::branching out

i have two books that needs to be read within a month's time. the title of the first book caught my attention immediately while the other one, well .. caught my attention immediately as well. quite a new topic for me but it's interesting to know the darker side of the world too..

JP Morgan Challenge 2006

went for the challenge yesterday. wearing a striking color corporate t-shirt, me & hp went to the padang. left the office a little bit late than planned, thanks to my flirting session. was quite worried that it might be cancelled or postponed, but despite all that the run still started on time and we run in drizzles. it was fun and we finished the 5.6 km in 37 minutes - a little bit disappointed but hey, we're there for the fun.
had photo session with the whole firm, had some foods provided then went back to office to wash the mud off from our shoes and leg and straightaway home.
one thing for sure, judging from all the participants - i knew i work in the wrong company. you can't see any cute face(s) here!!

okay- 3rd day was not started by me, kinda speechless being the subject of it. haha, really brighten up my day

the art of flirting ..

i can't believe this myself!!
i have been flirting with a dear friend of mine for 2 days in a row.
ha ha ha .. started with some conversation then it led to some jokes which some friends of mine said it's a mild flirt.
well i guess i found myself really feeling comfortable with him that i ended up flirting - though I still don't look at it as flirting, more as trying to know a person better ...

will today be the 3rd day? I reckon so *grin

it takes two to tango ...

was chatting with a friend when she asked me a question that I wish no one asked. surprisingly I honestly spilled the beans to her. I guess it is also due to me trying to prove that no walls surrounding me, unlike what some people thought. of course, as honest as I was to her, I kept some dirty little laundry for my own. was quite surprised that she said she was not surprise with what I said as she said it was kinda obvious. now it's me who's feeling panic - that obvious eh? well i guess what people said about me is true - my eyes don't lie.
anyways I also told her the steps I am making so that she didn't pursue or ask more things in future. she too, like few of my other friends, had the same opinion - but well people can wish for something but it takes two hands to clap

morning blurt ...

supposed to go for a run with ally yesterday as cindy couldn't make it. but ally called last minute saying he couldn't brave the heavy rain without having an umbrella that we decided to cancel the run. called cindy to tell her abt this as she's waiting for us to finish the run so that she could join for dinner. but she still wanted to have dinner b'cos she's flying to taiwan today. so then we decided to ask the rest, with her calling sally and me calling jenny and ally.
met sally and had a great talk with her while waiting for cindy to finish work. luckily ally called back as I couldn't reached him earlier and said that he would join as well. jenny couldn't make it as she had a dentist appointment :(.
finally we had our dinner around 9 PM - ally wanted satay so we went to lau pa sat, though he ended not ordering satay as no one wanted to eat satay *hehe. as usual the normal conversation led to some more serious topic and then of course, relationship. it was very funny when we talked about the tree, leaf, and wind thingy that ally said we need a hurricane instead of a normal strong wind *haha. its quite fun though and without us realising, it's almost midnight that we decided to call the day off though sally was still keen on talking.
went home with ally where i asked him about the vibe thingy and apparently he felt I was upset with his comments *grin. i admitted that i did think about it afterwards but that's it. strange enough we spent the ride home talking about ghosts and a little bit of religion - well i guess with us practicing the same religion makes talking about this stuff more at ease...

now not only i still wonder about the vibes, but what's with the comment of me building a wall all over me ???

Final

first it's a yes, then it's a not sure, then it's a yes again then it's definitely a no again - and the last sign was from up above. no one can be blamed here. then it's a signal issue and unreachable connection - who to be blamed here? again, no one.
with this i decided to end all the stupidity

like a leaf, waiting for a strong wind to blow it away from the tree...

shall we?

okay my wonderful morning was a little bit disrupted by the news i received. well i surely am not deciding things, simply giving out the choice. actually i spent the weekend thinking about it and i am so very sure that nothing NOTHING really need to be concerned about. all of this infatuation i had is simply because the idea of it sounds sweet and nice, but after facing the truth and putting more thoughts on it, including some known fact that i see around me, i know that nothing needs to be worried about - lets put it to test this evening...

wonderful morning

spent friday working as i didn't join my friend for a run, my whole body is aching like hell from the thursday torture with my trainer. decided to turned up for the gathering as i am quite curious to see a person i've been hearing a lot about.
spent saturday at home resting and went out in the afternoon to catch a movie. from there we met another friend and had an early dinner continued with chit chatting and the search for our little black dress - haha, most of us ended up looking at a normal dress as it fits our personality more.
spent sunday at home - domestic work, some cleaning and cooking for myself. really pampered myself with lots of rest that i even had a siesta!! ended the day watching a dvd.
woke up early this morning for my pump class, haven't been to this class for weeks now. it made me much more happy when the instructor looked at me saying 'shoulder track' with a knowing smile, i suspected he's playing my favourite track and i am right!!

my whole body is aching now but i am just feeling WONDERFUL...

my hr mate, whom i work closely with in the HR project is moving to another firm. today is her last day so she came and gave me this sweet little cookie. i was happy that she got a better job which requires her to travel a lot. truth is when she told me the day she tendered i was quite shocked and admitted to her that all i could think now was who would i be working with for the upcoming release which conference call will starts on sept. well, truth is with only 2 of us doing the HR her departure is quite shocking as no one from HR knows about it. i just hope that come september her replacement is as good as her and as great to work with as her. due to her departure i too have to learn HR process flow. well this shows that no matter you're working at the back office and sometimes less appreciated then the professional, you are still an asset to the firm - just look at the chaos happenning when the other project team learnt about her departure.
all the best in you future endeavour cindy - it's a pleasure knowing you ..
i truly enjoyed the time spent with you, attending all the morning and night conference call.
if i was late in any of the calls, a can of light coke would always be there ready for me to open and sip - that's how sweet you are!

Vibes ...

was having a chat with a dear friend of mine. from me asking about a hindi movie and one of the movie playing in the cinema we ended up talking about hindi actors. he said that i had a very high standards based on the list of hindi actors that i like. hmm, though i said its just for viewing purpose still he thought i had a high standards. i guess thats the impression people had and he said its the vibes that i gave out. well one couldn't change that right, its already built in you.

whats with vibes - I don't really know what is the meaning of it. is it the way you talk to people? the way you approach people? or simply your body language? well - if it is then no one can change that as changing it kinda like changing your personality. at least i think so. i mean you can improve your communication skill, your socialising skill but changing your personality? naaah - thats like changing you into someone else...

he kinda agreed with me saying vibes couldn't be change as it's built-in and said that he knew it. i asked what he meant by "he knew it" - and he went offline .. such a sweet friend of mine eh!

Yawn part 2..

okay, today its my turn - not sleepy but my eyes is getting smaller. went to ladies night at thumper yesterday, basically to attend my friend's birthday celebration. was so not in the mood actually after getting the closure that i've been waiting for. had to stay back at work 'til almost 9 that i messaged the girls saying i won't be going - was really not in the mood for socialising. prior to that the emailing session with another friend made me felt i dunno, better? relief?. anyways on my way home i decided what the heck - just go there and have some fun. so i messaged the girls saying that i changed my mind, met the whole group of people at marche then walked together to thumper. luckily cindy called saying that she was already there and kinda make me relief as i no longer was the only misfits there. music was good, crowd was great and i waited for the live band to take their break before going home.

closure wise - i want it to be a final closure but some of my friends' words kept on repeating in my mind that makes me feel unsure. but i guess its better to make this as a final closure without anymore expectation - just follow where the wind blows eh ...

Yawn ...

Thats what i've been reading today - email from friends saying that they're sleepy. Me? surprisingly I feel refresh though my eyes a little bit smaller than usual :).
Went to the supposedly surprised birthday celebration yesterday. Reached there around 7 where I met a friend then together we bought the card, had our dinner then walked around waiting for the time to meet the rest. Quite a nice celebration I shall say though I was very full from the dinner I managed to finish 1 big glass of ice cream and a piece of cake. Spent the night talking about almost everything and without realising it its already morning.
I know the surprise was no longer there but I guess my friend was touched with us writing the card in front of her and some additional "surprise" she received from the only guy there .. haha ..

once again - happy birthday my dear friend ..

Before I Die ...

been busy jumping from one meeting to another meeting today, so far managed to control myself a little bit and ended up having 7 sweets and a can of light coke. surprisingly no delta files for today and i have nothing to harass my workmates from other office that i ended up here while waiting for tonights unsurprise birthday dinner ;)

Hey, I guess I'll continue this some other time .. gonna concentrate on my chat with my two dearly beloved uni friends ..

plan is just a plan ..

was busy yesterday planning on our short break next week and at the same time lying to a friend that I had problem with the group and need to share my problem with her tonight over dinner when actually we're going to throw her a surprise birthday party. trip wise since there's only one guy we're trying hard to find another guy to share room with him but ended up deciding to share the cost evenly amongst us 3 with him taking the single room. birthday surprise wise, everything was perfectly set - i will go there earlier, order the cake and wait for my friend to come. once she's there i'll text the rest who will then come with the cake.
BUT
a friend emailed saying that the trip need to be postponed as her grandfather passed away. she included some other people in the email including the birthday girl without removing the attached email which was about our plan. hahaha- no more white lies..

can once in a lifetime happen twice?

they said once in your lifetime someone comes along whom you are absolutely meant to be with. Everything feels great, stars are aligned, body and spirit are in balance.

went for a baking course today - though it's not fully a baking course. We're only there to see how it was done and each of us brought home a small tray of the apple crumble. Before going there we went to a music store where I finally found the movie I was searching for.

Couldn't wait another day for it, once I was done with the domestic work, I watched it. Just like that , the foolishly romantic side of me is awaken again. All sorts of scenarios start running wild in my mind. If only this could happen in real life, I would've scribble a message and lets destiny play its part.

I've make a note to myself to visit the patisserie if I got a chance to visit NY again in the future...
*a special thanks to someone who reminded me on how beautifully romantic this movie is

Rock Climbing ..

Yupe - together with cindy and ally, I just came back from the indoor rock climbing workshop.
FINALLY!! have been eyeing this activity for sooo long, I was so happy when I found out that cindy was also interested and when we have to find people to join for the workshop ally said he wanted to try as well.
So there we were, attending the 2 hours workshop. We had 30 mins of theory before trying on the climbing. Sooo fun. It was so funny when I had to hold the rope when ally did his climbing; when he was on his way down I didn't squat properly so I actually went up - being pulled up by his weight!! The instructor pulled me down else two of us would be hanging there. People around us laughed and we couldn't help but laughed as well. I ended up letting go of the rope pretty fast that he went down pretty fast so he started to scream as well 'cos if I didn't control he might crashed on the floor. Luckily the instructor was around and asked me to slow down. Poor ally, I was so tense that I didn't let go of the rope when he was already on the ground that he kept on squeaking asking for more rope to be released. It's a little bit painful for guys compared to girls being pulled up that way. haha .. thinking of it now makes me laugh again...
We did our trial at the intermediate wall then did on our own at the beginner wall - 3 of us managed to reach the top here then we continued to the intermediate wall where cindy had difficulty and then me and ally tried on the advance wall. I actually lost my grip in the intermediate wall once that my rope twisted and I hit my back on the rock - it was quite painful but it didn't stop me from trying again.
Advance wall was so tough - we tried 2 different walls where ally had to push me up on one of it else I wouldn't be able to get my grip on the 2nd rock. Even with him pushing me I had difficulty getting my hand on the rock - really test my upper body here. Its more tough when ally was the one holding the rope down there as he would not let me down until I reach the top - its good actually as I have to try again and again though once I totally gave up as my grips were getting weak and I couldn't find a way up I simply shouted again and again that I wanted to go down until he really let me down.
Had lunch afterwards where as usual we talked about all stuff and this was when I realised.. really realised that what I've been thinking about was actually not there - I have been thinking of it simply because I was just in love with the idea - not more not less ... hopefully this stays the way it is.
Rock Climbing wise - we definitely going to do it again another day ... definitely

Karaoke Time

I feel a lot better today. Work really had me yesterday. I was just so annoyed that everything was passed to me and how annoying the user was .. 3-4 times changes need to be done within a day and she kept on asking why why and why. HOW THE HELL WOULD I KNOW. Your previous request was handled by my boss okay - I was supposed to cover during her absence ONLY and yet now it became my additional baby. At the same time I am still trying to complete my testing and having an online discussion discussing the problem with people from other country. GL Ledger is such a pain in the ass to understand within a short time maan, especially for an IT person like me. I am used to multitasking but doing 5 things at one go was so stressful yesterday. I guess the fact that my daily greeter was on leave added to my stress. Without our daily chatting something was kinda missing - and I have to cope with this when she move to her new job next month. Good God!! I ended up doing all my stuff with tears filling my eyes.
Luckily I managed to get another friend out for dinner, so we went out to a lebanese place that I've been eyeing for ages and had dinner there. We talked a lot and she too asked me questions that has been asked so many times to me. We then talked about it and I was actually quite surprised with some new facts that I now know - but I guess I have to accept that no one is as perfect as I want them to be ..
So today, feeling a little lighter than yesterday I went online, checking the movie schedule as me & my flatmate decided to go for a movie after lunch. That means - good bye bodypump. Nevermind!! I want to have a relaxing day .. hence the reason Im writing this blog without any plan of writing it when I went online.. I simply want to sing along with all the songs playing on my machine ...

its time to spread my wings and fly ...

Gosh I'm so bored, I don't want to go home but I want to be out of office the soonest possible. I don't know what's happenning to me that I simply burst out unintentionally. Maybe I am just annoyed with the fact that the list keep on growing on my part or because of something else. It's a long weekend yet I am so not looking forward to it.

Les Poupées russes

Sometimes we wonder if the best is yet to come - just like the russian dolls, we do wonder if there is another smaller doll within the one we are holding now so we keep on trying to open looking for another one. Just look at Xavier ..

I do have to agree with the review, it seems like you are watching your life on camera.

Je t'aime parce que ton imperfection .. ahhh
Im getting more and more in love with french movies ay!
I have to find the dvd to the prequel - no wonder my french's teacher recommended it!

you are perfect. perfect man for me because you are imperfect and i love you for your imperfectness

lunch break blurt

I am happy!! happy happy HAPPY !!!!!
not because of lunch, not because of the view outside - but because i bought myself 2 pairs of shoes ..
woohoo - nothing compares to shoes - well actually nothing compares to shoes, coke, & chocolate.

There it goes

I always wanted to take diving course - been calling the padi certified places so many times but I always ended up cancelling as I have no friend(s) to go with. I actually promised myself that I will take the course this year even if I have to do it alone.
I am not sure how but I finally found someone who's already advance in diving. She told me that she too took the beginner course alone and actually she had introduced me to her diving instructor through email. They are actually having a diving trip next month, during the public holiday and since there are 4 beginners joining she was asking me to join. I surely am interested and already start thinking of the trip until I realised that I have to be in KL for training at the same week. Thought the 3 days training is confirmed so that I could still join the trip as it is also in malaysia that I confirmed the date with my boss 1st. That is when we realised the training is extended for a week - we will also be on training during the public holiday.... sooo saaad!!
There goes my chance on diving AGAIN - I guess I really have to put more effort in starting the course else I'll be delaying it again and again ..

ah well, for now I think I'll start with the indoor rock climbing first - anyone wanna try with me?

Panic Mode ...

aduh juw, postingan ini khusus for you - abis libur sih disana :(. iya juw, padahal udah susah2 cari alasan kenapa meng-copy history message balik ya. sabtu pas dia nanya soal mesin baru gue jadi menambah bumbu biar kesannya lebih mantab. trus gara2 chatting ama rusdi sabtu pagi gue jadi masukin lagi posting-an yang gue delete itu. trus gue pun bikin post baru dan bercerita soal copy and paste itu. sampe kemaren pas gue dapat invitation dari friendster tapi di hotmail yang gue bilang gue udah punya account disana. si bodoh ini memberikan account dan baru sadar yang blog gue bisa ketahuan dari sana. panik sekali bukannya gue update profile and edit blog di friendster, gue malah mengganti posting2an disini ke warna putih PADAHAL masih bisa dihighlight. Panik sekali!! akhirnya gue balik ke friendster, update profile dan DELETE my blog there .. wuah!!
emang beneran mesti pindah ke LJ asap neh ..

* Thank You *
This post is inspired by the conversation I had with a friend earlier today

Few months ago I was known as a gym addict. I spent most of my time there not only because I am so into gym but also because I am bored. I don't have many friends in this country. I tried to stay in touch with my friends here but either they're married and busy with their own life or that they have their own circle of friends. I spent most of my weekend watching movie with my flatmate. She has quite a number of friends here and sometimes she's busy during the weekend that I only see her at night or only when we went for a movie. After joining one of the online forum, she has more activities that I felt more and more alone here. I have to admit that sometimes I do envy her for having lots of friends here and truth is I do wish I have few of my school friends here as well, friends that i can have dinner with, friends to go shopping or karaoke or anything else with. I kind of accept the fact that I don't have many friends here that I simply spend most of my time at the gym.
This changed when I braved myself meeting new people late last year. I actually asked my flatmate along but she refused to join that I went to the dinner alone. Almost pulled out when I was in front of the restaurant, I then told myself that it was simply dinner. If you felt awkward you can leave as nobody there knows you. I braved myself and decided to stay until dinner was over. After that dinner I approachh on of the girl and from there things start rolling.
I think the turning point was when I organised an event as suggested by one of the girl where one girl who joined this event kept contacting me and she is the person who is responsible for us having this small group - a group that I hold dear in my heart. I know that eventually this group too will be gone as everyone has its own plan which mean they too might be leaving this country sooner or later.
I really really have to thank E for organising the dinner I went to for the first time. There is no such activity happenning nowadays that E is banned and the other active person there is no longer active.
Had I not went to the dinner I guess I will still be spending my weekend solely at the gym or walking around city alone.

::Capoeira::

Woke up early today just to fall back asleep until it was 12 pm that I decided to hit the gym before meeting a friend to check out capoeira. After gym i went to city hall, met my friend then together we walked to the capoeira class. June was there and we chit chatted before the class. The class was good and it really made me more eager to sign up. At 5 pm they stopped the class as they're having a roda in front of takashimaya. Me and my friend went to get some food before heading to orchard. Quite a great time spent during this - I shared some stories of what's happenning since he's quite busy lately that he didn't read all the emails and he too shared some of his feelings about last week's event - how he was quite dissappointed when we decided not to join them for dinner. Well at least now he knew what's happenning. Thanks for the treat and the tissue ya!!
On the way to orchard he kinda told me about whats happenning in his career and I was a little bit sad with what might happen in the future. Well that's life, you win some you loose some .. He also said some few other things that made me think thoroughly about things - really an eye opener as I never looked at it that way before. Thanks again!!
The roda was cooool - way cool especially when the master himself did it with some of the advance students. Left around 6.15 PM as he had a housewarming to attend and I wanted to catch a movie as well. Had my dinner (or should I said supper?) after movie before going home.
Looks like I have to go to office tomorrow now that I realised I haven't submit the HR delta files to the central team .. sigh

Yummylicious

indeed it was, sinful BUT without any regrets. Just came back from my uncle's place for maulid (celebrating the birth of the prophet PBUH) with my tummy feeling so darn contented with everything it just had. it started after the isya prayer until around 10 pm. then came the best part - food! the wife of this uncle of mine is a good cook & tonight she's cooking nasi padang. of course we have to serve those people who did the prayers etc. i was so hungry that i kept on eating the dessert while waiting for our turn to eat. when all the guess left we families straightaway sit down on the floor and eat. they serve it i don't know how to explain it but the people here called it 'makan hidang' - meaning everything was served on a tray .. rice with all the dishes and 4 person eat together. so me, my cousin and 3 of my aunties sat and ate together. since there was 5 person, i went to the kitchen to get more smashed potato, egg, chicken, beef, pickles and other stuff. food was gooooood. we then chit chatted, i was enjoying my time with my cousins sharing my recent trip experience with them while they too shared their stories until it's almost midnight i decided to make a move as i'll be walking home alone. i was hoping to bring some food back but my aunt said she knew that i wouldn't want any and i can only smile feeling a little disappointed. but then again she asked again if i want to bring home the beef and i said yes .. chicken? yess sambal goreng? yess and then i request for the pickles and rice as well. hahaha .. no way am i going to say no to a great home cooked meal. no worries for tomorrow morning's breakfast - its enough for me and my flatmate...

okay ..

too many people asking the same question. who is j? i don't even know which one is j, how the hell will i be invited to his housewarming party. which one? ah that one .. nope - dunno. no thanks - i'd rather spend my weekend watching a movie .. failure to launch remember?

sweet...

sometimes small little things can brighten up a person's day. today, a simple message did that. Been feeling sombre for the past few days and its all gone with an appearance of a pop up window. for that - i thank you!!

IOPPOUYGU

here i am against my better judgement. though i know what i'll get i still insist on getting online to confirm that my guts can be trusted. yet i still behave like a small kid, saying the magic word and staring at the screen hoping for the red to turn into green.

ps. yes my friend, i know i said that i'll move to livejournal soon; how soon? i am not sure myself. what i am sure is that i'll join you and another friend building a community there :)

If I Were You ...

I am in the middle of doing my work when I realise something and feel a little relief after accepting this fact. Well truth is I thought about it this morning inside the train on my way to work and now i feel absolutely right about my earlier thoughts. This morning was full with what ifs, but now that I try to put myself in your shoes, I realise that I too might make the same move. After knowing the fact I might reconsider things straightaway. But no, you didn't - you keep being the normal you and I know you're kind of disappointed when we were not as what you think we would be that day, especially me who was just following the flow when I know I have someone else to count on. If I were in your shoes - I might do something worst...

Blimmey ...

went to the gym last night for my training. after training i followed my trainer to the lounge as she wanted to show me pictures of the HK instructor she met during her recent trip there. on the way to the lounge i told her that the guy standing near the reception is the one i said cute. she told me she knew and she actually told that guy that someone thought he's cute. still holding the biscuits she gave me from HK we were chit chatting when this guy suddenly grabbed the biscuit from my hand saying 'sorry, no food allowed in the gym' and walked away. we laughed and looked at him who stopped, turned around saying 'this really looks good' and went back to us returning the biscuit to me. that is when my trainer said 'i told you that my client said you look cute right?' he said yes and then my trainer - to my horror - pointed at me. this guy said to my trainer who's wearing red 'now you're making my face as red like that' me? i can only stand there still feeling surprised from my trainer's bluntness. never EVER in my life someone i admire or even think cute/handsome know what i think - but i guess its true - never say never...

Vulnerability

my 3rd post .. for today that is - waiting for people in another side of the world to wake up and come to office can be quite frustrating especially when you want something to be resolved asap. ah well, i'll just count on the blessing that there is no conference call today .. we must look at the good angle of everything that happens right?

i was talking to my colleague who knows that i'm on a certain mission. one story lead to another and we ended up talking about feelings in general. i told her about what happened few years back - how i'm a person who forgive and forget though some of it will still lingers in my heart. i am that sort of person, i tend to forget whatever annoyance or anger i had for a person as soon as i spoke to that person; sometimes just a pop up window or email saying hi will let my anger/annoyance away. but deep - way deep - down inside i do still remember the harsh stuff - be it action, words, whatever - that person did to me.
disappointed as i may be it won't affect whatever relationship i have but the need for me to remember that is simply as a warning to myself to avoid further disappointment in the future - especially when i have to face or even interact with the source of it.

in a nutshell, i too have a heart that can be shattered.

meaningful yet ..

reaching for something in the distance
so close you can almost taste it
release your inhibitions
feel the rain on your skin
no one else can feel it for you
only you can let it in
no one else, no one else
can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
live your life with arms wide open
today is where your book begins
the rest is still unwritten
unwritten - natasha bedingfield

if you have the mp3, share it with me please ...

Good Morning ...

Its funny that whenever my boss is not around I ended up coming way early to office, just like today - 30 minutes earlier. So decided to blog first though there's nothing much happenning considering I just blogged yesterday.
June is back in town, which means she is going back to torturing me today. Realised she has a class on wednesday night now, hmm... gonna skip her class today but will surely support her next week. Judging from the class that starts only at 9 pm, another late night will be spent at the gym now.
I am so very happy for her - it seems that everything runs smoothly for her, even she has more classes to teach nowadays. Good for you girl!
Went for combat alone yesterday as my friend pulled out at last minute. Met someone I knew in class and spent the time talking to him while waiting for the class to begin. Soooo happy that the usual tuesday instructor wasn't able to make it so class was covered by my favourite instructor!! I even said 'yaaay' and my friend laughed - haven't do his combat for ages now. He has a new hairstyle which looks good compared to the previous one - should tell him this when I attend his class next time.
Went home from gym and went online awhile where I chatted with a friend for few minutes while waiting for some show to start on TV. It was so funny that we kinda have the same personality that when she told me about things that happened I said 'you should've said this' and she went 'hey .. i did say that - the exact words' and when I said 'you should've also said this' and she again went 'hey - you know me well' .. Soo funny that 2 people can have the exact same phrase when faced by a certain situation .. or is it strange??
On 1/2 day leave today - probably stop by the hospital before heading down to the gym tonight. Hoping to catch a friend at the gym and plan on working out together this friday.
My jaw is no longer dislocated! Though the pain is still there, its no longer a torture for me to eat nowadays. No conference call for this week as most of the functional team is out of the country for training.
Its Wednesday .. 2 more days to weekend!!

Waks ...

From a big to small to selected and now a private group. Oh la la, its getting confusing for me. I've always been the one invited so I have no rights to bring someone else in. But with the selected getting divided I don't really feel comfortable hiding things from these small selected people in the long run. Maybe it's time for me to ask people instead of being asked....

::People Pleaser

Being a people pleaser is difficult. Especially when you want people to be together so that you can enjoy things and you realised this is impossible after hearing a comment of one party about the other one. Introducing a person into a group is not as easy as you think it is. After the brief introduction came the comments and you realise you can't force mixing people from different interest together.
I know some people might be offended or even angry with how they thought I have change from the old me they knew. I tried mixing things together as I know it will be easy for me in the long run as well. I started with a brief story then came the introduction. But can I change people's first perception or feeling about someone? I can't!
So I guess I'll just have to bare with the fact that I couldn't please everyone ...

Im tired ...

weekend was very tiring for me. I guess its that Im not used to doing things without proper plan that makes me feel tired. A friend emailed asking if I want to go to a charity event. Great acoustic group - budakpantai.
Supposed to go for a capoeira viewing on saturday that I decided not to go to the gym so that I can go straightaway home after capoeira. My friend messaged saying that he couldn't make it so after having my hair cut I went straight home. Thought that I would meet my flatmate at home and thinking of catching a movie with her at night, but she was not at home that I spent the whole evening simply laying down listening to music. But then a friend call asking what am I doing tonight, and since I have nothing we went out for dinner and then headed down for a dessert - the one that's supposed to be cancelled ;).
Sunday was not bad either .. accompanied my aunt to see one of the meet n greet session with her fave actor. Its so very pack but it's fine with me having a good time with my aunt. Went straight home afterwards and spend the whole evening at home.
Got a message from a friend and it made me quite confuse. Im stuck in a middle of things and the problem is this small group decided that we'll stick to just few of us. Sigh
I miss going to the cinemas - there are so many movies that I want to watch... By hook or by crook I'll go and watch Failure to Launch myself this weekend..

went for a professional networking session last night. it was a fun night though you have to brave yourself and mingle with all those strangers finding topic to talk about. truth be known, I'm suck at this - I always judge myself and sometimes feel intimidated when I'm out of my comfort zone. I really have to brush up my communication and networking skill. it's a great night meeting lots of interesting people from all kind of workline, though mostly are in finance or business. The organiser (it's 's' not 'z' as commented by some folks last night) was happy with the turnout that they decided to move to another place for the 2nd session but we left early as we wanted to catch the 1st episode of the 2nd season of Lost. On my way home I checked my mobile and realised there's 7 missed call from my uncle. Apparently another uncle of mine was hospitalised and I need to rush to the hospital as everyone is waiting for me there so that we could go home together. Taxi was so difficult to find even calling one seemed impossible that I managed to booked one 15 minutes after calling. Took so long for the cab to come that my uncle asked me to cancel and go home as the patient was already asleep. I felt soo bad - gonna pay a visit during my lunch break today.