet and nice saturday to stay at home. the rain adds tranquility to it. i was supposed to be joining the gardening volunteer session at botanical garden this morning but as usual, i am lazy. i actually woke up and had my shower, the weather was lovely to be outdoor. but on the other part i don't want to miss the soap opera today, not after what happened last week. so as usual, the TV get the best of me. thank God i actually emailed the person in charge saying that i might not be able to make it as i might need to go back to office. hehe, i know myself that well. with the rain this morning, i wonder how the gardening session went.
anyways, its just nice being home alone. relaxing before going out later. reckon that with me assisting the planner, i have to reach there early, eh. well i hope it turns out to be good, the food and the people that is :).
speaking of food, i finally tried the food few friends have been raving about last night. my verdict? it is good but not THAT great. i have to give credit to the service though, very satisfying. will i go back there? definitely, not this month though.

EUREKA!!

stupid paper orientation. you are the culprit!
if only i was a travel&living presenter....

Me and .NET Will Never Get Along

i guess our disgruntlement is reaching the 'til death do us part' mode. first my report works fine in crystal report. then included it in .NET everything worked fine, apart from the portrait became landscape no matter how you've already set the orientation. wanted to fix this later i changed the application to point to the production dB, which is an exact replicate of the development. and eversince then i encountered the 'specific cast is not valid' error without further explanation. googling wholeheartedly to find the solution, i came across one article about a conflicting framework that might caused this. then it hit me - i uninstalled crystal report 9! could that be the problem since the report is done in CR9 instead of CR.NET?. i re-installed CR9 and still encountered the problem. frustrated i get my machine reformatted. after which i installed .NET only, redo the whole thing and execute it. even report wise i do a very very simple report. to my horror 'specified cast is not valid' again. so, not because of CR9. i then installed CR9 as we're used to work with CR9 for report and include it in our .NET later on. this is not the first time i'm doing this - i've been working this way for almost 4 years now. i guess i really have to concentrate on fixing this problem asap. anyways, eversince i install .NET they kept on asking me to register, which i never encountered before. i guess its due to the new version of .NET. so, i stupidly (or carelessly) using the keycode i got from CR9. and guess what? i couldn't get in .NET. always invalid keycode. thank god one colleague had the password of the ID to access the registry and we fixed it. basically deleting the keycode for my CR9 which i registered right after installation. a little bit of adrenalin pumping there, for the wrong reason. more like a mild heart attack, i reckon. well i know we can never get along, but for the sake of my rice bowl i think i have to face it. after all i was the one telling my boss i still want to do some coding.

Wonderful Weather

another week gone by. another weekend coming along. 2 friends are going back to their hometown. one for daddy's birthday. the other one for brother's wedding. i should've joined the 2nd one back to medan, but work commitment held me back here. well, i'll just enjoy it here while they enjoy themselves back at their hometown.
it's raining cats and dog outside that made me pulled the blinder up so that i can enjoy looking at the rain dancing. nice. i think it kinda effect my mood. i find myself feeling so calm with the pitter pattering sound from the rain. after a sumptuous breakfast followed by this weather, who ever said life is not a bless. lovely.

The Japanese Strikes Again

was supposed to be watching Shrek3 during lunch with few others in the karaoke room but apparently there was some training hence a buffet galore there. so i decided to have a walk around office in search of clothes. i went to a shop to try some pants. was so very disappointed and a little depressed when i can only fit to a size that is almost 4 times bigger than my normal one. anyways i decided to go there again after work later for a final try and decision. lunch time is simply too rush to try and retry. so i left the place feeling a bit annoyed with myself not leading a healthy life. but i ended up in boat quay where i bought myself BigMac meal for lunch. yeah, right. so much for the disappointment on myself,eh. well at least i enjoyed myself there.
whereas why the title? what else but the japanese partner strikes again. calling from somewhere requiring for the report to be ready for his meeting. yeah yeah yeah, always last minute and yet forever demanding compared to the other partners. i'm done with the report, basing my analysis on the discussion i had with them few months back. now its my boss who has lots of questions. why take engagement to date, why not financial to date. why take total cost, why not net fee billed plus expenses plus unbilled. why take NER, why not SER. why must we calculate with ERP, yes i know they want that but is it necessary to include the percentage. aiyooooohhhhh!! i'd rather do blogging first to clear my mind before getting back to the why and why not.

When The Going Gets Tough, The Tough Goes Shopping

first it was my dad commenting on my clothes, 'how come all your clothes are the same colour?'. then my mum, 'why don't you buy new clothes, let me buy you some as i notice you keep on wearing the same clothes every week'. then my sister, 'even you're not in the mood to work, it's not professional to dress so casual'. then my friend when she's here on transit *w, 'wah, you can dress so casual eh?'. and the usual comment,'most of the time you're in black. so boring'. well not that i can't buy new clothes but its just that i don't want to. i don't want to so that i have a strong motivation to loose weight and be able to wear all the clothes i have in my closet. so many clothes still waiting to be worn. but then when i received another 'all your clothes are the same colour ya' comment before leaving for work, i know i have to do something about it. supposed to attend a call tonight but apparently i was misinformed as the call was yesterday. luckily nothing techie needs to be done, just that i didn't bring my gym gear so i am left with nothing but switching on my shopping mode.

Yummy..

my machine is still undergoing surgery and i am bored with cleaning my desk and reading book so here i am :)
took a leave yesterday, was supposed to be a 1/2 day leave but ended up with a full day leave with some consideration that didn't happen. anyways, its nice having a time doing nothing on a weekday. i was pretty bored and almost wanted to go back to work but i managed to resist the urge and spent my afternoon walking around bedok. supposed to get a pillow and a bolster i ended up getting myself indian rojak. i know i shouldn't as there'd be a dinner later but i couldn't resist the temptation. on my way back home i stopped at a foot reflexiology to get some pampering. i left the place feeling relaxed and signed myself up for a package. doh! home. tv. rest. siesta. nice!
left the house after prayer to meet the rest for an indian 'night out'. well actually one of us always asked for a proper indian dining and since we have one true-blue nothern indian friend she asked him to plan one. and yesterday it was. we met at little india station and after everyone arrived we walked to this place. food was AWESOME! my first time trying northeast indian cuisine and its great that we had a native introducing each dish to us. i am indian but i only know those common indian food, don't ask me which dish comes from which area. i still asked around about which part of india i came from (nothern, gujrati! got it now!). though the mango lassi is not as thick as the one at saffron it still tasted good. the chingri and roomali are definitely a must try. we really thank him for introducing us to such a wonderful place, and he coughed up the bill!. can't wait to bring my parents there when they're in town.

Anonymous Space

i always feel that its kinda nice to have a place where you can be anonymous. a place where you don't have to think much, simply enjoy being with yourself, doing whatever you want. yes, there is a drawback. nothing can be done if something happens, or its just simply too late. i guess that's what parents think too, especially the one called mummy. i know for sure if i'm gone missing i don't need more than 2 days to get people searching for me. from experience, just missing for 1/2 day without announcement will resulted in me receiving calls from a friend and text messages from another simply asking 'where are you? what's going on? where the hell are you? why are you so quiet today? ' and all sorts of other questions.
so i guess having an anonymous space is a bless but it will be better to have a smaller anonymous place and share the bigger one with someone else. you think?

On Weekend

i came to work freaking early today. 7 am and i've started doing my job. well i need to take leave today so i'd rather taking leave with a peace of mind. anyways ...
weekend was rather pleasing for me. after a decision of having dinner at my place i woke up early on saturday and do marketing at geylang. this is my first time stepping into the market after it is moved to the current place. i was pretty happy that i managed to find all the things i need and left the place after around 1 hour there. once home i started doing my stuff. sayur asam, dendeng balado, tauco was ready and i just hope they like it. the frustrating part was when i pound the chilli. you know singapore chilli is so watery that everytime you pound it the whole place is in a mess. anyways, i managed to finish the sambal terasi and frying ikan asin before anyone arrived. after one of them is done making her infamous potato salad, we sat down and had a feast. its just nice seeing them enjoying the food, especially when it's the first time tasting sayur asam for some. after dinner we did the cleaning together and talked about how we were compared to our mum in terms of cleaning and all other stuff. its quite a relief knowing i am not the only one being that way, hehe. once done we sat awhile before heading off for dessert. dessert was yummy, we shared 2 pieces of cakes among us though as there's not much space left. i've been to this places several times but never dine-in. so it was a surprise for me knowing how cozy the place was with sofas at the back. we chit-chatted and two of them left early as they had somewhere else to go. we left the place feeling happy and walked back to bedok before parting ways. its been awhile since we do things together the whole day as everyone is busy and it's kinda nice they finally get everything settled now ...

Prepare to Die

a thousand probably a million curse!! due to my own curiosity i uninstalled something from my machine to proof that it was the cause of the problem. after it was still not working i decided to re-installed it back and went back to the application i was working on. everything was okay with this application but out of a sudden it was now haywire. after some googling it's confirmed that the problem is due to the un-installing and installing crystal report, hence some problem with framework or library thingy. shoot!!! what makes it worst is that the print company sent the statement orders today. boss was excited that we could release the application on monday. stupid print company! they promised to deliver it next week and now? die die die. i can only hope IT can re-format my machine on monday so i could fix everything and ask boss to delay the announcement by a day or two. DIE!!
oh well, it's friday .. lets not talk about work. i'll be catching up with few new friends *if they're new friends i've only communicate through email can it be called catching up?* over chocolate before heading to town for a movie. let the torture starts again on monday!

Oh My ..

I don't know what have i gotten myself into. a friend is done with her certification exam. another one has finally bought the house of her dream. so it calls for some sort of get-together-and-celebrate time right? an idea was blurted. everyone agreed. i was pretty excited, well actually still am excited about it. but then the nervousness started to creep in. gosh, its less than 24 hours and i haven't done anything. too late to back out. no point of return. let's see how the outcome is. the truth will prevail tomorrow.

My Passion

just looking at the video makes me so excited. look at rachel's technique - awesome!! i hope it's bc19's tempo for today's muaythai.

What A Day

yesterday i did or experience something for the first time....
i threatened someone
after calling and receiving information that was so very annoying, i complained. i felt cheated i said but it was taken lightly. after saying that i could send a complain to CASE i was taken seriously. i called the head office who then asked one of the person to get in touch with me. hearing the explanation i cooled down saying it was a reasonable one compared to the first guy who gave a totally wrong info. i guess due to all this i was called again in the evening saying that it's ready for collection - or delivery if i want. YES!! a threat goes a long way..
lone ranger
it's my first time doing this alone. well if my experience on friday can be counted, this was my 2nd time then. it's actually not that scary but of course you have to play smart to avoid being cheated. just use your brain. i almost fell into the hole until i argued with them. don't be too shy to ask. nobody is stupid - its either you know or you don't know it yet!
i was involved in an accident
well, that's too exaggerating :). i was in a cab who was involved in a minor teeny weeny crash. it was my driver's fault that's for sure but i couldn't voice that out. not after he was kind enough to pick me inspite having to change shift simply because i was carrying heavy stuff, well at least i assumed that's the reason because he looked at my big bags before nodding his head. my door was opened 3 times by the other driver. first, asking me to be a witness, to which i said i didn't see anything. second, confirming if i did say it was his fault, to which i said i didn't see anything how would i say that. third, asking me to stepped out because *he said this with an embarrassed smile* both of them is too old to jot down the info from each others IC and i was asked to help them jotting it down. haha. luckily they managed to settle everything after about 20 mins of arguing.
i told someone off straight at their face
she's actually a friend of someone i knew from a mailing list. her behaviour is simply unacceptable and i believe she doesn't know what 'dignity' means. i do have a high level of tolerance but sometimes you just can't stand it. its really my first time doing this to someone whom i just meet. you know when you meet someone for the first time and instantly decided that you don't bother to get along? well that's what i felt.

very interesting day huh ... funny, annoying, happy - that's life in general, eh.

Just My Luck

i don't know if it's a fate or me being simply retarded. few months back i lost my card holder the stupid way, i dropped it in the cab. i was waiting for a bus but decided to flag a cab when i saw one. i was having a chat with a friend over the phone and was busy with lots of stuff as well as i just came back from some cnbc event. lost one gym membership card, tang care card, credit card, gnc card, and God knows what else.
bought a new card holder and giving myself excuse to change my wallet and another card holder as well. some luck here. i wasn't satisfied with the choice i made with the sales person's persuasion, i went back the following day to exchange it with my first choice. some price difference made me had to add one more stuff. so i went for the card holder (this time, its for business card) which can be used as a coin purse as well. after some calculation i became aware that i was undercharged. i should've paid more that i called the store the following day. i did my part right? the staff said they'd called me back to discuss on the settlement but they haven't call up til today. well, i did my part so i'll just wait for them to do theirs.
anyways, to cut the story short. i lost this card holder now. this time around i'm not sure where as i remember seeing it still on sunday. guess i threw it unintentionally or i dropped it when i took the letter out of my bag on monday. but i couldn't recall putting it in my bag on sunday night, though. well i guess the bottom line is it's gone. and together with it few dollars in coins, banquet card, few business cards, and my phone memory card. darn!!

Sunday Morning ...

it's been a nice weekend. lots of standing, lots of sitting. lots of watching, lots of listening.
went to the PC Show on friday. supposed to go with the IT guy but some last minute call held him back in the office that in the end i went alone. it's my first time going to this kinda show alone. so i just went there and do my thing. searched here, searched there. bargained here bargained there. comparing prices, literally. i just grabbed few brochures and approached the sales person asking them to reduce the price as per brand X. we'd then go through the details and did the bargaining. i was very persistent that i ended up almost vomitting blood just to get something. it was fun though and i left the place feeling happy. after walking from office to suntec, i continued walking to bugis to a mobile shop. spent quite some time there making some decision. it was tiring though as i had to stand almost 1/2 hour for my turn. but again i left the place feeling happy. lets just say the great singapore sale starts and ends on friday for me.
saturday was the day i spent time sitting. after sending emails to few friends, i only got one person, and another one last minute, to go to the maylee show. though it is targeted for the pan-asian woman, there's a lot of caucasian in the audience. well most of them were there either to support the host, the guest, or are actually in the media line. it was a fun show with good topic. there was a korean channel, arirang, doing some coverage on maylee so we were there for the show and will be in the korean channel as well, haha. anna was interviewed by the korean channel which is no surprised knowing how pretty she is. well actually, all indonesian-chinese is pretty compared to local. we joked saying hopefully the korean actor of her dreams watch this channel, hehe. oh, the show is going to be aired on June 17, 8 pm on starworld ;). i hope more people will be aware of this talk show as this is a show i see myself watching every week. went for an early dinner, spent the rest of the time talking at the lingerie section of CK Tang before heading home.
it's going to be a long day today, so i guess i'll better sign-off now. ciao...

JUNE .. JUNI .. JUIN .. JUNIO

its june. the 6th month of the year. time does really fly. so how have 2007 been for me? not that great. not that bad. i'm a simple person wishing nothing more but simple stuff and i can only thank God for all the gift i've been showered with. life.health.family.friends. career? well ... to be honest, i do want to make some changes career wise but i am still grateful that i still have one.
anything else i want to change? of course. not one. not two. but a few. yes i know it sounds greedy but hey, a person can always dream right. of course in order to realise the dream some action must be taken. and of course *again* a small step towards achieving that dream is better than staying still, hoping that every step made doesn't solely benefit us, but others as well. just like the water in the river, it flows from one bank to another and along the way it helps plants to grow, human to clear the stains off their clothes, and animals to satisfy their thirst. yeah, i choose to be like a flowing river instead of a mountain that stand still looking at the same view every day. strong but pretty boring, huh.
at the moment i am okay with where i am standing. contented but not satisfied. happy but not thrilled. mixed feelings. i always look down to remind myself of all the blessings God showers me with but i will look up every now and then to motivate myself, telling myself i can achieve more and i can do better. of course everything is done within my limit. yes you can dream high but when you fall its much more painful. but then again, regardless of how painful it is, you can't simply ignore the fact that you got a chance to see more things and the view is much better up there.
duh, actually i'm not sure what i'm writing now. i guess that's the beauty of blogging - letting what's on your mind being transferred to the movement of your fingers on the keyboard. and i promise myself not to do any changes after i publish it. though once in a while i still make some spelling amendments *grin.
anyway it seems like i'm going to experience something new soon. yes i'm pretty darn sure it will need me to make some changes, practicing my adaptation skill and probably my patience skill as well. let's just hope that in the long run my life will be more colourful. as i always said to my friends, live life to the fullest responsibly.

On Friday

its friday but somehow it feels like monday. definitely due to yesterday's public holiday. woke up late and ended up coming late for the breakie. i feel bad but at least i still could catch up with the rest before we parted ways to work. i promise myself not to adapt the '5 more minutes' style next week. promise!
went for a ForEx talk on wednesday. it's quite an interesting offer, 6-mth money back guarantee coaching on forex trading. i'm not sure if i'm ready to take the plunge so i decided not to sign up. luckily office called so i had an excuse to leave early. well actually, my willpower of saying no is strong so whatever it is i know i'll walk out without signing up. it's very tempting but i have to think rationally. even though the heels are high, you still have to have both feet on the ground, right? since the talk was around 7.30ish i looked around for a victim to kill time with and i managed to get one. we ended up walking to chinatown for dinner at the place i was so looking forward to re-visit. apparently, because it's vesak day's eve they have some sort of celebration as well. with few carnaval-like vehicles and lots of lion dancing.quite a new thing for me even that i've been here for a blimey 8 years. crowded, noisy, but something different for sure.
oh yes .. its friday. and what comes after that? weekend!! weeeeee