Look at the picture and tell me if I'm wrong in interpreting it. The bear looks sad and its eyes are watery and seems to me if only it could take it will scream 'help me'. This is one of the bear who was under captivity in China for their bile. I remember watching it on TV with tears falling from my eyes. How some of them kept banging on the cage (which is soooo small) and some didn't survive after being freed. Please be kind to wild life.

http://www.animalsasia.org/index.php?module=2&lg=en

Im so stress - luckily boss is on the line so I can write something here while waiting for her to end the call before getting back to being stress.. my way of easing the tension in me



I have a confession to make, I went to watch the Backstreet Boys concert last nite! Haha, I know I'm too old for this but who cares.
It all started with me wanting to go but couldn't find a friend who's interested until someone posted about it in the forum & I responded asking if anyone is interested to go. I knew I'm too old for this but who cares ;)
Someone pm-ed me saying she's too old but didn't care as well. So there we were, 3 of us - me, shara & her friend marrike - feeling super energized for our age going to these concert that we suspected gonna be loaded with teeny boppers. There we were, preparing to be the oldest amongst all and being looked at by the youngsters. Boy were we wrong! A lot of people older than us were there. I guess they were simply like us, want to see the guys live. I'm not a fan of them, I do like some of their songs - thats simply it but me being me, I simply want to see how they perform live.
Concert was good - and being a grown adult, we no longer discussed about how cute they were. The discussion after the show were more into how surprisingly ordinary nick was knowing his history with paris, how they're costume were (1 of us even said that nick patched jeans is a totally fashion faux pas).
Well, someone said that being brave and honest enough to admit seeing this concert shows our character *grin*

the list...

pempek, siomay, ketoprak, pangsit abang2, asinan, martabak manis special n tipker, bakso abang2 - these are the list of to eat once I'm home this weekend. and the one that top my priority list - mom's chicken rice!! no restaurant, hawker centre, even aunties of mine can beat her chicken rice ..

quoted from one of the magazine : "to find that someone who fills your life is a rare and precious thing"

absolutely true ...

Weekend comes earlier for me this week. I'm taking 1/2 day leave today to go to JB and get the shoes I've been dreaming of since my last visit there. Hope they still have my size 'cos the last time we went there it's out of stock. I dunno if my boss remember Im taking leave today 'cos she kept asking me to do this and that - I don't care I simply said yes to all ;). After last wednesday's meeting, I kinda asked myself - why the hell did I agree on being the interface lead knowing no one will be there 100% to assist me. With all the document, plan, strategies, scenario, and milestone I have to come out with next wednesday I felt like Im living in a twilight zone. Everytime I want to concentrate on doing this, HR stuff comes in and its always like that until I decided to said yes yes and yes everytime new stuff comes in. I'm gonna be dead meat next week especially that finance just emailed me another 2 new applications need to be included in next month's test. Thats why I think since I can't take any long leave Im gonna use my weekend as best as I can..

In Her Shoes

went to watch the movie last nite, it's not that oh that is such a great movie but the moral of the story is good especially when you have sisters. I mean however you screwed your siblings life, it won't change the fact that there's a special bond between you and nothing could change that. In my mom's word - air cincang tak putus (you can't cut trough water). Just look at maggie & rose 's relationship and you'll know what I mean. I actually shed bit of tears at the part where maggie read a poem on rose's wedding 'cos it just so reflect the feeling everyone have with their siblings - i carry your heart, i carry it in my heart...

what a week...

I hope this week is a better week for me.
Last week was not my favourite. Work wise, I kinda fed up with all the problems Im facing. Boss leave me to do everything by myself because she always said 'I trust you can handle it' but sometimes I felt like shouting 'I can't do it myself'.
My weekend was not great either. Decided not to do any outing, I went straight home after friday gym. Was quite happy that day due to some comment from someone I adore. Went to raffles branch for combat on saturday to support a friend. Was quite upset that I lost my gloves when I went to the ladies. During combat, while moving to the front I accidentally twisted my ankle and before I got back my balance the person in front of me already moved back and she felt on me. Gosh, it was so embarassing.
At night I started to feel the pain on my leg n it got worst 'til I actually cringed everytime I moved my leg, let alone standing. Really couldn't take it anymore so I went to the doctor accompanied by my flatmate before heading to the movie. Thank God it's better now. I still gotta go to the company doctor later and had my leg x-rayed in case there's a fracture, which I hope not. Supposed to attend pump today but I woke up late and the new me decided not to spend money on taxi so I skip my fave instructor's class today. Haha, even my friend was surprised by it.

Just back from my boss deck, updated her about the HR in production & also told her abt my problems n decision I made to solve it for the testing next month. Thank God she agreed so I guess my week already starts great :)

Last month - last year :), we finally made the outing by the beach came true. I decided to make it happened by asking my aunt to post it in the mailing list. Sweet uncle of mine spent the night camping there with his 2 sons & i took over taking care of it early in the morning so that they could go home to pick up their families. Its a fun outing; though some was a bit apprehensive in the beginning, everyone went home saying its a great outing & told me that they were glad I organized it. I personally felt it was great bonding as well. With my elders uncle telling stories about the olden days, all the uncles & aunties telling us their memories with my grandparents, and especially when all off us played cards - all the old games were being played - joker, old maids, and heart attack which was the fun one. We spent time lazing around in the tent, on the hammock and by the beach, eating non stop due to the amount of food brought by everyone - it sure was a fun day out. Even my cousins had came out with ideas for the next outing which was very heartwarming since it shows the bonding works! almost went for bowling but decided not to 'cos one of my cousin had a leg injury which was quite serious, though he's the one suggesting it we decided not to follow his suggestion. He's quite naughty though - before admitting himself to the hospital he spent time watching movies knowing that once being admitted to the hospital, his parents gonna found out abt his accident. Haha ..
I suddenly remember this outing because me & my uni friends might be having an outing when I go home during the chinese new year holiday. This time around it will be at the mountain area. Seems like a lot of ppl can make it, so Im brazing myself for another fun - can't wait for it!!

after 3 months, I finally took the train to the office. 3 months of taxi ride really effects my savings and no more of that. another shoe and KIV session payment and that's it. I know the KIV session will leave me broke again but starting tomorrow I have to start saving seriously!! my sis already has a car n house on its way, another sis is planning to get a car .. I hv to think of a long term investment seriously. only have endowment and cpf for my old days but I really really have to change my mindset. Im trying to follow my elder sis on this, she's very good with her money and I have to start being good at it as well...

My 100th Post

well, its not that surprising knowing how talkative I am :).

my families went home last night and I already miss my nephew. He's such a handful boy, so darn active that sometimes we just can't follow his pace. But he's so cute and without being biased I have to admit he's one darn smart lad. The funniest part is when he thought the announcement was about 'hamburger hamburger hamburger' when it's actually in one of the 4 language used here. We really couldn't afford not to laugh and so did few ppl in the train. Its tiring taking care of him but its fun all along - gonna meet him again during the holidays.

everything is back to normal I guess - start working under tight schedule since its already 2006. HR system will go live next week together with the kickstart of the weekly conference call. Hiks, the call clashed with my gym timing. i took a wise decision not going to HK as everything is all being monitored by the central team, including our leave. i am now giving a tight deadline to myself to understand everything in a whole now that the call will be starting - the testing is less than a month time anyways.

start planning on going back to healthy living now that even I couldn't fit in my fave jeans. i could still pictured the disappointment in my trainer's face when we did the measurement last week. she advised me to take the KIV plan & i would probably go for it. for the mean time, starting today i'm controlling my intake. even my flatmate was amazed at how healthy i am in the middle.

oh well, lets start 2006 good and end it great.

I am a good landlord - well not really a landlord, but assisting my mum in this area. Why? I never asked for additional fee for electricity/water when my flatmates brought her friends home, I am not fussy in them putting their stuff in the store room, kitchen n shoe cabinet, I never said no to them entertaining their friends in the living room.
My friend's having problem with their flatmate .. FLATMATE!! not even the owner of the house. Just because her mom was here for few days, she has to pay $10/day for it when her mom doesn't even on the aircon when she's home alone nor her mom shower with warm water. In fact her mom helped washing their plates. They should've just settle with my friend paying the additional cost in electricity and water by comparing it with last month's bill. But no, they want more which I think its not rational at all. Another friend also said that she encountered the same when her mom visited her for a mere 2 days. The reason given was that they shouldn't be taking advantage of allowing their parent(s) to visit without paying anything. This in addition to they're not supposed to use any part of the home without permission, can only wash clothes twice a week, and no storing stuff out of the room. That's bad! Compared to what's happenning in my place? That's awful!!

last nite was fun - it's our 1st dessert club outing though we can't really call it a dessert club. Went for a fresh durian, mainly for the french guys sake. I mean we've tried whatever cheese they brought during the xmas party so it's time for them to try asian specialty. Hey, its the king of fruits - even they thought they have to try it. Its quite fun watching them eating it, with all the comments just like they're doing some wine or cheese tasting like what the french do. I remember them saying it tasted like mango and onion, coffee and onion, or simply mango 'cos we had 3 durians and each has different flavour. From there we headed down to this beef kway teow stall and had our dinner. Had a great chit chat with the whole crew, though we talked about french culture most of the time. Kimi was soo curious about how the terms french kiss was discovered, why there is such thing as italian lover but not french lover, and lotsa other things that even the guys were speechless in answering it. Haha it was fun and it is true that french people enjoy their food by eating slowly. Too bad the panama couple couldn't make it for this outing as he was the one who made us decide on having a fresh durian as our 1st dessert outing.
Its definitely a great start for the dessert club, and next month we're heading down for the best durian pastries in Singapore.

I've decided not to go for the HK trip. So saaad, especially that me n june had talked about it in details. Already planned to take flight to macau, spent the day there before taking a ferry to HK. Already emailed Michelle abt our plan on attending her classes.
Well, actually if I want to I could take leave provided someone cover for me but I think it's wiser of me not to since we're in the middle of conversion during that period. I couldn't even ask my boss for her approval on this leave. The goes my 1st budget travelling - well, there's always another time I hope.

brand new year, no resolutions for me - simply being the best in everything i do, c'est tout.

another holiday next week - hari raya haji! yay .. this time around my families sans one of my sister will be here celebrating it together.

end of the month - Chinese New Year, still contemplating on going home or join my families to Port Dickson, but most likely is home as I heard that my friends are planning on spending the weekend at Safari Garden.

still contemplating on going to HK next month - it would be great if I can take 1-2 days of leave for this trip. But I plan to be more budget concious this year, so I really have to think about this trip.

brand new year, hopefully a good year as well...