I suck big time when it comes to conversation with someone I admired. Always planned on approaching and start the conversation but always end up with walking out and regret afterwards. Today I plan on approaching wishing a happy new year. But before me approaching, Im the one being approached when I was about to approach another friend of mine. Instead of helping carrying the heavy loads I simply said Happy New Year to you too and continue walking to my friend. Hah! I have to learn to be more vocal here...

another 1/2 day at the office, no one is in the mood to work hard. I personally simply finished what need to be done, sent it to the central team and spend the rest of the time reading, playing sudoku and now blogging.
the next time I'll be online would be 2006 - hopefully Im still given the bless to be alive then. so to all you folks out there, have a great new year ya.

may we strive better in everything we do next year - health, family, work, savings, social life, love, and all other things that we think important for us.
Im going to end my day today by watching a movie, buying some eyeshadow (yeah, thanks to that caucasian lady, I love playing with this now) then head to the gym burning some calories before piling it up again during the end of this festive season.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006.

2006 is just around the corner. Lotsa things happened this year, good n bad but all in all its a great year.
healthy lifestyle, weight ups and downs, US trips, new friends, sick families, lost 2 beloved cats, new activities, find peace with myself, new hobbies, and lots of other stuff happened in this year.
Of all the things that happened, one thing that I truly didn't regret is going to Chicos meeting up with new people there which led me to having new friends who I can said kinda brighten my stay here.
Looking forward, a lot of ppl asking me the same question, when r u going to end ur singlehood? when r u going back to ur country? well - for all the questions my answer is the same: I have no idea. Sometimes those questions really frustrates me especially when people (including my own mum) assume that I chose this path of life.
I personally made plans which will not be revealed here 'cos a plan is just a plan and I don't want to share it with anyone (apart from my sisters, of course) until I can see it becoming a reality. So wish me luck in executing my plan. I will try my best to work towards it starting next year..

a great weekend indeed...

It all started with watching KingKong on friday afternoon, mom's arrival at night followed by joining combat class with my fave instructor the following deay. Went out for a party at jave's place before going to another gathering at my uncle's place. It's so funny that we had the gathering on xmas eve some ppl thought we're celebrating it, especially when his neighbour gave us a log cake and wishing us and all. I mean all my aunts are wearing scarf and yet people still thought that we celebrate xmas. Some people are just too ignorant to differentiate stuff.
Went for june's capoeira on sunday and from there i went home preparing for the next day outing.
Yupe, finally outing by the beach came true and a successful one indeed. Me sans my beauty sleep to be there early in the morning, taking over my uncle & kuzzins place 'cos they spent the night there in order to get a good spot was well paid of when the event turned out to be a successful one. Already in line few plans for the next gathering after the breakfast gathering which gonna be held next week. Bowling, pool, chalet - you name it, I'll be there.

Now, back at work yet still feeling sleepy and tired from yesterday but its okay 'cos yesterday was surely a fun day. Even God loves us a lot that He stopped the rain until we pack and went home - that's how bless we were yesterday.
Gonna play it slow this week and might be joining another friend of mine to the NY eve's celebration at Sentosa, just need to get more people that I know to go along.

Im just a happy girl

Went to my uncle's place last night 'cos my cousin from oz is here for holiday with her family. I'm happy cos she remembered I was on a low carb diet when I went to sydney last year, so she bought me packs and packs of lowcarb cadbury chocolate. Though Im no longer on diet, I can now eat it without any guilty feeling.
I'm actually having stomach flu but being on sick leave is out of the question for me, so I just try to ignore the pain by having more chocolate .. yummy.
I should ask ppl who come from australia to bring me this from now on.

I received an email from my sis, basically she's forwarding email she received from 1 of her assistant. Its a very touchy email. Its about this old man they saw in their office, no one notice him sitting alone in the meeting room servicing a typewriter. Imagine how many typewriters are there now, how much is this man's income from such a job in the world where everything is computerized. The email ended up with the writers reflection on herself, how she should be grateful for what she have, that she might be earning much much more compare to this old man.

Reading this email made me feel a bit sad. Sad in the sense that shouldn't I be grateful for all that I have yet sometimes I still whine of something more. When with my earning I can travel around yet I still complain of not having enough money. When I am saving for a louis vuitton wallet, this old man might be saving for his next meal. When Im thinking of my next trip home, having fun with families and school friend, this man might be thinking of whether there is another typewriter need servicing so that he can bag some more money.

And yet I am still ungrateful with all the gift God has given and still giving me...

Current State: Happy

yupe, after stressing out with the oz application, i decided to use another application for the conversion while waiting for IT to resolve the problem. Have been working with the code used by sweden for few days and today I managed to solve the problem. Yaaay - at least the technical part for conversion is settled. Now simply concentrate on HR's applicaion, interface, and datafeeds. Apparently boss put my name for the local test as well - haha, getting more and more huh..
Guess I have to start reading abt this local test while waiting for IT.

Oh ya, just found out that mom's coming one day earlier - haiz.. I actually planned on going to javers place b4 fetching her but now she is here already on that day. But I think this is better 'cos when I told her that I sort of made plans already she simply asked me to go ahead with it 'cos she wanted to spend the day with her siblings - lucky me, I can stay longer than

Bring It On...

Had a very great weekend though sleepy up 'til this moment. Geez, not even a single day passed by without going somewhere after work. But I guess Im ready for the challenge this week has for me - just bring it on.
Another week to endure - can't wait for javer's party this weekend and mom's arrival. Poor mommy, guess I'll be leaving her alone during new year's eve - hey, she's the one asking me to meet people more often (though I know she's referring to different kind of people hehe)

part of my nightmare come true

I've been worrying about being blamed when everything went wrong, and part of it is right. Boss started questioning how come oz's application still not working when we actually received it in sept. I have to explain that yes its september but we can only access it november due to the versioning and then Im also doing HR and fixing the problems at one go. I told her that during the time IT looking at the problem, i focus on gHR which - mind you - has lots of changes now that we're going live with the new release. I guess she totally forgotten there's another project running and Im the sole technical person there.
I've included her in most of our correspondencies so that she's aware of what's happenning n I guess she's not reading it else none of the questions above will be raised.

Even after knowing all the problems Im encountering and the deadline I have for the HR system - I have to change HK's application to cater for the changes - she still gave me additional things thats supposed to be done by others. I know this shows her confidence in me but man, Im only a person with one brain & 2 hands. However good I am in multitasking I still need time to breathe.
Well, time to pack my machines now and go to the other office for presentation, hope I can concentrate with all things in my mind now.

Don't care - Im going to have fun with a good crowd tonight to ease my stress

only in french movies can you find this

*translated in english*
push capitain push capitain ... stop stop capitain ... breathe capitain ...
push capitain push capitain ... stop capitain .. breathe capitain ...
repeat until the baby is born in the middle of a corn field between 5 villages

a bit boring in the beginning but quite funny especially when it's almost at the end of it where all the characters were connected in one way or another - what a movie

Hah ..

I worry for nothing - the problem is again the o/s part. IT's looking at it and now I can be a bit relief.
New joiners orientation gonna be on this friday, this time around its gonna be covered in both location which means I'll be moving around - no total dress down this friday :(

I can't sleep ..

It's midnight and Im still wide awake when I actually plan on waking up early tomorrow for pump. Is it the 1/2 l coke that I had or is it because of my mind can't stop thinking abt work? Probably both.
I've been waking up early during weekend with my heart beating so fast thinking of the problem I'm having. I've been handling too many things at one go that I simply had no time to go into the Oz's application in detail. I've been busy with the presentation and modiying the HR apps now that we have to go live with the new realease that I totally forgotten about it. Until last friday when I was downloading tables for the conversion and hp said that they need to access the conversion flat file soon that I realised some of the programs have problem that none of us knew how to resolve it. Oh No!!
I dunno but I am seriously thinking of asking a shut period from the daily work and all other things for at least 2 days so that I can concentrate on this - I think I really have to consider this.
Even just now when I went back to office I really wanted to bring my notebook home but lucky I had to rush to the gym that I decided not to. Anyway I've been working on saturday and sunday - I need to relax a bit before working again tomorrow. So much for relax when all I can think about when closing my eyes is the error message.

Talk about other things to ease my mind now.
Today was the 1st time I go to the gym on sunday. Its only because MichelleDean was in town and her being in town means Capoeira Fitness! June n Darren did with her - kinda shadowing her for preparation before its launched here. After capoeira june asked me to stay for michelle's hiphop. What the heck! so there I was with my 2 left feet doing hiphop for an hour. Ha3 so darn fun though I really don't have the move. After class, while chitchatting w/ June, kinda giving her feedback on her teaching this guy came and started to ask lotsa question that our chitchat was cut halfway until michelle approached us he was still there. I hung out a while watching michelle n june did some movements, trying to figure out what movement this guy was talking about ;). 7 pm I decided to make a move, did some grocery shopping, cooking before going to bed. I want to go to sleep or I'll miss tomorrow's pump! I really do hope I can shut my eyes soon...

Girl Night In

By the time Im writing this, my friends must've been in the club spending their friday night among friends. I decided to pass on this as I have to go back to work tomorrow, and probably on sunday as well. If I join them I'd definitely leave early and I sorta promise them not to leave early for our next gathering - so I guess I made the right decision.
So here I am at home, doing my laundry while browsing the net and watching cable at the same time. Lucky me, there's a good movie playing on cable now - one of the reason for my quiet night in.

I've been spending more time with myself recently. Like thursdays are the time where I went for dinner by myself after boxercise and take a bus instead of train home. During dinner n my journey home I do lotsa thinking or even dreaming but I find it rather relaxing. I guess sometimes you just need to switch off..

well, what am I rattling here. I think Im gonna logoff now and concentrate on the movie.

Being away from home means being left out in a lot of event, not being able to witness all sort of things happenning back home, and lots of other backfalls.
Today's my elder sis' birthday and I kinda miss seeing the look in my nephew's eyes when he gave present to my sis. I can only imagine it based on the story told by his mom.

This makes me think of all the things - good and bad - that I was not part of back from 1992, the time I stayed in hostel during my uni years.
When I was in uni, I didn't see my cats - milly jr's and d'artagnan's body for the last time. I was not even at home when someone called my mom informing her that my grandpa passed away. When I was in batam, I didn't see my cat, jane (buta)'s body for the last time - only heard that she died under my bed. I could only pray for the best when I heared the news that hercules went missing. Now the Im here, I didn't see Grace, Jimmy and Valentine for the last time as well.

Apart from that, I missed going out with the group for some dinner, pushing the car together when it stalled, sitting together in the living room talking about anything, simply having breakfast and dinner everyday, calling mom asking what's for dinner, just simply hugging my cats when I feel bored or lonely, and lots of other things.
Of course, I don't miss listening to my mum's complain or the traffic back home. But still, I think I miss a lot of family moments being away from home.

And some people really want to be away from home forever...

Getting back on track...

Slowly but surely Im getting back on track - the track I did before though this time not that vigorously.
I started out with getting back to healthy eating, not all the time but I try to make it most of the time and still continue with my workout as and when I can make the time for it. Workout wise, I only do an hour a day - no more no less, no longer the gym crazy girl who attended morning & evening classes 6 times a week.
Its kinda tiring though for the eating part, 'cos you have to plan the meal ahead so you know what to prepare for the next day. I still do my 5 meals a day (sometimes even 6), hence I have to think of the snacks and breakfast - its quite tough especially when you're home late and still have to prepare snacks for the following day. Lunch is the time for me to make a clever choice or be more creative with whats available in the hawker centre.
Yeah, Im doing it slow now - so far Im getting back on track in the weighing dept, slowly but surely. Im aiming for another measurement and inbody check by the end of next week. Im not gonna jeopardize results of my training by totally cutting out certain types of food for a long period as well.

My training is gonna be over next week - from there on I have to do everything on my own. I have to be discipline!! it's for my own good - I can't blame anyone but myself and Im not gonna be someone who's self loathing

Yesterday, we went to the standard chartered marathon, though I participated at the 10 km, it was fun and sort of testing your endurance as well. Woke up early as the run for 10 km started at 7 AM and we have to be there by 6.40. Almost didn't make it as me & hp planned to meet at the gym that I decided to use the shoes in my gym locker. When hp text-ed me saying she'd be late, I tried calling the gym. No answer, so I went back in to check the opening hours. Oh boy, that's a good choice I made. The gym opens at 8 AM on sunday! I quickly called hp as I left my office key at the office, changed my outfit and brought shoes from home. Just imagine if I went there sans my shoes.

The race was fun, we decided not to run fast as we have no preparation at all. We run 'til km 4 then stopped for a drink, brisk walked 'til km 4.5 then run 'til km 7. Walked again 'til km 8 and run until the finish line. Total time is 1 hr 15 mins - not bad :) Each and every participant were given a medal as an appreciation for the participation.
I planned on doing the half marathon next year & hp is fine with it provided we train ourselves. Hehe .. hopefully we do - it is fun to challenge yourself in a positive way.

During the race, I notice a lot of caucasian boys were running with their parents. I like seeing a family engaging in a fun yet positive activities. I personally want my kids (when I have one) to be sporty & active in outdoor activities.

It's Monday again - brand new week, hopefully its a good one. I've been working on this presentation slides for a week, hoping to cover everything as detail as possible since it's going to be a key to our local application changes. Im actually hoping that the partners couldn't attend the presentation as well hehe.. less pressure on me if that happen. We'll see what happens tomorrow. For now, I'll just go back to the writeups.

just had a chat with Kat.
She's planning to join the gym 'cos she planned to get back to her shape when she was still competing professionally. She's thinking of competing again actually. She asked me along to help each other, I guess she's going to do more on helping me ;)
Apparently she's also thinking of setting up the same business she had back in US here. Read the website and it's quite a success there. She'd help me achieving my goal n she'll capture my progress and if she decided to set up her business here, my progress will be used as one of the proof - I'm game for it!
anyways, all this will only start early next year and only when Bob's okay with it as well.

and now Im imagining myself walking with the washboard abs heeeee

note: this post is simply about me thinking aloud, no intention of having any racism remarks or whatsoever (better said first before being arrested)

last friday nite, on my way home from my kuzzin's b'day the taxi driver took the wrong route. He's not supposed to turn left and I informed him abt this. He apologized and said that he would deduct the total cost. I said no need and he insisted. I said 'uncle, it's only few cents - not that I'll be rich with that, if it's $10 then I complain'. He was quite surprised with my attitude and kept on saying how understanding I was. I said that we have to give and take, this small things shouldn't be made big. He said that there were not many ppl like me around. Me being nosy asked him if he encountered ppl who complained a lot about this. He said yes, especially ang moh (caucasian). He said they were so calculative and so wanna show their power.

This reminds me about a thread posted by an ang moh in a forum that I visit frequently. There, this person complained about taxi driver here being so rude and no manners at all. He complained quite a lot - some people in the forum agrees and some doesn't. I personally respond to that thread saying that I always have great time in a taxi ride here, except once.

Well, after the friday nite ride all I can think about is 'what will the person who posted the thread about rude taxi driver respond to this driver's complain'

Just came back from dinner (or should i said supper?) with yolli. Prior to that, we went to catch a movie - bought myself a nachos w/ cheese n a coke. Ended the supper with a tiramisu. I lost count of the sinful dessert I had this week!
Haven't really train for next week's standard chartered marathon. Only did running on the threadmill for 2 days in a row and thats it!. Planned on running this sunday morning but Im still wide awake at this time - so I guess I won't be going for a run later. Lucky that I only register for the 10 km.

I think I'm gonna embarassed myself next week.

My 1st Thanksgiving Dinner

The authentic one that is.

Kat invited me to her place for a traditional american thanksgiving. I thought its so sweet of her that I decided to go. Dunno what to bring her, I simply bring a box of brownie. Went to her place, a little bit kampung for me, I dunno that she has to allow me in before I can press the lift button. So there I went out again n buzzed her when actually the door was open - hehe *kampungan. Since the feast started at the afternoon, there's only Ava - the scandinavian lady - left. She lived in Jakarta for 2 years long time ago but she still can speak few bahasa indonesia, quite fun.
Dinner was superb - Kat's been cooking for 2 days and I got a taste of all the traditional thanksgiving dishes. Love the baked yam n marshmallow & her cranberry sauce is simply delicious. But I guess what I love most was the dessert - apple pie topped with homemade caramel sauce. Ava even licked the plate because of the caramel sauce! - very very delicious.
Bob, kat's hubby is a nice guy. We spent time chit chatting about anything and ended the night in the kitchen helping Kat to clean up. She found the wish bone while keeping the turkey. I just knew abt this wish bone thingy - something new. I dunno how, the subject body combat came up and I told them to join me for the class anytime the wanted to. Ava's so excited about this. She's such a fun lady to be with - very expressive and friendly.
We left ard 9.30 as kat's already so burned up cooking for 2 days. I myself wanted to go home early to watch the last episode of Lost.

Absolutely a great way to experience my 1st thanksgiving feast.

REST IN PEACE

my dear Valentin...
last night when I called, you were being fed by my elder sis n when I called again you're inside my younger sis' room.
This morning I heard that you died with your hands around my younger sister arms - you're her favourite after all.

at this moment, Valentin is playing with the giant ball of string in the sky...

why oh why ..

are my cats destined to have kidney failure.. 1st was grace, then jimmy and now VALENTIN?
poor valentin - too young to have this kind of illness ...
though we always lash you with bad nickname like bego, pengkor or si idung - that doesn't mean that we love you less. Its actually the way of us showing you our love n care.

we pray for your speed recovery .. idung and hope to see you on my next trip home...

with all the things I've been faced to see, to admit its existence, and to witness make me wonder is there only few of us left? are we a rare breed in this modernisation world?
*you can be among them but you don't have to be one of them*

Its Monday again ...

The day most ppl drag, including myself.
Its good that I had quite a nice w/end that I feel I can see myself bracing a week ahead with my head held high.

Friday was quite a bad day at the office, a colleague of mine broke down due to the stress. We are really under pressure because on top of our daily job, there's this project that requires lotsa documentation - every step must be documented and presented to the central team which in turn decided whether its accepted or not. I didn't touch my part last week as Im busy with the server crashed and the HR project. Well, hopefully nothing happen this week so I can concentrate more on the project.

Weekend was quite good. Just went for spinning on saturday 'cos my aunt called when I was preparing myself to go for combat. What do you know, no taxi around that I simply went back home waiting for another 30 mins before heading the gym. From the gym went to city for the Tangs rebate - time to stock up of skincare with this promotion around :).
Catched 2 movies with my flatmate as well, haven't been to the movies for so long and now there's a long list of movies need to be catched.

Okay, now I have to face the fact that it's monday once again

You know what I did Last Night ...

I had the BEST brownies I have ever had in my life!
Yesterday me n few friends from the forum met up for dinner, made new friends as well. Me n 1 girl were late that the rest had their dinner already. So when I reached there we decided to move somewhere else for dessert. Sofi suggested us going to Chijmes where there's this place which has nice desserts. 2 of the guys decided not to join as the went for clubbing - the rest of us are not in the mood for that. I dunno, but Im not so into clubbing, guess once in a while is okay but not every week. Those that decided to chit chat instead of clubbing all have the same feeling like me.

Back to the dessert - There's quite a number of sinful choice but then I decided to order melting moments - warm brownies topped w/ vanilla ice cream n accompanied w/ cherry, whipped cream n chocolate syrup - while others order either tiramisu or creme brulee. I wanted the tiramisu as 1st but I've been having lots of tiramisu recently that I decided brownies instead, furthermore it sounds more fantastic.

It was so damn fantastic, once you felt the warm brownies in ur mouth, I feel like I was transported somewhere else. Had a taste of the tiramisu as well, but the brownies is simply heaven! If I were that thick skin I'd lick the plate - thats how good it taste. I've made a decision to come back n try the other stuff there.

We chit chat 'til we're almost being asked to leave ;). Lotsa stuff to talk about n I brought up something that I plan on doing - go around singapore trying desserts. They agree n even someone told us abt where to get a great tiramisu here. Hope the dessert club becomes a reality or else, I'll just do it myself. 'Cos I kinda decided to give myself a new job - tiramisu critic ;)

I've been having quite a number of sinful food recently. There's a new tents ard my office area selling british pie that looks so good. I bought 2 of it and what do you know - behind it is a place selling all kind of brownies and I bought 2 kinds as well, their best seller, the double fudge, and another one w/ marshmallow n almond on it.
Now Im blogging while eating a piece of brownie, the one topped up w/ marshmallows n almost - simply delicious!

Lunch will be british pie before heading to the gym and burn all this sinful pleasure..

JC Boxercise is cool...

yupe, after trying it out myself I sense that Im gonna fall in love with this exercise. Me n Eileen have actually decided to attend the class every thursday, not sure abt the saturday one though as it clashes with spinning class. Probably take turn or worse case, come on sunday as well haha.

Brought my wraps there and join 2 girls whose wearing it - the last time I wore it for combat it didn't look that nice, so I thought might as well I tried the right way. Still confused, one of the instructor who was there ended up wearing it for me. Well I tried remembering how he wrapped so next time I can do it myself.

Its a partnering class, and we took turn with the gloves n the mittens. Like the instructor said, forget combat, forget boxercise, forget cardiokick. No shouting, no more 'everybody uppercut' no jumping jet - this is boxing training. And it truly was. Well, yesterday focused more on techniques so no sweat there, just some soreness around the shoulder, back, and your leg for moving like a boxer. We also laughed when we were to punch fast and ended up punching the air.

Too bad the time passed by quickly that we have to skipped the circuit training. Instructor told us that once we're used to the technique, they gonna pick up the pace an incorporate circuit training, jumping rope etc. I guess once we're more to it, the sand bag and speedball available are gonna be part of the routine.

Will I be there this sunday? I surely hope so!!

I couldn't sleep tonight so I flicked through the tv channel and ended up watching this movie, hunger point, which is an adaptation from a novel with the same title. Not a bad movie - at least for me. It actually made me think of few stuffs.

I dunno, but I kinda look into myself and relate to the story a bit. Just a little bit though.
There were times when I too were obsessed with my weight. Those were the days when I was underweight and people around me commented on it but I still felt I need to loose more to get the desired abs.
There were once or twice (or maybe even thrice) I took laxatives after a heavy dinner or supper. Not often I felt depressed about my weight. Thank God, I never succumbed to the temptation of diet pills and I forced myself to admit if I didn't change my way of thinking now I'd end up with an eating disorder.
I keep on telling myself, that I wanna feel good not simply look good. Feel good for me is having a balance diet and exercise. I started cutting down on my exercise regime and introduce myself to the joyous of food. Yes I gained weight, not much but people around me said that I look fresher, no longer haggard.
Now, I may complain here n there abt my weight - but Im no longer the obsessed lady who checked her abs every morning and night and definitely no longer the one said no to a great food.

Watching this movie also made me realised how much I love my sisters. I dunno how will I feel if anything bad happen to them. Yes we do have our share of arguments, but that doesn't change the way we feel for each other. It makes me wonder as well, how will life be if my belated sister is still around us - wonder how she looks like.

I try my luck by calling the hotline again, the one answering is one of the instructor which I knew by name. Asked him abt the JC Boxercise and I MANAGED TO GET A PLACE FOR MYSELF n A FRIEND OF MINE ....

part from that, the vendor just called and has forced consistent the database. Its back to our part, but looks everything will be okay cum tomorrow..

Im sooo happy!!

went for late lunch so that I could get a meni pedi n relax during this time, boy was i wrong. Boss called and asked me to go back to office asap as the vendor need some information/clarification before doing their part. So there I go, luckily the ladies there were nice and asked me to come back either tonite or tomorrow to continue.
Hehe, my fault here too as based on previous experience of database crashed, I knew that I should've cancelled the appointment.

Anyways, Im more sad that I couldn't book a place for tomorrow's JC Boxercise. Im soo saad, I forgotten to call the hotline at 2 PM and only remember it now. Alas, nobody pick up the phone. Hope I got a chance to try this class some other day.

the main application her is in coma, if i couldn't say dead. I hope it can be up soon, its been more than a day already and the company's business can't cope with it being down for so long. The problem is out of our hand, and the vendor need to look into it.

Another server has been configured and reflection run successfully on it - yeay .. no more embarassment answering the central team during the next conference call.

I have to give two thumbs up to the IT guy who I complained about before. He's been the one and only person who has the best infrastructure knowledge in his department. He's attitude changed as well and I really really appreciate all his help infrastructure wise. Really hope his boss is aware of how important he is in IT.

Work aside, finally after 6 years living in this country, I saw someone that made my head turned inside the train. Well not that hunkilicious or what, but at least something than nothing.
Just imagine, 6 years here and managed to saw 1 person that turned my head while going back to my hometown just over the weekend managed to make my head turned several times!!

My younger sis is playing on being a matchmaker for my friend and her friend's kuzzin - so my friend (I know u are here quite often) let me know how does the meetup ends ya..

aug 2003

• 56 kg
• decided to start a workout n diet regime, a healthy one that is

sept 2003

• fasting month
• workout after breaking fast
• modified phase 1 of SBD

oct 2003

• 48 kg - lighter me

2004

• was used to the diet that I kept on working out n sticking to phase 1 when supposed to move to phase 2
• 42 kg

early 2005

• starting a new, work out but with a healthier meal plan
• 46 kg

mid 2005

• enjoying food to the fullest
• must eat more to gain muscle, but been eating the wrong stuffs
• 47 kg

sept 2005

• 48 kg

oct 2005

• fasting month - appetite can't be controlled
• 47 kg

nov 2005

• went home - hello local delights good by healthy lifestyle
• 49 kg

today

• 2 days of hari raya visiting here, all houses preparing fried noodle or something alike
• enjoying food to the fullest
• 51 kg!!!

tonite

• gym
• grocery shopping, cooking

tomorrow

• a brand new day, a brand new lifestyle - a healthy one that is

give me one week - una semana

Back to Normal ...

Finally, I managed to finish combat yesterday without huffing n puffing like I did on tuesday. Getting back on track after 2 weeks of exercise-free was a killer. Every inch of my muscles are aching 'til now and the worst part is the cardio.
I used to be able to do combat while Im fasting, but last tuesday I couldn't continue without a sip of water after the 4th track!! huffing n puffing, I felt like my heart could jump out anytime. Left after the muaythai track - 'cos I shouted during this track my stamina was zipped for the last track.

Yesterday, I was afraid the same thing will happen - but it didn't and managed to stay 'til the end. Yay!!
My stamina for cardio is back and I hope I can get back to the same weight next week...

Im just wondering what will happen to my sis who took a month break from the gym - good luck to u sis!!

its always like this when Im faced with Lotus Notes application. I've planned on going through the notes application today and find out what enhancement need to be done and how to explain the whole flow to HR tomorrow.

Yet, I ended up thinking of other stuff and munching these preserved mangoes n cashew nuts I bought during my lunch break. Haha, most ppl who saw me was surprised seeing me act normal when I knew I gained weight - no longer the freaky me whenever I gain even a kg. Well, I only told them to give me 1 week 'cos I've started my workout just yesterday. Yesterday's weight training was a nightmare, we simply need to decrease the weight as I haven't been doing weight for a month now.

Hope within a month time I'll have the washboard abs of my dreams - I plan to do it the right way starting next monday. Why next monday, why not now? Actually I've started looking after my diet since yesterday, but tomorrow nite my company is organizing a *surprise surprise* Deepavali n Hari Raya Gathering only for those celebrating it at Grand Hyatt. This is the 1st time they organise it and I think it's a good way of recognising everyone.

another note to myself: 04 december is just round the corner - its standard chartered marathon and I haven't start training .. arrghh, I have no intention of making a fool of myself on that day

I surrender to the devil in me...

after deciding again and again .. and again that it's enough shopping for me and that I have to start saving more for my future, I surrender to my weakness SHOES!

bought 2 pairs of shoes and Im a happy girl today - happy when Im supposed to be angry to myself. But, I can't help it! - one can never enuff shoes right.

Now I only need to think where the hell am I gonna put these shoes at.
I guess I have to start sorting my shoes and have an online auction, auctioning those shoes I will not wear again .. have to have to!!

a Recap...

my last night back home for this year - been coughing like crazy that I decided to blog instead since Im having trouble sleeping...

Well, what can I said .. let's see

28 Oct 05
The plane was delayed for 1/2 hour I guess that me n my flatmate decided to browse the net while waiting for it. Yupe, finally after 6 year living in the same flat, we went home together ;)
Browsing the net made me realised works waiting for me once Im home as they've sent the files to my yahoo account.
Landed safely and been welcomed by a cute voice of my little nephew who still calls me aa instead of khala ;) - as usual, his 1st question was 'aeroplane inside here?' pointing to my luggage. Reached home and had siomay from my younger sis' office for supper. That night I slept with my nephew. Well I actually moved out of his room only to be waken by him twice to move back to his room

29 Oct 05
My 1st sahur with my family - nothing special on this day. Only that after breaking our fast and did our prayers, me n my sisters went to the mall - my sis sent her son for a haircut while the other one accompanied me looking for hari raya clothing.

30 Oct 05
Met my Uni friends at Tamani Cafe where we broke our fast together. Prior to that I met biki n rusdi n we kinda walk around Pasaraya 'cos our meeting time is way too early. Well, I reached there much earlier than them that we decided to head straight to the cafe earlier. There we met another bunch of friends and we kinda had a chit chat before breaking fast times. Boy, how time flies - haven't met my ex-roommate back in uni years since she gave birth to her 2nd born almost 6 years ago! Nothing change from everyone there except that they have kids now. Well, not all of them though.

31 Oct and 1 Nov 05
Im the babysitter for 2 days - babysitting my nephew that is. It always amaze me how words can come out of a 4 year old boy. Some even made us speechless dunno how to answer him back. When his mom bought frapuccino and he ended up controlling the drink - he said that 'u must take turn mummy' but his turn is always longer than his mum. When my younger sis warned him not to asked things in the supermarket he asked my sis 'why you always treaten me'. We kinda speechless not knowing how to answer him back. Probably going to school at a young age made him more open to society and of course him being more vocal. There was once when his mom scolded him, he ran to me and lay on my lap saying 'later i tell auntie (his teacher) that mummy n aa alun (my sis) always fighting with me'.
He left me dumbfounded as well when he asked me what is the meaning of some spanish words in english while I was putting him in bed. I guess watching dora made him understand few spanish. He knows numbers in english, bahasa indonesia, mandarin, and spanish. Well, for mandarin n spanish he can only said it 'til 10 but still! My sis said that he tends to sing all sort of mandarin songs at home and when in class he will say a prayer that he learned from his religious class until the teacher asked if he like to pray at home..
When you asked him to do things that he refused to do he'd end up holding his head saying 'don't disturb me, I am headache'
I always smile when he start singing in english, continued with mandarin songs and ended it with some prayers. Haha, kids nowadays... But its good that he learns to speak more Bahasa since attending the religious class

02 Nov 2005
Hmm, can't recall what happened this day apart from accompanying my sis to visit the doctor since my nephews coughing. Just a precautious 'cos the following day is Hari Raya and all doctors wouldn't be available in case she need some medication for his son's cough.

03 Nov 2005
EID MUBARAK - Its Hari Raya
After a month of fasting in Ramadhan, today is the time all the muslims celebrate their victory. Should I said victory? well - during the fasting month, it is said that all the devil is chained so that the only devil we have to fight it the devil within ourself. This 1 full month is the time for us to practice being kind, patience, and doing all other good deeds. Its time for instropection as well - hoping once the month's over we can continue practicing it on our daily life. The celebration is because after the 1 month of fasting, we were like a new born, all our sin is washed and its a brand new day for us - we should be doing all the right things from now on. Its up to the individual though, but God has given us this opportunity so we should try our best in striving the best in everything. We started the day with the prayer in which after that, we asked forgiveness from the people around us - for me, its from my parents and sisters. Then come the visiting. Daddy being the eldest brother in Jakarta made our house crowded from morning 'til late afternoon. Its good we had some helpers as normally 3 of us ended up arguing on whose washing the plates etc. We tend to asked the guests to help themselves when the crowd gets uncontrollable - just imagine, 100 ppl can come at one go!

04-05 Nov 05
Time to pay visit to the elders and those that came to my parents house. Luckily this time around its not as many as before *grin. Lucky me gonna fly home tomorrow so I don't have to endure all the visitings - I've visited the elders and my uncles, I guess thats enough for me. I still have another round of visiting to do once Im back to singapore tomorrow.
Decided to check my work again today after sending the files on monday - thank god I found out that the problem Im having with the software is now a global problem. Other countries kinda asking the central team to update them on this. It is also written that the new loadset must be installed under certain infrastucture - so basically this shouldn't be burdened to me but to the person who asked me to look into it! Well, I also found out that cum Monday - lotsa job waiting for me. I'll just plan on my head what to do once Im back to office

Well, all I can said from my trip home this time around is:
1. I gained lotsa lotsa weight and I don't care - Im going to hit the gym on monday
2. Im coughing like hell - thanks to MnM, mom's cheesecake, mom's cookies, and all the local delights

10 mins break...

So stress I was yesterday that I decided to attend combat though I was not feeling well. Well, combat kinda lift up my spirit actually, especially when I decided to wear the red wraps instead of the normal gloves. Standing in front so that I can see my movements in the mirror, looking at myself in the blak outfit n red wraps, I decided from now on - its gonna be wraps for combat. It looks sooo coool!

Works been crazy, I actually felt like crying twice due to the stress.
The software has problem and I have to look into it when we're supposed to be the user, well problem lies in the configuration and I don't know how this going to be solved. What stressed me is that I have to liase with the vendor when we're not the one purchasing it and the support there couldn't help solving the problem. I decided to install on few other machines to identify the cause - well, its the loadset!! Of course, I will still be the one US pointing to when this problem occurs.
This is not solved, come conversion. Luckily I have hp to work with for conversion. Oh, today I was told to come out with the interface plan and start looking into datafeeds as well, deadline Nov 4th! *hari raya*
HR still wanna go live by end of november and I haven't have the time to look into another dB from HK.

So, Im flying home tomorrow with piles of readings to read, documentation to complete, files to convert, and application to study.

Today I decided to take 10 mins away from all the things Im doing and blog instead. That is when I looked at my colleagues face and saw that they too are starting to feel the pressure. Welcome to the club guys!

I guess I complained now, but truth is Im kinda thrilled of the challenges ahead. This is why I agree on being the technical lead. I think the main problem is our lack or manpower and getting new ppl now will not be a good idea as well - let's see how it goes along the way.

Meanwhile, Im going back to my writeups and thinking of my journey tomorrow.

Im doom-ed

I came to office with the plan of completing the server set up and concentrate on conversion. By wednesday I hope I can touch some other part before flying home on Friday.

Boy oh boy, tears filled my eyes when I found out that the loadset upgrading on my notebook failed! Hence IT had to reformat my machine and Im left with nothing but to re-install every single thing on my machine...

PCAnywhere, PowerTerm, SQLServer is installed. Installing .NET now - boy there goes 1/2 of my day, there goes all my plan..
Gone are all my favourite links to all the health site, recipes and so on...

c'est absurd - c'est ma vie

There's a house need to be cleaned, toilet need to be brushed, 2 weeks of laundries need to be ironed - but I DON'T CARE!

I've been quite busy for the past 2 weeks - my friend was here n my sis is leaving tomorrow. Hence, been spending the weekend out with them. Im glad they're here - at least I got a very loooong weekend though I kinda have my weekend duty haywired ;).

Just came back from watching the 40 yr old virgin - quite a funny movie. And now, I couldn't sleep :\. So, I guess Im just gonna recap my life hehe..

I finally met one of my online friend. We've been chatting since she was still in the US and now the she n her hubby have move to Singapore we managed to meet offline. Well, a nice person indeed and one thing for sure is we have quite a number of things in common - our fond of outdoor activities and exercise. She used to be a professional body builder and she knows that I want to burn fat and gain a little bit more of muscle, she invites me to her house to see the way she cooks. Im totally excited about this!!

Back at the office - managed to find the way of generating the keypairs with Reflection, hope it's the right way. Well, lets see what US gonna say abt it. Decided not to go to Sydney as well. Kinda have confidence that we can handle everything by ourselves. I hope the offer is still valid when we're stuck along the way though. Plan to complete all things need to be done in the server and migrate everything there as well by Monday and proceed with the conversion part thoroughly. Hopefully I can touch some part of the interface before flying home.

Can't believe it - 5 more days to flying home!!

90 minutes

Im walking down the memory lane of the past 12 hours of my life - all I can say is I am gonna treasure the 90 minutes I had today for a very VERY long time

Dilemma ...

Boss called me this morning. Basically now she's asking my opinion on the conversion issue. Should we used oz's program or should we build from scratch. I can only tell her that I haven't look into all of it but there are some part that can be used if we decided not to use all of it.
She also talked abt the 2 interns that are supposed to come on 7th nov - apparently we might not be able to get it and she might need to get a contract programmer. But she's not sure if this is better. She actually was asking my commitment on the technical part of conversion, interface, and datafeeds part as she will only concentrate on the configuration and conversion process. Good boss that she is, she's aware how much works need to be done on my part and told me to get hp and kat involve to ease my jobs. But for now she wants an answer if we are ready to handle conversion alone or we want it to be outsourced to other office that has gone live. Especially that I'll be away for 3 days I need to come out with the timeline before going on leave as when Im back she'll be on training in KL.

So now, everything is up to me.
Can we handle it?
Do I want to go to sydney to get more from our oz's office?
Do I think outsourcing is better?
Truth is - I'd rather we do it on our side and going to sydney will be very helpful in understanding the process more. But do I dare make this commitment with the resource that we have?

I asked her to give me 2 days to come out with the answer - probably I'll share this with hp and kat 'cos I need their commitment as well.

Oh well, for now I guess I just have to figure out how to generate the key pairs in reflection. Hiks...

10 more days to flying home

Im bumped

I find myself gaining more n more fat everyday.
I don't care - Im going back to my old exercise regime.
Now that the training is on hold until hari raya, I can do whatever I want to do.
So what if I lost muscle mass ..
The last time I did my inbody - my body fat went up by 4% and my muscle mass went down 1%.
Okay if it might be due to the machine having problem but thinking of the figures make me more depress.
All this when I actually follow the advice to eat more (well, I've been eating more of the bad food as well, I have to admit)
Pants are getting loose around the thighs but getting tighter around the waist area.

I don't care - though Im not suppose to do cardio today, I'm going to do the cross trainer for an hour later.

Beginning of the week again.

Had a great weekend. It started on Friday after picking up juwi at the airport. Spent the entire day around city before heading back to the airport picking up alun this time. Had dinner at ananda bhavan and spent the nite walking ard serangoon before heading down to clarke quay n boat quay.
Spent saturday at sentosa n orchard. Supposed to go to the bird park yesterday, well actually we were there but it was raining heavily that we decided to head back to city and spent time there before going to break our fast at geylang n walk around the bazaar.
Poor juwi - she gotta walk n walk n walk .. I hope she didn't lose weight from the walking though :)

Managed to rushed to the gym this morning - not a bad idea of heading to the gym today as the instructor played my favourite track, he even said to me that the track he's gonna play is my favourite track. At the end of the class I asked him abt the rumours that he'd be seconded to another country for few months. He said yeah but I guess it's still not sure when will that be - I didn't really ask for details anyway. He said that I should visit when the time comes. Well, if he's teaching at the cali there, I might just visit for the sake of attending his class.

Sigh - been having insomnia for days now. Always woke up in the morning feeling bumped that I simply hailed a cab to rush to office. I dunno - could it be due to my late workout or the coke I have for my morning meal and breaking fast or even the stressful days at work.
Sneezing and running nose as well now. Geez, I can't afford to fall sick now! I really dunno.
I have myself to blame actually, feeling under the weather and still went for the combat class earlier. But I simply couldn't take it that I left halfway - even before the Muaythai track.

Work has been crazy. Finally I managed to get the Oz's conversion dB both on SQL and Unix up and now need to study them and understand the flow of it before deciding if it's better to build our own instead of using theirs.
Another server crashed - and what kinda pissed me off is that this should be handle by someone else. But everything's being pointed to me and Im always the one liasing with IT. I know my boss wants me to do it 'cos she wants it to be solve asap but then I also have a lot of other things to do. I was so stressed today that I told the person who's supposed to be handling it that I will deal with IT to get a replacement server and once it's done she must try to do the installation. She should know by now especially that she saw me doing it the other day.
One good thing is that my boss is a very good boss, she gives you credit when she feels that you deserve it. Few weeks ago she email-ed me and cc-ed the partner praising my work and thanking me for putting a lot of effort on it. Today in our discussion, she told everyone that I've been doing very well and that she wanted them to help me as well, especially that the HR is going live soon and the weekly technical call with US will be starting soon. I was quite surprise abt the weekly call, thought it won't be that soon - hell, my schedule's gonna be pretty messy. I hope they scheduled the call based on our working hours instead of theirs.

Hope the server problem can be settle before lunch tomorrow. Somehow I got the feeling that I'll still be the one installing the programs.
Sounds like Im complaining a lot huh? Well, the fact is - I AM complaining! Thinking of what I must do next really really stress me up - and this will continue 'til Oct next year.

Gonna be on 1/2 day leave tomorrow - yeay .. at least I have time to unwind since my friend n my sis is coming down.

Well, I think I'll have my morning meal now and try my best to fall asleep.

Didn't wake up for my morning meal for 2 days in a row - bugger!!

30 more minutes to going home
2 more hours to breaking fast...
vadai n indian style fried noodle for today

Gosh - I'm still wide awake when I'm supposed to be sound asleep if I want to wake up on time for my morning meal. Thinking of having it now but then I will not be awake for the morning prayer. Let's see if I can't sleep after this, I'll continue being online until 4.30.

Went to the gym earlier since I have nothing else to do, so I attended the 5 PM pilates class. Just nice, once I'm home I simply need to wait few more minutes before breaking my fast. I can't believe that after 6 years with cali, this is the 1st time I attended pilates! Well actually attended once before, but collin was more focusing on the breathing and the very very basic movements only.

BTW, managed to get the phone number of Grand Hyatt's StraitsKitchen. I really want to break my fast there one of these days. They even flew in a chef from Egypt for the ramadhan celebration. Now I only have to find someone to go there with. Guess I'll check on the pricing 1st before looking for the victim.

Im waiting for 5.30 PM - the time when my nephew goes downstairs so that I can call and speak to him. He's only 4, nothing much to talk to him about - its more like wasting money actually. But I feel that by having a regular talk with him, he's aware of my existence. It actually pays off - everytime I go home, he'll spend most of his time with me, he wants me to sleep with him, bath him, wash him after he does his business and all other stuff that wouldn't happen had I not call him often.

3rd day of ramadhan - boy how time flies. I just realised this is my 13th year of fasting on my own. After staying in the hostel back in 1992 I only spent ramadhan with my family during the weekend and 1 week before hari raya. Then in 1998, I worked in Batam - spent ramadhan with another friend of mine. In 1999, I started working in Singapore and been spending ramadhan by myself eversince. Actually there was one time (1999) when my sis was still working in Singapore n mom was around supervising the house upgrading that we had ramadhan together. After that, I only spend the last days of ramadhan with my family. Oh I think 2 years ago I even spent hari raya alone here 'cos I had exam the following day.
I wonder when will I be able to spend the whole month of ramadhan with my families.

Anyways, weekend is just 30 mins away. Going home to break fast before hitting the gym. I changed my gym schedule unlike the past 2 years where I broke my fast at the office or even in the gym itself. I want to get the best of both - so the only way is to attend the 8.50 classes.

I can't wait for next friday when juwi and alun will be in town. My sis definitely has a list of foods she's going to have and I will drag my friend to try it as well. Can't wait for that!

Who said having someone helping you is good.

The new staff is now my responsibility. I shoud assign jobs to her, something that has got to do with the project before bringing her in for the project. Problem is all the things I'm doing ties to each other hence difficult to assign part of it to someone who doesn't know the system as a whole. So then we came up with an idea of a simple application - a so called XML converter that's going to be used for the HR first, if it's fine we might use it for the financial system too.
She's almost done with this application, I guess early next week. I will then run through with her before showing it to the boss. I drag this moment, 'cos if she's done with that I have to come out with something else for her.
Thought she'll be helping hp on the conversion soon - apparently not that soon!

I've been nagging people in HK and OZ...
I remember when the NZ guys came, john was suprised to know the real me - he said that I was different from what they pictured based on the emails I sent them. Yeah, the nagging email is because I was told to send those email chasing after them. Eversince then everytime I sent email he will reply saying he knew who's nagging me hehe..

I'm done with chasing HK. Now I need to chase OZ.
Apparently the guy was on leave and my boss insisted me to send email to the CIO and chase him instead. I feel so bad - chasing them when we're the one who's in need of their help.

Everytime my boss sees me her 1st question will be 'have you got the reply from OZ?' If I said no she suggested that I send another email reminding them.

I guess the next time she ask me this question, I will jokingly answer that the only way for me to chase OZ now is by flying to sydney!

Today's closing so decided to concentrate on this and forget about the rest. Decided to have 1 round of game before doing the debtors ageing. That is when I realised how long I haven't play any games especially this one. It's kinda addictive but I love it!!

gonna play 'til level 10 before getting back to work.

1. server crashed
2. roll-out of system with lotsa teething problem
3. studying the ssh application
4. chasing oz for the sql-side conversion script

have to do all in one go - phew!
the server crashed was so devastating especially that it happened 1 DAY before closing. Like we had no things to do we had to reinstall enServe, enAdmin, n enTransfer. Decided to use the LIS server for the time being which means back to square one for the LIS.

Came in a bit late today that I attended the conference call halfway - lucky it's not my part yet. Sigh, had to lie to them saying the server is ready n it will be installed w the f-secure soon. I even said that we'd generate the key pair n send the public key to them before our next conference call. Such confidence when the server is now deployed for enTime!! Wonder when will we get the replacement - knowing how everything works here especially when it's involving new machine, ages will be the answer.

1st day of ramadhan - had my morning meal with a cousin of mine. Poor girl, she didn't intend to stay but had to when the project she did w/ her friend wasn't completed yet. She had to eat whatever available - I hope she didn't mind having a very light meal ;)
Talking abt ramadhan - one thing I miss most from fasting in my country is the sense of respect other people have. Back in my country, people will said 'sorry' whenever they eat in front of you - some even restrain eating in public out of respect. Even my flatmate close her door when she's having a meal at home while Im fasting. Not that I'm so particular or get tempted easily - I'm too old for that - but I just miss the sense of respect. Here, they just eat in front of you, even talk to you with their mouth full *something I totally hate.
Well, different culture different courtesy ya...

2 wakeboarding invitation during fasting month
*sigh gotta pass this invitation .. hopefully there's an invitation for november

at last I managed to find out abt the missing instructor *grin. He was assigned to work oversea for 6 mths - apparently the new office location is because it's a new office. Haiz, should've attended his friday class and bid him farewell.

*mudah2an aja tugas ke kl bikin dia kembali ke jalan yg benar n gak suka sesama jenis lagi .. kasian aja sih, orang baik tp dilaknat tuhan*

A sweet Pact

A friend of mine suggested that we made a pact - if we reach a certain age and still single, we'll stay together and take care of each other.
Such a sweet pact - but I hope this won't happen!

Its raining so looks like watching corpse bride is cancelled. Nothing to do n still lazy to clean the house here...

Oh ya, yesterday in the gym's locker I overheard (more like eavesdropped actually) 2 girls talking about the instructor. I really wanna know 'cos I didn't attend his class last friday so no chance of asking him. These girls are talking in a mix of mandarin n english so I didn't get the whole story but what I learned abt is nothing I haven't know. Basically his new office location made it difficult for him and that he's so busy n tired that last friday he was like dragging himself to class - I guess his taking a short break. I remember my other friend said that if he continue doing what he's been doing he's gonna end up bad.
Well, hope it's just a short break from teaching - I actually checked w the club n they said there's no news of him resigning. Thank God.
I know people are wondering about me enjoying his class a lot n thought I have some sort of feelings. Haha .. totally wrong. I simply enjoy his class 'cos he's so motivational n he made an effort to know each person better so we kinda like him for being caring. He's also the only instructor I dare to approach n request for songs.

Another good news - finally .. FINALLY! juwi is coming to town - after 6 years of living here I finally have one of my buddy visiting me! She was unsure when I suggested it since she's on leave n there's nothing can be done in Jakarta during fasting month. I think she feels bad visiting me during ramadhan, right ju? Well, not to worry - I think I'm way too old to be tempted by food here ;)
Can't wait for her arrival ...

its not even 9 AM sunday morning and Im wide awake - done with my ironing and laundry that Im only left with cleaning the house but Im not in the mood for that, so decided to blog instead.

Yesterday was not a bad weekend. Started by going to the gym, well the intro step class is better than last week. Maybe he started with the really basic moves and now he's upgraded it a bit. I might continue going to his class if it continues to be this way. After step I went down to have my lunch - Indonesian fried rice. Have been wanting to try this for weeks but always ended ordering ketoprak instead, so yesterday I tried it and finally I found a fried rice that is really authentic Indonesian style. Met eileen afterwards then we went up for combat.

From gym I headed back home 'cos tonite I'm meeting kimi and some other guys for the stand up comedy. The comedy was okay - can't understand some of it 'cos some of the jokes are too british. The 3rd guy really suck that he ended being boo-ed and left the stage looking annoyed. Apparently this was his 1st time being boo-ed, said the 1st guy who had to go back on stage replacing his place. Overall I think I enjoyed listening to kimi's laughter more than listening to the jokes.

After the gig was over, we stayed back listening to the in-house band performing. Great band I should say. We let our hair down and enjoy the music, well I for one was initially 'forced' to let my hair down. Im always like that with people I first met but that's not a good excuse last night - hell, I couldn't even cross my hand without being protested. That is when I decided to loosen up and simply enjoy the nite with everyone. All in all, it was a fun nite out - with friends from all around the globeI managed to stay on track of being healthy as well - a glass of coke n thats it! good girl...

Hoaahem, now dunno what to do - planning to go to city w/ my flatmate later - corpse bride looks like a great movie to watch, so we plan to watch that later. We'll c if it is as good as it looks.

Bad News?

I was browsing california fitness website to see next week's schedule. I noticed that none of the classes in all 3 branches has my favourite instructor name on it. Was he on leave? But I thought he just went for one last week.

I knew that his office is no longer ard city, hence he couldn't make for his normal 6.30 classes. I remember asking him abt this and he confirm saying that he must rushed like crazy to get to the classes that is why he kinda gave up teaching those classes. I also remember a friend of mine saying he has been having lots of problem with his back and knee joints due to overtraining.

Does this mean he gives up teaching? NOOOOO!
I guess I have to find out more abt this from the person itself

Friendster

I was browsing friendster when I noticed the new feature it has - who's viewed me.

I dunno but I find that as some sort of invading privacy - I mean you will now know who has view your profile which might not be quite nice for the person viewing. If there's a stranger viewing your profile you tend to view this person's profile for the sake of curiousness. Then the person will know that you view his/her profile.

hah!

If i were to pick 2 things I can't live without (apart from families, friends, and animals of course), it surely are Panadol n Coke.
Woke up with a very bad headache that I couldn't hardly sit, let alone stand - I know that Im falling sick when it was followed by continuous sneezing. But life goes on n I can't afford not going to work today, especially when there's a new joiner orientation later n I have to present the enTime part. Simply forced myself out of bed n had shower n breakfast before popping 2 panadols. While I was in the train the pounding in my head reduced a bit - quite a relief as I was quite afraid I'm gonna make another scene by fainting in the MRT. Reached office and had a can of coke to booze my energy. It helps - still feeling headache but at least there's an additional energy thanks to the coke. I know its bad but at least I manage to sit still and start working.

I remember saying how much I miss coding. Well, today I wish I could take it back. Now that the HK's application is up and ready for HR to do a proper test, I move on to the next things to do on my list - interface and conversion part of the global financial system.

Couldn't really concentrate at work so I put on hold studying OZ's conversion scripts. It's so complicated especially with my not so advance Unix scripting knowledge.
Decided to convert their .NET programs to our version of .NET instead. Sigh - I thought it'll be a straight forward thingy with less complications. Boy I was wrong.
I simply stared blank at the list of directories of programs given dunno which one is the first project and where is the solution. Without proper documentations, I really dunno where to start. Well, I guess I still have to go through all the projects n see where's the head and tail of things.

And we thought using the OZ's application will make our life less complicated ...

My 1st wakeboarding lesson ...

Yupe, finally I DID IT!
It was my best experience EVER! - can't be compared with fencing, fitness capoeira, bridge climbing, kayaking, reverse bungee/sling shot, parasailing, underwater walk, banana boat or anything I'd done before - period! Well at least for now 'cos I haven't try bungee jumping and diving yet ;)

But it WAS a great experience for me since I've been wanting to try this for ages. Went there alone and met few new friends there. Basically it was a wakeboarding workshop and each of us had hands-on twice or thrice. Well, I still couldn't stand *grin couldn't even rock forward as I tend to pull the bar when u're supposed to let it pull u. Guess I'm used to pulling the bars in the gym that I did this automatically. The guys kept on telling me not to fight the water 'cos I surely wouldn't be the winner heeee.
After the session was over me and 3 other girls decided to stay back awhile and hang out with the guys there - we hop in the boat twice while they had their practice. One of the stance which looks like superman 'cos he's actually flying was totally AWESOME.
Drank lots of salty water as well - yuks! But I love it and we were thinking of signing up for the course. Well, I will sign up after ramadhan is over. Can't wait to be in the water again - hopefully this time I can stand for a long period, at least rock forward for more than 20 seconds ;).

should I or should I not?

A friend of mine message me to join her n her buddies at the club tomorrow nite. She's been asking this for weeks and I always find excuse to escape it. She even called last week asking when can we catch up. Now I feel bad that I'm thinking of going just for a while. Anyway, the place is quite interesting, always wanna see this place but going there alone made me think twice. Yes, I'll meet her there but still ...
should I or should I not go? *contemplating*
I guess if I go, I'll just make an appearance and leave early...

Already cancelled tonite's dinner with friends 'cos another auntie of mine had surgery this morning and I think this must be prioritize over some dinner. I hope my friend doesn't mind knowning that she purposedly ask me along so that I can make new friends there. A sweet auntie of mine will wait 'til I reach the hospital and accompany me visiting this auntie - thanks auntie pah!

Oh ya, tommorrow I'll be going for a wakeboarding workshop *woohoooo* FINALLY. I decided to go for the workshop eventhough none of my friend can make it and let's see if I'll find ppl there who's interested to sign up for the course.
And I've bought the ticket to this 1nitestand comedy for next week - with a bunch of ppl who I haven't meet before. Well, I know one of the girl and saw another girl's face during the dinner at chicos but other than that - zip. Getting more and more brave now huh! - I guess this is the only way to make new friends.

I'm in the mood of some italian food by the way - hmm, maybe should check w/ my flatmate if she's in the mood for some fine dining as well so that we can have a great italian lunch on sunday.

its been a hectic day yesterday and today - since I got time to catch my breath awhile, I decided to use it for blogging.
Went to hospital during my lunch break to visit my auntie. Its not serious but they just want to keep her there for observation for few more days I guess.
On my way there was when I realised that TTSH has been a common place to visit since last year when this same auntie was admitted when her vein in the brain bursted.

Time flies so fast that without realising it fasting month is just around the corner. Then I started to remember things that happen during the last fasting month. Its not my 1st time fainting - its my 2nd inside the MRT - but definitely the worst faint I'd ever experience and will never want to experience again!

I remember when I regain conciousness I was surrounded by a lot of people but I can't remember anything back then, guess I walked out of the train and followed the staff to a place where I could lie down. I remember crying in the staff room because I dunno what had happened to me - I couldn't recall what I did earlier (gym), where I was heading to (friend's house), and I simply couldn't recall what I did the night before (watching tv when my flatmate reached home). I remembered hearing my mum cried on the phone (baby, what happen to u - where r u - oh my god what happen to u?) when I simply couldn't remember calling my house in jakarta (i dunno, mummy is it fasting month? - mummy I'm scared) *see how when there's trouble mum is the 1st one to call*
What I did remember is the mrt staff all looked worried because I couldn't recall anything ;).
I tried to be calm by opening my bag and see whats inside - when I saw the gym clothing I asked the staff what day it was and called my gym friend asking if I met her ealier. That is when I started to get back on track though I still couldn't recall why there's a present with me.

Luckily my mum called my aunt and I called my flatmate when I regain more conciousness. They picked me up at the station n my aunt brought me to the hospital - there's a big lump at the back of my head that I was advised to had it scanned ASAP.

A year almost passed by and I haven't have the scan done - a friend reminded me to have it done soon 'cos there might be a clog or something else 'cos I kinda lost my short memory before. Guess I'll have it done soon after hari raya.

After quite a hectic day yesterday, i decided to have an easy day today. After all I've sent the files to US and can't do anything before they give us the feedback. HongKong hasn't reply my email which means I can't continue the configuration of the dB. IT hasn't finish configuring the new server so I'm left with more readings but I've been like crazy yesterday handling a lot of things at the same time that my body was shaking in panic while solving all the problems at one go. Hah! and to think what luck I have, just as my colleagues were away lots of their applications have problem.

Just finished watching episode 9 and 10 of the korean series during my extended lunch time *hehe. Plan to finish all tonite. It's quite a romantic story - well, typical of teenage drama. I always have a soft spot when it come to this kind of genre .. can't deny this - I love romance movies.

Just heard a news abt one of my friend. She had a bad break up early this year. Well, I always suspect that one day the guy will take advantage of her. She's so very helpful to this person, emotionally and financially, that I told another friend of mine that this guy is a definited bastard if he ended up breaking my friends heart. And guess what, he really did that! I remember the early weeks after her breakup and I can't do much, just gave her few encouraging words of advise. But I think they're already in an unhealthy relationship for quite some time that she could easily move on and actually have found someone else now. That's fast - considering I'm still the same single old me ;).
Now I hear that her new guy is a nice person who's also stable financially which means she can enjoy what she's been missing before. This new guy is quite mature and that he said he never thought he'd meet someone - he always thought he'd end up single, made me think that I might hear a wedding bell soon. I'm just so happy for her and I hope they last long.

well, I hope someday I can write my own story - not a bad one I hope

1.5 weeks of solutide and korean drama for the weekend

with my colleagues away for the training, Im left alone in this room - its freezing when u're all by urself in this place, and I have to cope w/ it 'til next wednesday.

Weekend has been quite a peaceful one, sunday that is. Went to the gym on saturday - was quiet sad that now the intro step was taken over by another instructor and apparently it's more to intro step moves than intro step. Not much movements being taught there and the last part of the class is for abs, I wonder how am I going to upgrade to the B/I class soon with this pace, I guess I have to re-arrange my gym schedule to attend intro step at other branch with other instructor. Heard toni's class is good - probably I'll switch to her class then.

Had done combat 25 twice! it was a fun launch especially when 23 and 24 is not that great. Attended the launch on friday at bugis where the instructors are aldressed up like ninjas :) There's a lot of new movements so its so fun.

Decided not to attend the mid autumn celebration with my friends and also said no to a friend asking to meetup for a drink - I just want to spend the weekend at home. But then my uncle called and I felt bad if I didn't go the the gathering at his friend's place :(
So after gym, I headed down to my uncle's friend's house - its her housewarming cum b'day gathering so we spent the entire evening listening to my uncles' karaoke-ing, eating and of course birthday cake - luckily I went to the gym earlier.

Sunday is - as usual - time for me to do my ironing. Plan to spend the entire day reading the book I rent. But my flatmate came in with this korean series and asked me to watch it if Im free. I started to watch episode 1 and the next thing I knew Im done with episode 6. Gosh - this series is actually a devil in disguise. I missed Gilmore Girls, Oprah - actually I didn't switch on tv at all. I even cancelled going out for lunch and just ate whatever left in the fridge.

Its monday now, and I just spent the last hour watching episode 7. After blogging I promise to have some work done before heading out to buy lunch and spend my lunch break watching episode 8.

oh ya finally, finally!! I managed to watch wicker park on cable. Nice movie - i like it a lot.
Basically, if u're destined to be with someone u'll end up with this someone, even when others are trying to break u apart.